Pinstripe:this is a very angsty one be warned!

Alois: Pinny just go to the story

Pinstipe:DON"T CALL ME PINNY!

Alois: fine fine fine I'll call you little whore

Pinstripe:-_- ::DISCLAIMER:: I DO NOT OWN LOVELESS OR ANY OF ITS CHARACTERS

The crimson blood dripped onto the tiles of Soubi's bathroom floor. The blood slid down my pale wrist.

Youji tells me to stop hurting myself, but...how is it hurting myself when I feel no pain? I wish I had pain...it's a signal that you're alive just like soubi said. I looked at the marks on my arm the I cut my self. The English letters spelt out my name, my true name.

ZERO

I was crying in the corner next to the bathtub...It may not physically hurt but, it does hurt...in my heart...in my mind...in my soul...

I was about midnight, I think, in my eyes the full moon looked as blood as my curly long hair. Soubi and Youji are sound asleep in their beds."W-Why...why can't I be normal? Why can't I feel pain?" My blood mixed with the salty tears on the floor. The knife I stole fro the kitchen glistened with my blood. It would be nice once say "ouch" or "man that hurts." My purr white nightgown was now stained. With my stronger arm I tightened my tan eyepatch.

I was feeling faint, my tail twitching. I head the door click. "NATSUO!" The blood loss was getting to be too much. "Y-Youji." I felt my vision going black, blacker then Ritsukas soft hair.

"NATSUO WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?" I felt him picking up my limp body. Picking me up? I had fallen? "Natsuo stay with me! Don't close your eyes!" His long green hair floated upon my skin. "N-Natsuo." He sounded like he was crying. Was he feeling pain right now? Pain in his heart? Like me?

I felt tears other than my own hit my face.

"Youji stay with me." My voice was shaky. "Hold on Natsuo, I'll be right back." He kissed my forehead with shaking lips. I felt being gently laid onto the tiles, I heard what sounded like a cabinet opening. Something that felt thin was being rapped around my arm. "This will stop the bleeding Natso-chan.""Y-Youji.""Yes?"" It didn't hurt."

I heard him sob more, why cry for me?-

I heard water running.

I felt the cloth of my nightgown sliding off my skin. I grimaced at touching the sticky blood on the hard floor, which was soon replaced by water... I wonder if it was hot... I felt his hands washing the matts of blood mixed in my hair,ears and tail. His hands felt soothing his nails slightly scratching my scalp.

I felt water flow over my head slowly, I peeked open my eyes, I saw suds dripping down my chest.

"Sit up Natsuo." I lifted my head off the porcelain edge of the bathtub. He grabbed a white bar of soap and scrubbed my back. "MmmM...t-that feels nice." I felt the bar of soap rub upon my chest and arms. A wet cloth cleansed my face. I opened my eyes again,the water in the bath was slightly stained with my blood making the water look slightly red. Youji took the plug out letting the water drain . He used a towel to mop up the blood. He grabbed another towel and rapped it around my body.

His arms lifted and surrounded me.

He kissed my forehead. "Never scare me like that again."I'm sorry Youji, I-I-I wanted to see if once...it would hurt...but it didnt..." I felt horrible, i'm his fighter, I should be the one taking care of him,fighting for him.

He set me down on our shared bed, my naked body slipped out of the towel and onto the bed. The sheets crinkled, my head dented the blush pillow. I don't remember Youji changing me but, i felt pants rub upon my thighs. "Im so sorry Youji." I grasped his hand. "So sorry.""You have nothing to be sorry about.""Yes I do! I'm your fighter! I'm supposed to take care of you!" My voice trembled.

He squeezed my hand and laid down next to me, raping his arm around my naked waist.

I broke down crying. "Shhhh...its ok Natsuo ...i'm here." He softly stroked my kitten ears. "Natsuo we are zero nothing can hurt us." Except ourselves..." I said glumly as i rested my head on his chest, tears leaking from the corner of my eye.

He held up my hand and examined them. "Blood, blood is on your fingers."

I did see a few red stains on my fingers but, it was nothing to fuss about. He kissed my fingers before licking the blood of, a small blush rose to my pale cheeks, It was faint but red enough to match the color of my hair. "Y-Youji" His green ears flattened on his head. "Sleep Natsuo sleep."

My eyes fluttered close I felt my body slowly falling into a world of dreams, but before I fell asleep, unless it was my imagination, I swear I could hear a faint voice say. "I'll love you always."

Pinstripe:awh

Alois:needs mor esx

Pinstripe:oh shut up anyway review

-chu