So I read this story about how Kai's father pretty much just walked out on him and I couldn't help but think that there was no way Kai was over that already (I have some experience in the matter) and suddenly this popped up. the lyrics comes from the song Happy Birthday by Flipsyde and has nearly nothing to do with what the poem's about (weird, I know). Anywho, it's somewhat OOC but I still hope people will feel the need to R&R, please!
What I thought was a dream
Was as real as it seemed…
Told myself so many times,
'It doesn't matter, it'll be fine'
Fooled myself again
Reality came crashing down
It does matter, it's not fine
I'm crumbling and can't hide
One stone fell and so did the lie
Couldn't keep the wall, didn't have time
Your arms I feel around me
Your chest so big and strong
I open my eyes, it's all gone
This ache inside won't stop growing
The pain I feel might start showing
Stones are gone, feelings going wild
The past can't be buried, I can't hide
What I thought was a dream
Was as real as it seemed…
Wish I was four, just a little boy
Wish you were there, dad
Want to feel safe with you
Want my daddy like other kids do
Need to be important
Need to be your little boy
Can't understand you walking away
Can't understand you forgetting me
What I thought was a dream
Was as real as it seemed…
Work is more important
Others are more important
Status is more important
I'm not important
It hurts, I cry, I can't stop
You abandoned and hurt
You lied and deceived
Even though you can't feel
Even though you can't love
Even though I don't matter…
I made a mistake!
…I still love you, it's not fine…