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Don't tell me that the world will heal on its own. You can't understand, so don't try to. Everyone I've touched is gone. I'M A DISEASE! A parasite leaching off of others happiness, draining them till they fade. At least... that's how it feels.
I'm so naïve, you can't even begin to comprehend. Perhaps it's only arrogance like that has been said. Perhaps I really do believe I am infallible; although, I forget about the others around me, or things get out of hand.
Things become out of hand...
Things go wrong and perhaps it is my fault for I don't plan ahead. Perhaps if I had wondered why so many things turned out the way they did...if only I had given things a second chance...
Hah. If only, Perhaps...
I'm only kidding myself over those words. The sentences should hold something definite. Their words should contain that of I should have, I didn't, IT IS ALL MY BLOODY FAULT THEY'RE DEAD...
...they're dead...it's resounding inside my head. There's nothing now to distract me now, no chores, no more yelling, no more ganging up on "that freak"...
that freak...they've stopped calling me that, and don't tell me you don't know who. They've basically stopped glancing in my direction, and I can't tell if that's an improvement from before...letting my mind disintegrate in my own musings.
The order thought they were doing me a favour? A favour? I'm tired of having someone else control the strings, tired of being a puppet in their silly little games. I'M TIRED OF NOT KNOWING ABOUT MY LIFE. Why can't they see that they're not doing any good? THEY ONLY MAKE MATTERS WORSE.
...leave me alone...just stop…
...and they're still dead...
Now the only thought I can think of for the coming year is...
Who else will suffer because of me?
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don't own...yada. yada. yada.
right...i don't know what to think of this but random thoughts coming from harry, *sigh* so depressing poor harry I'd prob think like this too if I was left alone all summer...
and, yes I know its SHORT! I feel cranky, I haven't been able to connect online *grumbles and sends a death glare towards the death eater in the family (otherwise known as Candace)* grr...