I Own Nothing
AN: I got this idea while watching Season 6a episode when Mr. Douglas stabbed his claws into Theo's back. I thought about him not breaking the barrier at first and it went deeper with a past with Liam and Hayden.
AN2: This is the story that inspired Not Asking, but that story went in different direction as some have read.
Title: You Still Care
Characters: Liam/Theo, Hayden, Mason
Summary: When Theo gets hurt by Mr. Douglas while he tries not to destroy the barrier he realizes that Liam still cares about him.
Liam was sitting on a stool he'd pulled up beside the table that Scott and he had put Theo on for Deaton to help. They had gotten back in the building finding Theo lying beside the transmitter bleeding out. He'd had deep puncture wounds from what looked liked claws on his back. He also had deep claw marks all over his torso that they had no idea who had made them. Theo had been barely awake; the last thing he'd said was a broken name who they figured out was Mr. Douglas.
Deaton had done the best he could stitching Theo up, but it had been touch and go for a minute or two. Liam didn't know why he felt so guilty, but he did. It was like he'd brought Theo back so he could die. He had helped them and this shouldn't be the repayment they gave him. The plan had worked until it had gone south with Parrish and Mr. Douglas. He didn't know if Theo was feeling any pain, but he was hoping he wasn't.
He didn't know why he felt like it was his responsibility to make sure Theo didn't die. It was like they had a connection since he'd brought him back. He'd seen something in the Chimera, change. It wasn't just that he didn't want to be sent back, he had tried not letting Mr. Douglas in the cage. The wounds on his torso proved that he hadn't wanted to give in. He'd been sliced open and burned too. The burns had disappeared for the most part where Theo had been forced into the closed cage. It was just the claw wounds that hadn't yet.
"You don't have to stay, you can help your friends, Liam," Deaton said breaking into Liam's thoughts.
"I didn't bring him back to watch him die," Liam said glad that Deaton wasn't a supernatural creature that could sense emotions. He was having a world wind of them right now and guilt was only the top one. "I kept threatening to send him back, but I can't do it. He's not same person that tried to kill us," he didn't want to leave for Theo to wake up alone.
"He's not going to die, Liam. You got him here in time, he'll wake up. It's your choice what you do, you're the one with all the control of what happens," Deaton said. He hadn't said anything about the mark that was on Theo's neck. He knew what the mark meant and he had seen the same one on Liam's before. He could tell they weren't fully formed or had been slightly broken more than likely.
"He's not going back," Liam said not giving a reason for the why. He didn't want to say anything right now. It wasn't the time to reveal the secret he'd been keeping for months. He didn't know what the pack would even say about it.
~LT TL~
He didn't feel like he needed to justify his reasoning to anyone. He was going be left behind when the others left for college. Hayden and he had heard her sister talking about wanting to transfer away from Beacon Hills. He didn't know how long he was going to have Hayden. He had been holding back on saying he loved her if she was leaving. He hadn't lied when he said he hadn't trusted Theo the night before, but now, now he trusted him. He had trusted him before though and it had cost him more than guilt. He'd lost his heart in the process and he didn't know if he could put it back.
Liam had already saved Theo from hell; he'd saved him from the ghost rider when the door wouldn't shut. He'd gotten him here too before he could die. There had been a time he had feelings for him. It was back when he thought he was good, back before the night of the super moon. It was why it had hurt so bad when he'd almost killed Scott. It wasn't just his head that Theo had gotten into. He'd had his heart and shattered it so badly that night. He'd had Hayden and Theo both before it had gone to hell.
Stiles had told him to watch Theo to make sure he didn't do anything evil. Watching him had gotten him caught once. After that night he'd done his best to hide what he felt from the others. Hayden had known though, she still knew the secret he held from the pack. They both had the secret, but he still felt like he was drowning with how he felt. He hadn't known how to tell anyone that he had been sleeping with the enemy. He had made sure that he wasn't seen with Theo at school.
He hadn't wanted to think about how good it had felt in Theo's arms and bed. If he thought about it then the betrayal would bring down the walls he had built up. He didn't even know if it had been real or he'd been used. He hadn't been able to ask that question either so he'd turned to hating Theo. He had thought how he wanted to kill him for every second that had been wonderful. He had wanted to kill him for making him so happy and then ripping his heart out.
Losing Hayden and Theo both that night had been the worst experience he'd felt. It was different than what he'd felt about how he'd treated Scott. He'd gotten Hayden back, but he hadn't Theo. He didn't know if he could hang on to that hope now though. He'd seen the look of fear and regret, he'd smelt it too. He had gotten Brett to teach him how to hide his emotions. He had hated him at one point too, but he was the only friend he'd been able to turn to.
He wouldn't have been able to tell Scott why he needed to hide his emotions. How could he have told his alpha, his friend that he had been sleeping and loving the enemy? How could he have told Scott that he hadn't felt whole in so long. Some nights he'd felt like he was being held together by the past memories. He didn't even know how to tell Hayden sometimes she wasn't enough because he longed for the one on the table too. There was something that he couldn't place until Brett had told him. The only problem was that he only got one and that one had turned against him.
"I loved you, I loved you so much and you destroyed my heart," Liam said trying not to let the tears fall. "It's what's so fucked up because I knew what you were like when you weren't playing a con. I loved that guy; the one that I don't even know if was real. I loved you so much it hurt to even breathe when you used it against me. You just fucking smiled at me like you knew how much I was hurting. I wanted to wipe the damn smile from your face. Most of all I wanted to feel like I had before, safe. You made me feel safe and then you destroyed everything,"
He didn't want Theo to wake up alone, but he couldn't stay. He didn't want him to know how much he still cared. He couldn't let anyone see how upset he was right now. He had barely held it together seeing the wounds and burns Theo had had on him. He had wanted to beg him to stay alive, tell him that he loved him right then. He just couldn't because no one knew that the nights he hadn't been home he'd stayed with Theo. It hadn't just been sex either, they had been nights they just hung out and been normal. It was hard with all the supernatural stuff going on, but they had tried.
He let go of Theo's hand not even realizing he'd been taking his pain. He had tried before and couldn't, but it always happened without him knowing. Liam left the room not noticing that Theo had opened his eyes when he'd let his hand go. He didn't see the look in Theo's eyes because he'd heard everything that Liam had said. He also didn't see the tears coming from the Chimera because he felt the guilt at what he'd done to Liam.
~LT TL~
Liam knew the others needed him, but he turned his phone off needing time to think. He had gotten the Bronco to drive even if it sucked and was old. However, he hadn't been able to bring his self to drive the truck he had hidden. It was stupid that he was hanging onto it, but he'd found Theo's truck. The keys had still been in it and he'd taken it to his house parking it. He told his parents he was keeping it for a friend.
The entire truck smelled like Theo, there wasn't another scent in it. He'd been the last person besides Hayden that had ridden in it with Theo before the betrayal. He knew for a fact from Hayden he hadn't let Tracy Josh or Corey in the truck. It was like he had wanted their scents gone. He had thought about selling the stupid thing, but he couldn't bring his self to do it. Three and half months and he still had the key that started the truck. It was on the eight ball keychain that he'd given Theo.
He'd spent two months with Theo and Hayden, but he'd had more nights with Theo when Hayden worked. Some nights he'd even convinced Theo to go in Sinema and dance with him. It had been fun being normal teenagers. He'd felt normal with them even if they were in an open threesome. Well not open to the rest of the pack, but with each other. He hadn't needed anyone to know for it to be more than it had been.
He needed to put the walls back up before he turned his phone back on. He just didn't know how to fix his heart again. Hayden helped him the first time, but now he was going lose that. He moved to the back seat laying down. He closed his eyes trying to block out everything that had meant something. Everything that had felt so good at one point. It had been the best two months of his life.
It just hurt so much that Scott might have been right about how far Theo had gotten into his head. He didn't want him to be right; he really hoped that Scott was wrong. He didn't know how to pick up the pieces if Theo never had cared at all for him. He had made his self keep believing that the Dread Doctors did something to Theo. He had to believe that they switched him for the cold hearted person that had gotten him to almost kill Scott. He had seen how sweet Theo could be and couldn't believe he'd go that quickly to the dark side. He refused to believe that he had already been on that dark side either.
They had to deal with the ghost riders right now though. He needed the walls back up so he could think; he had to be there for Mason right now. Corey had been taken and he knew how much Mason loved him. He knew it wasn't going to be long before Mason said it. He actually liked Corey now that he trusted him and had helped them. Liam sighed trying to focus, but being in the truck probably wasn't the wisest choice. It did smell like the person he was trying to hide his feelings about. He breathed it in though because it calmed him just as much as it broke him. He'd close his eyes for ten minutes and then he'd get up and leave.
~LT TL~
The truck door opening caused Liam to sit up in a hurry. He closed his eyes against the rising sun not realizing how long he'd been lying in the back seat. He had fallen asleep at some point not even bothering to turn his phone back on. He blinked putting his hand up to block the sun, but he already knew who was there.
He didn't have to see them to know who had come looking for him. Instead of going out the door that was open he got out on the other side. It was safer to keep his distance like that even though he didn't really want distance. He wanted to go to them and just do what they used to. It might not be easier in the long run, but it would feel perfect right now. He walked around the truck, but he didn't get far before he was blocked.
"How did you find me?" Liam asked when it was obvious he wasn't getting by. He had to know how he had been found since his phone was still off. He hadn't told anyone where he was coming and his parents had the night shift again. They would be coming home soon, but wouldn't have known where he was.
"I was waiting on your porch for the last four hours. That's when I heard your heart beat. It's not something I'd forget not even after spending time in hell. It's how I knew you were lying every time you threatened to send me back," Theo said moving so he was closer to Liam. "You weren't wrong, thirty plus years of hell changes someone. It makes them regret what they did, makes them wish they could take it all back," he risked touching Liam's wrist wanting to touch more than that. He just didn't think Liam would let him yet, if ever. He'd fucked up so bad that he wouldn't let him touch anything if he was Liam. He was just hoping for at least a piece of Liam to let him.
"You were in hell for almost four months," Liam said looking down at where Theo was running his thumb over his wrist. He had loved that once and right now it felt good again. It felt like a piece of him was being put back together. He was already a jigsaw puzzle torn apart, but the edges were together with Theo back. The feel of his touch on him the way he used to just do what he was now with a far off look.
"It was almost forty years of having my heart ripped out over and over. Every month here was ten years there. It never changed waking up in the morgue trying to escape. I stopped after the second week. I just let her rip it out, didn't run, and didn't fight. I deserved what I got for what I did," Theo said looking up at Liam it wasn't the fake tears like he'd done before to get what he'd needed. "I can't change it now and sorry won't cut it. I used what you felt for us against you to get what I wanted. I just wanted to thank you for not letting me die even if you never forgive me," he had suffered for his crimes and knew he was supposed to still be there.
He hadn't suffered enough for the things he'd done. He didn't think another forty years would be enough either to make up for how much he'd destroyed the ones around him. At the end before Liam had brought him back he hadn't gotten out of the drawer. He'd let Tara take her heart back not bothering to struggle. The pain hadn't gotten any less though; it was the same every time. He felt her pain of dying every time she took her heart back. He still felt cold now as if he was there in the ice water.
~LT TL~
"Why didn't you just let him across the barrier right off? You wouldn't have almost died." Liam asked wanting to know. He needed the answer even if he couldn't make his mind up on what he wanted to do. He knew he wasn't sending Theo back, but there was the other problem he had. The problem about how he felt even after everything there was a piece of him that wanted Theo back. The one that he had known for those two months, not the one that had broken him down. He wanted the one that was standing here now that had found him. The one that he could actually see and read his emotions.
"You shoved me out of the way. The ghost rider tried pulling me in the cage, but you shoved me away when my shoulder was stuck. It's how I knew you still cared even after what I did, you care." Theo answered with the most honesty in his voice that Liam had ever heard.
"I hated you for months; I was glad that Kira sent you to hell. I tried forgetting you, but I couldn't. I kept hearing you screaming for Scott to save you. I didn't even sleep for three nights after that night. Even though I hated you so much after what you did. I kept hearing it over and over, the fear of being dragged into hell. I was glad you were going be punished, the you that destroyed my heart. I just didn't want the guy I fell in love with to suffer that much," Liam said with just as much honesty as Theo had gave him.
He'd said how he felt earlier not knowing Theo heard him. He was trying to fight what he wanted right now. He wanted to claim the mouth he'd missed kissing and make them both remember what it had felt like. He wanted to give in to what they both wanted, he was so close. There was only an inch between them and Theo's hand had moved to his back. He let a moan slip out longing for Theo to touch him in other places too. The same touch that had brought him pleasure on so many occasions.
The sound of a car pulling into his driveway stopped him from showing Theo just how much he had missed him. He felt Theo pull away from him letting his hand linger for a moment on his. "I deserved it," Theo said before he walked away from Liam wishing they hadn't been interrupted.
He hadn't even told Liam he'd heard him earlier. He could feel just how much Liam was hurting. He didn't know how to fix it even though he'd thought about it every time Tara ripped his heart out. It was the last thought he had before he woke up in the morgue drawer again. He'd been the one that ripped Liam's heart out and his sister's.
He deserved having his, her's jerked from his body. He had deserved having her taunt him because he'd loved Liam with a stolen heart. He had loved him before he'd let his need for a pack of his own destroy that part of him. People could only feel one emotion at a time was his thinking. He'd put love aside for the darkness that had become him for so long. He hadn't even told Liam that he had loved him. Liam had been the first and only person he felt like he'd ever truly loved. It wasn't something he'd known what it was at the time, but he knew it now. He wasn't sure what he'd felt towards Hayden, but Liam he'd loved.
~LT TL~
Liam showered and changed before he'd gone to find the others at Scott's house. He had text Scott when he'd gotten in his house. He hadn't meant to go off like he had, but he'd already apologized. He didn't know how to fix things, but they were trying to work out a plan. The bad part was that he was now sitting at the police station with Mason and Hayden. The worse part was that Theo was now locked in the jail cell.
He didn't ask who had put Theo in the locked cell they didn't have a key for. He had barely pulled the walls back up. Seeing Theo standing in the cell leaning against the bars was causing his mind to go elsewhere. He didn't know why he found it hot even though they were all in danger right now. He was trying to keep his self from looking too much or staring so he'd be caught. It was impossible though since he still thought of Theo as walking a sin that needed to be touched. Theo had let him have him every single time for the most part. He'd only been fucked three times.
The rest of the time he'd been claiming Theo's ass and it had felt good. He'd loved watching him fall apart below him. The way he had said his name every time he came it had gone straight to his cock. He had loved taking Theo to the edge of bliss only to deny him at times. He'd done it once by using a borrowed cock ring and fucking Theo until Hayden had gotten off work. He had filled Theo's ass over and over with his cum, but he hadn't let him off til Hayden was sitting on Theo's cock. It had been beyond hot watching them while he'd been holding Theo's hands so he couldn't touch Hayden.
~LT TL~
"You okay?" Mason asked pulling Liam from his thoughts about how he'd really love to have Theo through the bars. "You look like someone killed your dog," he said blocking Liam's view of Theo completely. Liam barely kept from growling at not being able to see Theo. The clothes he had one was a little too tight showing his body off nicely.
"Sorry, just can't concentrate right now. I'm sorry that I flaked last night. I should have helped you find Corey." Liam said knowing that his best friend was missing his boyfriend. He could sense the sadness and heartache coming from Mason. He'd been worrying if Theo was going to live that he hadn't thought of anything else. It made him feel guilty for being so selfish with his own problem.
"We'll get him back, I have to believe that," Mason said trying to believe it with everything he had. He needed to get Corey back because he meant a lot to him. The pictures on Corey's phone proved that he meant everything to him too. He made sure that Corey knew that he cared about him. He offered for him to stay at his house every night not wanting him to go to a place he wasn't even noticed.
"We will, he's good for you, Mas. I was wrong when I tried hating him for not helping sooner. He has helped and you'll get him back you can always find him," Liam said squeezing Mason's shoulder doing his best to comfort his friend. He gave in giving Mason a hug after a moment wanting him to know that he cared. He knew that Corey practically stayed with Mason now. He was pretty sure there was a drawer and closet space for the Chimera at Mason's.
He was in need of the same thing, but he couldn't tell anyone how he was feeling. He didn't even think he could tell Hayden how much he had truly missed Theo. It was another reason he had tried hating Corey at first. He had been connected to Theo as if he'd been loyal. He knew it was more of survival now, but he'd already dealt with that.
He'd apologized to Corey more than once now. Corey had promised to kick his ass if he didn't stop doing it. He was sure that it would be more Mason he got to hit him though. He had offered to teach Corey how to fight though if he wanted to learn. He did only have the invisibility thing and little bit of what he'd done at the party a while back.
"Thanks, Liam," Mason said giving him a faint smile before he went back to the bench sitting down. He knew that Liam and Corey were friends now which had meant a lot to him. He just couldn't figure out why Liam had been so off lately. It was like he'd been trying to keep another secret as big as being a werewolf. He wasn't pushing this time though because he could tell that Liam wasn't going to give in.
~LT TL~
Liam was once again looking at Theo, but his ex wasn't standing against the bars now. He was sitting on the bench in the cell. Liam knew that Theo had heard them talking. He thought about going to the cell and asking why he was in it for the third time. He just couldn't bring his self to do it. He looked Theo over again knowing exactly what was under the clothes.
He had touched ever inch of the Chimera's body, his mouth had covered just as much as his hands had. He'd sucked Theo into cumming down his throat more times than he could count. He'd had the same done to him a few times. He'd had Theo begging to cum while he fucked his tongue into his hole. He'd fucked Theo while Theo had been fucking Hayden before they had all cum. He'd had the same done to him a few times and enjoyed every minute of it. He had enjoyed having Theo at his mercy more.
He had slept in his bed trusting him with his heart and soul. He'd felt safe and he'd thought love even if it wasn't something he had ever thought of it then. It hadn't just been sex to him, but it had all gone to pieces. He kept replaying the good parts in his head though. He kept remembering trading wins on video games for favors. It wasn't always sexual ones either; it was how he'd gotten Theo to go dancing with him. It was also how he'd managed to go to a movie and dinner. They had even gone to arcade once playing laser tag one night. Hayden had enjoyed the bowling the most. She was way better than either one of them.
He bit down on his bottom lip to stop his self from moaning. It wasn't the place or the time to be remembering. He just couldn't stop his self either; they were waiting for the others. They couldn't do anything until Scott called or texted them. Taking a trip down memory lane didn't seem so bad. Then again, his cock becoming hard and leaking pre-cum was defiantly a bad idea. The smile that formed on Theo's face proved he could smell him. It meant that Hayden could too.
~LT TL~
"You're wanting to fuck him aren't you?" Hayden asked in a low voice that Mason couldn't hear. "I can smell your arousal, Liam. He probably locked his self in there so he wouldn't tempt you again," she said revealing that Theo had put his own self in the cell. "He just walked in and slammed the door closed not saying a word. He didn't even say a word when I said we didn't have a key to get him out," she wrapped her arms around Liam not missing the skip in his heart beat at what she said.
Liam couldn't take Theo watching him anymore. He closed his eyes trying not to let his emotions give him away. Hayden wasn't wrong about what he wanted and he'd gotten his answer. He was surprised that Theo had locked his own self up. He shouldn't have been in some ways; he had said he deserved to still be punished. Locked in a cell with no key, no way out was one way to punish his self.
"I want him. I want do so many different things right now to him. I want to care, I want to be glad he's not dead and I want to punish him at same time. Not like she did, I want to make him beg to cum for hours. Want to fuck him until he's about to explode and just leave him on the bed so he can't. I want to use that chain we had him on so he can't move. I want him to stay in that cell, but I want to hold him too. I want to show him how much I still care and how much it hurt," Liam said knowing that Hayden wasn't the only one that could hear him. Theo could hear everything he was saying too. "I mostly want to feel like I'm not going die because I'm so broken because I loved him." he finished looking right at Theo letting the tears fall before he pulled away from Hayden.
He needed to get away again, but he only went to Stilinski' office shutting the door. He slid down to the floor against the desk letting the rest of his tears fall. He had tried keeping his self together, but it was no use. He wanted the floor to open him up and swallow him. He preferred not going to hell, but just swallow him up for a while. He put his head on his knees closing his eyes feeling his body shaking. It hurt so bad to breathe right now, he hadn't cried this hard in years. He couldn't hold it in anymore or wait until he was farther away. He didn't want to either why his ex shouldn't know what he'd done.
He'd been so close earlier to just given in without facing all the pain he still felt. Now, he didn't know if he could just let that slide to go back to where they had been before. He wanted it so badly though to forget everything that had happened. He'd played it out trying to change something, anything. He had tried to pin pointing the moment that he could have seen the change coming. Love hadn't been enough to change what the Dread Doctors had done to Theo.
~LT TL~
Liam hadn't wanted to come back out of the office, but they still had to deal with the Mr. Douglas problem. They needed to know about him and it was obvious that Theo knew. He had known about the Wild Hunt and he had helped the night before. He had come through even when he'd been ripped open to get to the ghost rider. He'd held off to the last second so it had meant something. The same way that Liam had shoved Theo out of the way before he could be pulled into the cage.
"Where's the sword?" Liam asked looking between Hayden and Mason. He had come to the conclusion he didn't want the idea that he could just send Theo back as part of the solution. He refused to let anyone else have that power either. Theo was his responsibility after all he had resurrected him from a different prison. He knew Theo was looking for redemption, but it wasn't going to be found in the cell. He just didn't have a key to get him out of that prison yet.
"You're sending him back?" Mason asked giving Liam the sword. He hadn't known what to do when he'd heard his best friend in the other room. He'd wanted to comfort him, but he'd heard what Liam had said. It had become obvious that Theo had been the other person Liam had been with. He had known it hadn't just been Hayden, he just hadn't thought it was Theo. It had explained why Liam had been more devastated about what he'd done on the night of the super moon.
"No," Liam said taking the sword walking up to the cell. He twisted the handle letting the blade of the sword fall apart. The pieces hit the floor making a loud clattering sound with the place being so quiet. The only thing he could hear was their heart beats. "No one is sending him back. He's going finish paying for his crimes right here. He's going start by telling us what he knows about Mr. Douglas because I'm guessing if the Dread Doctors knew about the Wild Hunt they knew about him. After all," Liam said looking back at his friends, "He was the one that was in the vat they kept." he had put that piece together before he'd walked out of the office.
He was going to get through this and then he would deal with the rest of his feelings. The ones that had him not pulling back when Theo's hand reached out for his. He turned back looking at Theo seeing the tear streaks on his face too. They were both in pain, but they'd sort it out later. Right now he gave Theo that little bit by squeezing his hand back. He knew that Theo wasn't going to go anywhere. Something told him that he'd fight right beside him if he wasn't in the cell. He was really going have to get the Sheriff to let him out whenever he got there.
~TBC~