at first, the fire in your eyes made
me breathless
you were so alive, so beautiful
every step you took was filled with
life, with strength
I loved you
I wanted you
but as time went on, I saw I did not
need you
your gentle smiles were never for me,
no matter how much I wanted them
your touch was reserved for another,
one you knew would never love you back
your eyes never lingered on me, but
on a small girl
one I hated
one I loved
and my feelings were so mixed for such
a long time
I hope you never know what it is like
to have your heart torn, like what you did to me
but I know you do, for that is what
she did to you
and I wish with everything I am that
you would let me comfort you
to still your tears
to stop your pain
because despite everything that you've
done to me, I still love you
but I know you will never love me back
so I content myself to loving you from
a distance
to helping you when I can, not interfering
as you are to her
so I am to you
