Kai didn't know when that wall had cracked inside his head. He was far beyond the lulling state of 'fuck it'.
Sure, it was no coincidence he was here. But right now lying to himself was working for him.
Bonnie entered the Grille with a grin and Kai's lips pulled into a wide smirk. Her face turned to her annoyingly dull friend. What was his name again?
Brad? Matt? Kai noticed his hand rubbing her upper back before he made his way out.
Why was everyone so keen on leaving her alone? He decided to wait a while in his dark corner before making a move.
Not that he would admit it to anyone. But he had watched her a very long time in the Prison World. Long enough to know each mimic on her face.
Yeah, it had not prevented him from being screwed over. Naughty girl. He should have never tagged along that stupid bear in the first place.
Was all his damn fault, really.
He saw her cross her arms as if waiting for the perfect timing. This was Bonnie Fucking Bennett.
He wouldn't be surprised if she'd already noticed him. She would burn the place to the ground just to 'melt off [his] face'. Her words, not his.
"Watcha up to?" He approached her from behind as if surprising a long lost friend. Bonnie turned around giving him a quick glance before turning away again.
"Oh, Bonnie, always too busy to talk to me," he chuckled stepping next to her while watching her side-profile.
"It's because your voice is the last thing I need," Bonnie's voice was too calm, eyes in the distance.
"That's what I'm missing about the Prison World ya know," his glance slid down before checking on her face again. "No distractive hussle, no timing problems."
Kai sighed leaning in her ear. "How's your magic doing? Started blocking out your surroundings yet?"
She uncrossed her arms her mouth standing agape. How the hell did Kai know about that?
Kai grinned raising his eyebrows as if cheering after making a lucky guess.
"Take that as a yes," he drowled in her ear. Bonnie turned around not caring how close his face was now.
"Don't you have other people to harrass?" she hissed. "I already served my time in 1994 listening to you."
He traced her lips with the tip of his finger, his smile long gone. Her eyelids fell halfway.
He swallowed, his eyes taking a black that put his walls back up.
"It's happened to me, too, ya know," he murmured his finger moving south to rest on her chin. Her green eyes glared in alarm and Kai let out
a breath that sounded like a pained chuckle at the burn marks on his skin but continued his speech.
"After I got out of that prison," he drawled.
"I suffered the same things, Bonnie. Shutting off voices, everything turning into a frozen black and white scene, me the only being in colour.
It's like becoming the void for a moment and the next – tadaa you're back and people didn't even notice your disappearance."
Bonnie jutted her chin. "How did you stop it?"
Kai shrugged. "There might be a spell but since my voice is the last thing you need-"
He let go of her turning on his wheel but grinned when he felt her palm on his arm. "Wait," she breathed out. "Show me."
He faced her with a boyish grin. "You show me yours and I show you mine, right?"
"First of all, all this is the result of one thing: Believe it or not, Bon, this is happening because you want to go back to 1994."
Bonnie pulled a disgusted face. "Why the hell would I want that?"
Kai pursed his lips.
"Not an expert but must be some kind of anxiety – uh- thingy. Kinda happened to me whenever I felt like tearing apart a whole crowd."
He sighed.
"Seems, we're craving that isolation thing. So our magic puts a fake 'other side' upon us to push us through that crisis."
"The alternative would be nasty, though," he added. "So guess not all bad."
Bonnie perked up her eyebrows sending him a questioning look.
"You know you lashing out on people," Kai explained with a 'duh' face.
"The only way to stay here whenever the anxiety hits is to distract yourself," he leaned closer to her over the table.
"It's all about tricking your own mind till that trick becomes your reality."
Bonnie narrowed her eyes. "What's yours? Your distraction?"
Kai took in the frown on her face.
"Depends on my mood. It has to be something that provokes feelings in you that'd keep you here. That's for you to find out, though."
He sat up sighing.
"Make a list and then call me. We'll find out what works."
Then he smirked walking past her. Bonnie followed him with her eyes.
This black out thing really started to be a problem. She played it down as getting overwhelmed by crowdy places when her friends were around.
But at each black out she was unable to access her magic.
She frowned as Kai turned around to mimic a phone in his hand mouthing one last 'Call Me'.
Ugh. She hated him.
That night she dreamed of fucking him in each restroom of Mysic Falls High School.