Hi guys, this story of Elsword is very different than the other one I'm working on. I have a Reckless Fist in the game now and I have been thinking: does anyone ever mentioned a father /son like link between Raven and Elsword? If so I'm sorry if my story have similarities, but I really want to write a story about those two (not together together, but Raven acting like a father towards Elsword). So, unlike stories it's Aisha or Rena that can calm his dark el inside him, Raven will be the chosen one because of one tiny reason: Elsword saw him like the father he never know and have (honestly I don't know if his father is dead or not, but in this story he was just with his sister). Here's the class:

Elsword- Infinity Sword (16)

Raven- Reckless Fist (27)

Elesis- Crimson Avenger (20)

Add- Mastermind (19)

Chung- Tactical Trooper (17)

Aisha- Elemental Master (18)

Rena- Grand Archer (-)

Eve- Code Battle Seraph (-)

Ara- Asura (20)

P.S: Add is not mean with Elsword, oh no. He is totally the opposite, he had replace Elesis, he acts like a big brother with him. You will know with the story. If you want a couple just comment it, the only two I WON'T do is: Elsword/Aisha and Raven/Rena (I just hate these couples). Any other are fine with me, even yuri or yaoi.

Am I myself or not?

Chapter one: Fear of darkness

Elsword pov:

I don't know what is happening with myself. I can't train hard because at some point I see dark spots and when they're gone, all I see is an ocean of blood... And the scary part is I'm covered in it... The first time it happened... I remember it very well, I screamed so hard that I lost my voice. Fortunately Add find me quickly. He asked me what happened with a face full of fear and worried. I couldn't talk so I just began to cry. Because he didn't know what to do, Add send one of his drone to find somebody to help. He tried to calm me but I was beginning to panic when I saw a dark figure approaching us. No... Why? Why is she here? I looked at Add with fear in my eyes, but he wasn't looking where she was, he was looking at me with concern and he was worried about me. Why aren't you looking over there?! She's there! She wants me! She wants me to join her but I don't! I don't want to kill people! Losing my calm, I was beginning to hyperventilates when I heard someone scream our names. I was to scared to look back so I just close my eyes and wait for something to happened... Big mistake...

- "Are you scared of me Elsword? Your big sister." I heard the voice of my sister reasoning inside my head, like poison. She was laughing at me...

- "SHUT UP! You're not my sister! She would never...

-" That's where you're wrong little brother, you and I were born to be with Ran and his demons from the beginning. Little by little you will lose yourself into the dark els and after that, you will seek our lord." She was laughing darkly and I was scared. My deepest fear was beginning: loosing myself...

"Three days after"

Raven's pov:

- He... He didn't wake up yet?

I look at the heir of Hamel, seeing his concerned for our leader. Him and Elsword are best friend so it's pretty normal for him to be worried. It's normal for all of us. The two of us found, three days ago Elsword and Add into the forest but something was off. Els wasn't himself. For some reason he was hyperventilate and panicking. Chung tried to help him but he kept his eyes closed. Add told us that he heard him scream and when he reached him, Elsword couldn't talk anymore and he was scared. Chung ask if someone was nearby but the Mastermind told us no one was there, the forest was peaceful as ever.

- "Raven... Is he okay? Or... " Chung was looking at Elsword and was shaking, not in fear but I think he is angry. Angry that we don't know what is happening. I have to say, the kid is more calm than Add. The later was so angry that when Aisha said maybe it was joke, he nearly hit her with Apocalypse. Fortunately Ara stopped him, saying that now wasn't the time to be against each other and she was right... I sign and look straight at Chung blue eyes.

- "Chung I will repeat myself again, I don't know. Elsword never mention something like this before, so I can't really think of som..." Then it hits me. When he saw the look of my eyes, Chung knew.

-" What? Raven what is it?"

- " Do... Do you remember last week?" I was deadly serious. Last week, it was when Elsword became one with the dark els and became Infinity Sword.

- " Of course I remember, Elsword became an Infinity Sword... Not by choice but..." I cut Chung right after.

- " Exactly, it wasn't his choice. You remember that Amethyst was the one who sealed the dark els inside of his body. Fortunately Cornwell help him to control it but..." My thoughts were not that good if I had to say so.

- " Are you saying the dark els are trying to take over him!?" Chung was panicking. He got it wrong...

- " No, I'm not saying that. What I meant to say is: the dark els are transforming is mind... Just like it did with his sister." I remember when we saw Elesis at Feita.

In the beginning, Elsword was so happy to see her that he cried, but... The moment he took a step closer, she killed many people, a smile at her face. I was more than angry. That day she traumatised Elsword so hard that he close himself with us. The one who bring him back was Add. We were all surprised at first but the kid just said that the face Els had when he saw the rampage of his sister was the same when Add had been captured when he was a kid. It turns out Elsword was now calling him big brother whenever they were together of when he was searching for him. Honestly, me, Chung, Ara and Eve thought it was cute to see them acting that way, but Rena and Aisha don't trust Add so...

- " Alright then, if that's the case what are we suppose to do genius?" I heard the voice of Add to Elsword. I look at Elsword and jsut beside the bed, Add was sitting on the floor, not so happy.

- " Add, don't be so mean with Raven...

- " Shut up prince! Miss grape made me mad again, so you better don't push your luck to much did I make myself clear!?" What did Aisha do again?

- " Add, all of us are worried about Els, so don't act that way. Especially with Chung, you know they are best friend." I see Add frowning at me, but after a minute or two, he sign and look at Chung.

- " Sorry... I just..

- " It's okay Add I understand... If anyone have the right to be angry like that it's you. You were the one with Elsword, so I can understand how difficult it was... For the both of you." Chung said this with a sad smile. Poor kid, he doesn't sleep very well. Neither does Add.

- You have no idea prince..." And just like that he began to shake and sob. I can't judge him, Add has so much anxiety and pression inside of him, it's almost scary. I just hope Elsword wake up soon, his "big brother" needs him I think.

Author's pov:

He was breathless. What is this place? Where is he? No one could answer those questions. Elsword was in a dark place covered in blood. Fear. Loneliness. Despair. It's his feeling and he doesn't like it. Being alone in a place like this is not what you would choose to rest.

- "Cornwell! Raven! Chung! Anyone, are you there!?" The boy ask, but none of his friend give him an answer. When he decide to take one step forward, bubbles began to show where the lake of blood was. Elsword didn't like it one bit.

- " What the hell is going!? Add are you there!?" The voice of the red hair has panic and fear inside of it, but his "big brother" couldn't possibly answer. Because Elsword is not in any place, he is inside of his mind. His mind who is beginning to become a perfect host for the dark els. To help the transformation, it will be more wise to corrupt his mind with blood, emptiness and obviously a thirst for killing, just like his sister.

The bubbles began to make a form make of blood and the more Elsword look at it, the more he was scared of it. It wasn't any form, it wasn't any person. It was the form of the one who make him this way, the form of his creator: Amethyst.

Shaking with fear, the boy began to scream with tears out his eyes.

-" STAY AWAY FROM ME!"

Raven's pov:

Chung and Add were about to go when Elsword began to move. Obviously it wasn't that good because we could easily sense something: fear.

Add is the first to react and is immediately beside our leader, taking him by his shoulders, trying to wake him up.

-" Oi Elsword wake up! Oi!" I could sense Add doesn't like what's going on, it's not normal for Elsword to be like this.

- " What the heck is going now!?" I look at Chung really surprise to hear him be that pissed. By the look of his face, he is pissed off because we couldn't do anything right now but hope that Add could wake Elsword up.

When thought Elsword calm down, our nightmare began right after that.

Add's pov:

I was able to calm Elsword and he woke up but, something was off. Because his room was dark I couldn't see very well his face, but the air was...off. Almost scary. I didn't like it, even if I had the surname crazy, I didn't like it one tiny bit.

- "Hey, Elsword are you okay now?" I ask slowly. He just wake up, I can't be impatient right now...

- "Add, something is off with Els." I heard Raven say that. What the fuck? Of course Els is not himself you idiot! Did you see what happened?! God damnit they are slow in this team, except Elsword some times...

I was about to scold Raven about that stupid comment, when I sense something thin on my neck. Hold on a second... IS THAT A SWORD!?

Raven's pov:

Me and Chung watch with horror Elsword pointing Cornwell on Add's neck. We can't hurt Elsword we don't know what is going on so what are we going to do? Scream? I don't think so. When Chung saw that Els was ready to attack, he choose this moment to jump on Elsword immediately and I take the chance to grab Add by his arm.

- "Now I repeat myself, something is off with him!" I am angry at Add because like all the time, he doesn't listen to me and it pissed me off... Shit my arm hurts like hell again! Add look at me with surprise first but then look at my nasod arm.

- " Your arm is hurting you again right?" Thanks captain obvious, I didn't know that... OF COURSE IT HURTS!

- " YES! NOW COULD YOU PLEASE LISTEN TO ME FOR ONCE AND STAY AWAY FROM ELSWORD!" I let my anger take over because my arm seriously hurt me and I don't know what to do.

And... We heard Chung scream in pain. I don't know, but... I think... I think Elsword stab him. Oh god no if that's the case, Elsword will never forgive himself. Just what is going on?