Loneliness
Loneliness. Do you really know what that word means, to be completely and utterly lonely? Most don't, but I do. To see your love ones die in your hands, to see your home in ruble. Well I have seen it, and to be lonely is the worst feeling in the word.
Sometimes I still feel lonely. My family being dead. The God of Death, Shinigami is my family. She is the one who made sure I didn't die with my family, but I wish that hadn't been that case. The ones I loved died, the ones I love end up dieing or I cause there suffering. How can I live with myself like?
I don't get to close to people for the sake of what might happen. Sure I'm all the joker, hyper person around my fellow pilots, but when I'm alone I drop all my masks and show what I really am, lonely. The God of Death kills, I kill that's why I'm Shinigami, but this life is so lonely. I want to be with everyone again and I've tried.
I've tried the unthinkable the ultimate sin, tried to end my life. Yet as you tell I didn't succeed. I failed my mission.
Wonder what he would say to that, but he was the one who saved me. For I was on the cliff the water hitting the rocks at the bottom and I jumped, but didn't plummet to the sharp rocks content. For I was held back, and held back from my chance to get out. For he had found me and pulled me back before I feel.
He was furious with me of how I could be so dumb, when I had people who cared for me. I didn't believe, I did and I told him this. He was shocked. Could you believe he was shocked? Maybe I did grow a second head. But he sat down next to me and told me that it wasn't true for he new someone who loved me. And I asked .. "Who?"
My reply was a kiss of sweet and tender love. There he gave me a ring and made me promise no to try that again. I did and I don't plan to break that promise to my koibiot. My savior, Heero.
And with that last stated I burry you now loneliness for I have filled up my loneliness. With a new family my lover and friends. I will be Shinigami, I can't escape that, I don't want to. But with my life I swear not to let them die. I don't want them to and they won't, that's my promise to my self. That the ones I hold dear this time won't perish or go away. But stay with me.
I'm glad to get ride of you loneliness, but I know you will be back someday, but that day I won't let you in. My heart is not black anymore, but is shining with light of hope and happiness. And I hope that light shines threw so that you'll never be black again.
Good bye my loneliness,
Duo Maxwell
~t.b.c.~
Loneliness. Do you really know what that word means, to be completely and utterly lonely? Most don't, but I do. To see your love ones die in your hands, to see your home in ruble. Well I have seen it, and to be lonely is the worst feeling in the word.
Sometimes I still feel lonely. My family being dead. The God of Death, Shinigami is my family. She is the one who made sure I didn't die with my family, but I wish that hadn't been that case. The ones I loved died, the ones I love end up dieing or I cause there suffering. How can I live with myself like?
I don't get to close to people for the sake of what might happen. Sure I'm all the joker, hyper person around my fellow pilots, but when I'm alone I drop all my masks and show what I really am, lonely. The God of Death kills, I kill that's why I'm Shinigami, but this life is so lonely. I want to be with everyone again and I've tried.
I've tried the unthinkable the ultimate sin, tried to end my life. Yet as you tell I didn't succeed. I failed my mission.
Wonder what he would say to that, but he was the one who saved me. For I was on the cliff the water hitting the rocks at the bottom and I jumped, but didn't plummet to the sharp rocks content. For I was held back, and held back from my chance to get out. For he had found me and pulled me back before I feel.
He was furious with me of how I could be so dumb, when I had people who cared for me. I didn't believe, I did and I told him this. He was shocked. Could you believe he was shocked? Maybe I did grow a second head. But he sat down next to me and told me that it wasn't true for he new someone who loved me. And I asked .. "Who?"
My reply was a kiss of sweet and tender love. There he gave me a ring and made me promise no to try that again. I did and I don't plan to break that promise to my koibiot. My savior, Heero.
And with that last stated I burry you now loneliness for I have filled up my loneliness. With a new family my lover and friends. I will be Shinigami, I can't escape that, I don't want to. But with my life I swear not to let them die. I don't want them to and they won't, that's my promise to my self. That the ones I hold dear this time won't perish or go away. But stay with me.
I'm glad to get ride of you loneliness, but I know you will be back someday, but that day I won't let you in. My heart is not black anymore, but is shining with light of hope and happiness. And I hope that light shines threw so that you'll never be black again.
Good bye my loneliness,
Duo Maxwell
~t.b.c.~