Hey guys, I really want to apologize again because it seems that I can't make up my mind with my story. But I promise you this is final. Lately I have been reading a lot of Grimmjow fanfiction and its really amazing, this is what lead to the change of character. However the change of story was all because I realize the story or plot before was just a bit too similar to a story I read, I never meant it to be similar so I apologize if I offended anyone. I just hope this new story is good enough for you guys. This is a GrimmNel fanfiction. Enjoy!

"Nel why don't you go back to school" Well I thought about going back to school, but how can I, when I wasted my chances and it's not like I have the money to pay for the school fees now.

"Tia I don't know... Maybe I should just look for a job as a nanny you know, after all I can't be leaving these two alone"

"Alright if you say so"

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I know you're all probably wondering what just happened there. We'll let me enlighten you.

My name is Neliel tu odelschwanck,some people call me Nel for short, so just call me Nel. I used to be a student at karukara university, which is one of the best universities, thanks to my scholarship I was offered a place. Oh yeah One more thing, I have a 1 year old kid. I live with my best friend Tia, my son and little brother Ayako who is 10. well I used to live with my older brother but he died.

My life hasn't been so great since the death of my brother, not like it was ever great in the first place but the death of my brother, who was my only father figure really had an impact on me, Ayako and my son lives, he was my sons and younger brother father figure also, he used to babysit for me when I was busy, he was just amazing, Kaien Shiba.

I know you're probably wondering why we have different surnames. Our parents divorce and they each took a child or two with them, Ayako and I went with daddy and since I was a daddies little girl and Ayako was always by my side and kaien went with my mother and she changed his surname to hers. Our parents died in a car accident, they were planing to get back together and on their way to sign some papers they got in a car accident and since then we never thought of changing our names, well kaien's name to be precise since it cost a lot of money.

This is just a brief background of me, so Why not I start from the begin when everything were not great but at least better than then and now.

I had my son when I was 18, it might of been an accident but I love my son very much. Me and the father of my son are no more. Well never really were in the first place. I'm not very proud of the relationship I had with the man, he was some kind of a sugar daddy since he was 30 years old when I was only 18. He was My resource for money. You see I come from a very poor family, I lost my parents at a very young age and since then,my older brother took care of me and my younger brother Ayako. Our income was very low, we will spend money but money hardly came in, so I had to find another way to raise money and I couldn't find a proper job because I had school and It's really hard finding jobs nowadays.

One day after university, my friend Tia invited me over her parents house for dinner. I really didn't want to go because I knew I had to go home and see if I could find some money so that I can make dinner since there wasn't anymore food to feed us that day and I didn't want to be enjoying rich meals while my brothers Starved. However Tia insisted and promised that she would pack me some food to take home for my brothers. That day was the day I met my sons father. I left Tia since it was getting late and went to the bus stop to wait for my bus. the neighbourhood was known for rich people, I looked around and thought"I could not afford this in a thousand years." I often wondered if one day I can have a family with a man I loved and kids, I love children.

As I was day dreaming a range rover evoque stopped and park at the side road and a man got out and approached me. The man was quite scary with his creepy smile. (Can you guess who it was? Well yes why)GIN ICHIMARU he said his name was and his boss wanted me. I was quite taken back because why would he want me for. Curiosity took over me and I followed the weird man called gin where the car was and I was told to get in, although it was more like a command to get in. There goes all my parents taught me don't speak to strangers and don't get in strangers cars especially rich peoples cars they can kidnapper you with not trace, I mused.

We spoke about me for a about 15 minutes, the guy seemed really nice. He even asked me to join him for dinner but I declined since I already had dinner at Tia's and I was pretty much fullal ready, then I remembered I needed to get going to drop food at home that Tia gave me for my brothers. Just As I was about to get out of the car, he gave me a proposition that he will pay me 25000 dollars every time I meet him and we go out. The offer was very tempting and it meant that I can help my brother with rent, food and buy Ayako anything he wants. I accepted the proposition and we exchanged numbers. Although he never mention the name sex I knew that's what he also meant by going out. Since then I started sleeping with sossuke which resulted in me having my son. Sossuke was the CEO of a well known company, although he was not the riches man in the word or japan he was still rich, he had a net worth of about 150 million dollars. No I did not do any research, im no gold digga, he told me himself, and I never asked. His really a show off. But anyways meeting sossuke resulted in me having my beautiful baby boy.

My brother was very furious with me when he found out I was pregnant. A month and a half from meeting sossuke, we spent a lot of time together, he will take me to expensive restaurants and clothes shops and Everytime my brother will question me where I got the clothes, money or where I'm going I would say "Tia" Often we would argue and I would always end up crying and storming out. Obviously my brother wasn't buying my stories since he knew how much I don't like getting help from my friends. Tia has always offered to help with some money but I always refused. As I was saying a month and half after meeting Sossuke I started to throw up every time I ate. So I told tia since she's the only friend I trusted and she suggested that we should go to the shop and get a pregnancy test. I looked at her with wide eyes thinking no it can't be. Yes I told Tia I was sleeping with a man for money, she had never judged me or asked me further questions although I never told her who the man was or his name. Back to the pregnancy test. Yes I stared at Tia wide eye thinking no it can not be. Tia volunteered to go to the shop and get the pregnancy test for me and came back with 5 pregnancy test. I was thinking isn't that a bit too much? We both went to the bath room even though my bath room was really small and could hardly fit two people unless you were Ayako. Tia explained to me what to do and left me to do my business, I waited a couple minutes and then fainted. Apparently the gods wanted my life to be over as I was fainting my brother walked in the house finding rukia pacing in the living room then Hearing a loud bang in the bathroom. They both ran into the bathroom too see me spread out on the floor with 5 pregnancy test.

I woke up in the sofa with my brother sitting down on the chair a bit distant facing me. I groaned as I felt pain on my head. I was out for about 30 minutes. Kaien spoke first. " I sent Tia home 5 minutes agO...but now you young lady what is the meaning of this?" He held out 5 pregnancy test for me to see. I've never been so embarrassed and ashamed. My brother said no more i didn't answer him after 5 minutes of waiting for me to answer he got fed up and got up and went to his room.

I found out I was about a month pregnant. At first I didn't know what to tell Sossuke and my brother hardly spoke to me. I still meet Sossuke and we slept, sometime he often was too rough with me and I fear for the child that was growing inside of me. So I decided that I needed to tell him soon.

I layed there as he thrust hard and deep inside me. It hurt so baldly but I didn't want to complain. "Fuck nel you're so tight" he groaned as he came inside me. he layed by my side and held me close to him. Kissing my hair and rubbing my back in circles. When he did things like that it made me feel loved and wanted. And I often wondered maybe, just maybe we can work out and have a family even get married. But I was just a naive young girl. But that never stopped me from hopping. I felt that my dreams of meeting someone and living in a big house full of kids was final coming true until I opened my big mouth.

" baby, I have something I need to tell you... But please don't get angry, I don't want this to come between us you know?" He lifted my chin up with his two fingers for me to look at him in the eye as he said " what is it" I've never been so nervous in my life " well..um..uh lately I've been throwing up a lot and... ''Nelliel get to the point he snapped" I really hated it when he called me by my full name. " I'm pregnant!" I shouted and squeeze my eye shut waiting for "it." Often he would slap me if I say something bad or do something that doesn't please him. So I was waiting for the slap but it never came. I opened one my eye to peek and see what he was doing but he just looked calm smirking at me. "You're not mad" I question staring at him with hope. "Nel, nel, nel how can I be, all you have to do it remove that thing and everything will be fine" I looked at him like he was mad, he had lost it right? No I can't do that! Well I didn't know I was thinking out loud until I felt harsh slap on my right cheek.

"HOW DARE YOU DISOBEY ME, YOU WILL ABORT THAT THING OR ME AND YOU ARE DONE! NOW NELLIEL. Choose you good for nothing whore!"

I don't think I have ever made a right decision in my life ever until that moment. " I chose that "thing" my baby you bustard" I said through gritted teeth

"GET YOU DAMN THINGS OUT OF MY HOUSE IN THE COUNT OF TEN OR YOU AND THAT THING ARE DEAD" I got my things so fast and ran out of the house, since then I never heard from that man he even cut my allowance and took out all the money that was in the account. Now I'm right back from where I started only now with one more burden.

I gave birth with the help of Tia, in a hospital owned by her aunt. The women was really nice, she was the one that took charge of me, her name was Aiko...ummm her surname was quite hard I think jagujack jaguejack no jaegerjaquez! Yes that was it Jaegerjaquez! Apparently her husband was German so that explains the hard to pronounce name. But it's a sexy name. Anyways I gave birth to a healthy baby boy who looked like my brother so much. He had black hair like my brother too. I named him Diachi. After giving birth I stopped going university because I had to look after my baby, kaien offered to help me when he was free, but that wouldn't be enough, because he hardly was ever free. He said he will pick up longer hours at work to make more money to afford a part time nanny when I had school but I didn't want my a couple of week year old baby left with someone I did not know and what if Daichi was hungry? Who would breast Feed him? So I stayed at home every day doing nothing, but I didn't mind since being a mother was an amazing experience. Tia would come by sometimes to check up on and spoil Daichi with gifts even though I told her not to. She would tell me to shut up, only because I don't let her spoil it doesn't mean she shouldn't spoil her nephew. I really couldn't ask for a better friend.

A year after having Daichi I lost my brother kaien in a car accident with his finance, I was really devastated. Tia took me in since she moved put of her patents house, but I promised her I will pay her back for everything but she got really angry at me for even thinking to pay her back she said what are friends for? But I still felt bad for intruding in her home and it was just like I was by myself but I had a 1 year old baby and 10 year old brother.

That is just a bit about me guys although there's much more to tell, I think I'll just stop there for a moment.

Well there you got, just a quick intro you know. Guys leave some review let me know how the story is going. It might be short but I promise the next chapter will be longer. I can't wait to introduce grimmjow but I will take this story slow and build it up for you guys. One step at a time. I will update the next chapter if I see some reviews I need to know how I'm doing. Also I feel like I'm not saying much about Ayako but in the coming chapters I will.