Aerith woke up to a bright light shining glaring through her bedroom window, she woke up in the bed alone. She got up, got dressed and went down stairs and find her Fiance - Zack talking with his friends from work, Rude and Reno, they were in the same line of work as he was, Zack barely talked to Aerith about them or anything work related.
She heard them laughing and chuckling together, probably over typical man stuff. She sat behind a corner of a wall eavesdropping, and heard a female voice there as well, and gasped into her hand.
"It was thanks to you that the mission went a great as it did, Zack" The woman said in a modest feminine and polite voice "Cissnei, you know I couldn't have done it without you by my side." Zack said calling her name familiarly.
Aerith heard that and returned upstairs quickly before Zack heard her.
If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me
Aerith sat hugging her knees, her eyes dry from tears she had been crying, she felt so alone, waiting for him again. She grabbed her phone and looked on it for messages that may have been left for her by him. There was nothing, no calls, recent messages. She threw the phone at the wall and cupped her face in her hands crying more. She ran her hands through her bangs sadly, she got up quickly to straighten herself up.
She sat in front of the mirror on a small stool looking at her own tear stained face. Her eyes had become red from tears.
Tears started to fall again she couldn't hold them back, she slowly hung her face into her hands, she stopped grabbing a cloth to wipe running makeup from her face, lipstick that had been worn to prepare for a date, eyeshadow and mascara that had shaded her now sad looking eyes was wiped away slowly.
Aerith went into the bathroom, she was washing her face, she grabbed in cupped hands some water and splashed her face one, grabbing a towel and drying her cheeks and eyes and then the rest of her face followed.
She started to cry again as she lent against the wall slowly sliding to the ground, hugging her knees letting the sobs come.
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
"Hey..." Aerith asked and turned to Zack, she was wearing a dress she bought for a date they had planned. He was going through messages on his phone eagerly. "...How do you think this looks? Do you like it?" She smiled and twirled around to show him the dress.
"Yeah sure, Aerith you know you look good in everything..." He said absent minded as he was still looking through his phone messages.
She turned away slowly feeling a bit foolish for asking him such a dumb question.
I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
Zack and Aerith sat at a restaurant table, just across form her Zack sat he was flirting with her acting perfectly normal, Zack smiled at her and Aerith forced a smile back. His phone rang. He picked it up and looked at the number and made a dubious face.
"Who is it?" Aerith asked as she saw his strange face.
"Its work stuff..." He said and went on "Hey, Aerith I have to take this 'kay?" He said smiling and caressing her cheek. "No, of course I understand, go." She smiled weakly. And turned to watch him leave the restaurant alone, she hugged her ribs in pain, hanging her head low.
A waitress came up to the table and dropped a slip down.
"Here's your tab, ma'am."
Aerith watched Zack leave from the window seat.
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone
Zack and Aerith were at a party being thrown for a successful mission that had been completed, Zack was with Rude, Reno and Cissnei. They were all talking about work and many other things that they had gone through that day, they were laughing and telling great stories.
Aerith watched from a distance. She saw Zack lean down intimately to Cissnei's ear and whisper something to her, he smiled flirtatiously and got a shy smile out of Cissnei who kissed his neck softly.
Aerith turned away shocked pretending not to have seen anything, she held her hand to her mouth her finger tips touching her lips as she felt a struggle to breathe.
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home
Zack and Aerith sat at home after the party that had been thrown in Zack and his teams honor. Aerith was finished getting ready for bed as she stepped into the next room and heard Zack speaking to someone on the phone.
"Aerith and I are probably going to sleep now, we could go do something after she falls asleep...yeah...okay see you then." He hung up the phone and Aerith stepped out into the room with a determined face, hands on her hips, she looked at Zack and shook her head in expectancy and disappointment.
"Zack, I'm getting sick of this!" She asserted.
"What, Aerith?" He had no clue what was going on.
"Late night calls, dates, ditching me on our dates!" She shouted angrily "I know its Cissnei, the woman from work!" She held her hand to her heart in anger. "How could you? Do I mean nothing to you anymore! I though you lov-" she was cut off midway. "Its not like I'm sleeping with her. He said in a patronizing tone becoming distant and cold.
Aerith felt breath pent up in her lungs, she could have sworn she swallowed her heart, or maybe her heart was leaving her body, why did he say that? She gave a painfully sad look and watched Zack get up and start to leave the room, he put on a jacket and walked to the door.
"Don't wait up." He exited the house afterward.
Aerith lent back against the wall she couldn't believe what he just said to her. She held her hand to her mouth gasping, tears started to fall from her cheek slowly meeting her hand, she felt the warm water trickling from her eyes more rapidly.
But you're just a boy...