A/N: I hope you guys like this! The italic writing is memories.
One year…that's how long it's been since we lost Tim Speedle.
He was a valued teammate and friend.
He was more to me though, he had been my boyfriend of two years.
It was a nice afternoon; it was also our anniversary, so I decided to visit his grave. I slipped on my shoes and hopped in my car driving to the cemetery. I got out and went straight for his grave; I knew how to get to it by heart. I stood in front of it, "Hey Timmy. I…I really miss you."
Tim and I both were CSIs but we worked different shifts. He had taken the day shift while I had taken the night shift. I was currently in the kitchen making some dinner waiting for Tim to get home. I heard the door open and close. I put the spoon down and walked to the door. I saw Tim taking off his shoes and coat. He looked up at me and smiled, I smiled too and walked over to him, I wrapped my arms around his neck while his arms wrapped around my waist embracing me.
"I wish I had known you were going to leave me or I never would have let you go." I had sat in front of his grave by this time. I started playing with some grass next to my leg; I hadn't been getting much sleep, even Eric had said so and he normally doesn't notice those kinda things when it came to me. I just found it so much harder sleeping in a bed that I normally slept in with someone.
"Hey Timmy…" He looked at me from across the table.
"Yeah." I put the fork down, my eyes looking down at the table for a second before looking back at him.
"What would one of us do if the other one were to…" I looked back down at the table, unable to finish. He smiled a soft smile before taking my hand in his.
"Babe, if one of us were to go all I can say was it was our time. We are called home when it's our time, there's nothing we can do to stop it." I nodded.
"Okay, just wondering." He smiled before leaning across the table to lightly kissing my lips.
"You always told me that neither of us would be called home until it was our time…so what happened Timmy?" I looked back at the grave before sighing. "I guess that heaven needed a hero like you Tim. Someone who will stand up for what you believe and follow through with it." I looked back at the grass, no matter how many times I have tried to figure out why he was taken from me so soon…I just can't. So I guess the only conclusion I can stick to is that heaven needed a hero.
I walked through the halls of the lab, right before I ran into Tim I noticed he was walking with Horatio, his head held high with pride. I couldn't help but giggle seeing all those people that were around and I still could easily pick him out from the crowd.
"No matter how many times I say this I can't help but believe it's true. You're a big part of who I am and without you there is a void that I can't just seem to fill." I knew that I would never forget Tim, not with him being my first true love. Horatio kept telling me I didn't have to forget and I'm glad because I wasn't dreaming of it. I looked up at the color changing sky, "I need you Tim…more than anything…but I guess heaven needed you more…"
The day of the funeral was a sad day. Instead of putting on black, I put on my old army suit. I had an honorable discharge while I was there. While we were walking the casket I was in front, looking at all the faces...
Horatio…
Calliegh…
Alexx…
Eric…
And so many others from the Crime Lab and police department, I even saw Tim's parents. When the set the casket down to fold the flag I turned to face the men doing it. When they finished folding it they handed it to me, I held it to my chest and ran my fingers over it. I turned to Tim's parents, walked over to them, and handed it to them.
"I'm sorry for your loss." I whispered a tear running down my face. His mother put a hand on my cheek whipping away the tear. I stood up straight and walked next to Eric. He looked down at me and wrapped an arm around my shoulder. I turned my body slightly to his laying my head on his shoulder.
When the casket was in the ground, everyone had started to leave. I took off my hat and walked over to Tim's parents. When his mother saw me she walked over to me and wrapped me in a hug, crying into my shoulder. I wrapped my arms around her and let the tears fall from my eyes. They had thought of me as one of the family, I was glad; at least I had someone to turn to. When she pulled away I smiled slightly.
"I look at it like heaven needed a hero, and the best one they could have got was Timmy." She smiled slightly before nodding slightly.
A week later I had taken Tim's position on the day shift, to get my mind off of things. I was checking some evidence when Eric came in. I looked up at him and smiled.
"What's up?" I asked. He smiled slightly before reaching into his pocket and pulling out a small velvet box. My smile faded as he quickly tried to explain himself.
"It's not from me; Tim said…I'll just let you read the note." He handed me a note that was written in Tim's hand writing.
'Dear Cristi,
If anything is to happen to me before I get this chance I want Eric to give this to you from me. It's a little late to tell me your answer but I just want you to keep it as a reminder of how much I love you.
I don't want you to mourn to long; I want you to move on and try to be happy. Just remember darling…I love you more than anything else in the world.
Love,
Timmy'
I felt the tears start to run down my face as I put the note down and opened the little box to see a gorgeous gold and silver engagement ring. I slipped it on my finger and started to cry harder. Eric pulled me into a comforting hug.
I chuckled before running my fingers along the name on the grave, "What a way to propose Timmy." I looked up at the sky again to see it almost night time. I stretched before standing up, "Alright, I have work in the morning Timmy so I guess I talk to you later. I love you Timmy." I walked away from the grave to my car. I got in, looked at the ring, and sighed. Just then my phone went off, it was Horatio.
"Hello?" I said as opened my phone. I heard him chuckle slightly.
"Go home and sleep." I smiled; of course he knew I would be here.
"Alright, I'm in the car just getting ready to head out." I said, my smile remaining on my face.
"Alright see you in the morning."
"You too." I said before closing the phone and started the car; with one more look to the grave I drove home, the ring glistening in the sun as my hands rested on the steering wheel.
"I guess heaven was needing a hero
Somebody just like you
Brave enough to stand up
For what you believe
And follow it through
When I try to make it make sense in my mind
The only conclusion I come to
Is heaven was needing a hero
Like you"