A/N: Set after Sherlock' reveal and John's reaction in The Empty Hearse. In the days of silence that follow, Sherlock realizes that things have changed has to accept the fact that he might have messed things up between he and John forever. However, he wants John to know that he will always be his. Johnlock if you really squint. Reviews are lovely creatures :)
Things Owed
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I'm not surprised that you hate me
No I expected as much
But I never imagined the days that came next
Would pack more pain than your punch
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I've been broken and bent past my breaking
I've faced horror and terror in stride
But I've found that the worst kind of torture
Is facing this fear that's inside
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And my fear it is a shallow one
One I am not yet accustomed to
Because I fear that you have moved on with ease
But there is simply no me without you
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See alone was always the song that I sung
In my youth I was callous and rude
But you never once shied away from my spite
And with you I was made to improve
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So if this is the last we see of each other
The last time I can call you my own
Just know that today, I owe you my soul
Because of you my humanity's grown
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And if our friendship has weathered down to dust
If my calls become too much to bear
Just know that today, I owe you my heart
You were the first and only to care
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And if you find that you're unable to sleep
If darkness lurks where peace once bloomed
Just know that I'll guard you 'till the end of my days
Your life worth so much more than a wound
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So amongst all the pain and ruin I've caused
And all the things you cannot forgive
Just know that-
There once was a time I would die for you
And there once was a time when I did.