"Eponine, you CAN help. Deliver this letter to Cosette. Please, this is my last chance. She may not even be there. Help me, please!" I watch as he gives her this task. Oh God, is he so blind? But she is blind as well. She sees only him, and he sees only Cosette, and I see only her. Why does he have to torture her like this?
"I'll give it to her. You can count on me." Those tears, they shimmer in her eyes, and I can't even get close enough to wipe them away. Marius. He stands in our way. If I did not swear brotherhood to him, I would push him in the guns. But no, it would kill Eponine. I cannot do a thing such as that.
"Enjolras?" He's coming towards me. How can I look him in the eye? He's defied my love, one too many times...
"Marius." This has nothing to do with me or my love or Marius..it's the revolution....
"I don't know what to do..." God, he cannot be talking about.....her? I could not contain myself. I pray I can be silent for only this brief moment....
"Why, Marius, it's simple. You man the guns, and hand the other gunmen more bullets if needed.."
"No, not about the revolution.." The nerve, I'll show him the brutalities he's treated my love with..
"It's not....Marius! This is our lives! They don't even matter, really. We are fighting for France, and to hell with all other things. We can only think about the war. Don't you see?!" He must think I'm a monster....who's the monster now, Marius? The boy who thinks he cares but will forget in a whim....but then, I cannot speak...
"I..I...I..."
"I what, Marius? What are you fighting for? It can't be for a France in which to love your Cosette! Who are you fighting for? We might die, you have to have a reason!" Grantiere, back me up, old man...please...
"What? Scared, Marius?" I knew he'd have to say something. That's Grantiere....
"Marius," I face him, "We all have to know why we fight! Are you fighting for simple life, or for true life...? For the country, and not for yourself?!"He will not back down....
"For France!" The men, they cheer. I would, but I'm too lonely to cheer. Too lonely to breath, practically. If only Eponine could see this..but no, I'm glad she cannot see....
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"They attack!!!!!"
"Men, the arms! Shoot! Come on!" Why aren't they listening?! They just stand there, frightened. They duck, they run... "SHOOT!" Why won't they listen..... If I must be the first and last to shoot, God will it....
"AHHHHHHHH!!! *BANG*!" Eponine? Oh god....
She stumbles in....falling to the floor..into the arms of..Marius.....
"Hush, don't cry. I'm fine.." Dear God, why can't he see, she's dying! She'll die... "And rain, will make the flowers grow..." I have to tell her..I'm going to...
Knee by her side.....her pulse..is gone. She's dead. I could never tell her.........Something must be said....
"We.." My voice cannot fail me now..." We must not let her...death..go to waste..we must win this war.." They are thinking I'm a stone-flinted person, with no compassion of her death..if only they knew....
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"They are here!!!!" Once again.....now the men fight. I will grab the flag....Run up to the top..my arm is held back..
"No, it's suicide!" Marius..he cares now? Now when the hour is passed?! I'll die fighting in my love's last fight. I jerk my arm away.
"I don't care!" Wave the flag...shoot me! Shoot me! I won't let her die alone! I wave this flag, for it is the color of this war..red with her blood, red with everyone's blood....my men, they fall..only the master is left...
Wave the flag! I won't let her die alone..I won't let her die.......*BANG*
"I'll give it to her. You can count on me." Those tears, they shimmer in her eyes, and I can't even get close enough to wipe them away. Marius. He stands in our way. If I did not swear brotherhood to him, I would push him in the guns. But no, it would kill Eponine. I cannot do a thing such as that.
"Enjolras?" He's coming towards me. How can I look him in the eye? He's defied my love, one too many times...
"Marius." This has nothing to do with me or my love or Marius..it's the revolution....
"I don't know what to do..." God, he cannot be talking about.....her? I could not contain myself. I pray I can be silent for only this brief moment....
"Why, Marius, it's simple. You man the guns, and hand the other gunmen more bullets if needed.."
"No, not about the revolution.." The nerve, I'll show him the brutalities he's treated my love with..
"It's not....Marius! This is our lives! They don't even matter, really. We are fighting for France, and to hell with all other things. We can only think about the war. Don't you see?!" He must think I'm a monster....who's the monster now, Marius? The boy who thinks he cares but will forget in a whim....but then, I cannot speak...
"I..I...I..."
"I what, Marius? What are you fighting for? It can't be for a France in which to love your Cosette! Who are you fighting for? We might die, you have to have a reason!" Grantiere, back me up, old man...please...
"What? Scared, Marius?" I knew he'd have to say something. That's Grantiere....
"Marius," I face him, "We all have to know why we fight! Are you fighting for simple life, or for true life...? For the country, and not for yourself?!"He will not back down....
"For France!" The men, they cheer. I would, but I'm too lonely to cheer. Too lonely to breath, practically. If only Eponine could see this..but no, I'm glad she cannot see....
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"They attack!!!!!"
"Men, the arms! Shoot! Come on!" Why aren't they listening?! They just stand there, frightened. They duck, they run... "SHOOT!" Why won't they listen..... If I must be the first and last to shoot, God will it....
"AHHHHHHHH!!! *BANG*!" Eponine? Oh god....
She stumbles in....falling to the floor..into the arms of..Marius.....
"Hush, don't cry. I'm fine.." Dear God, why can't he see, she's dying! She'll die... "And rain, will make the flowers grow..." I have to tell her..I'm going to...
Knee by her side.....her pulse..is gone. She's dead. I could never tell her.........Something must be said....
"We.." My voice cannot fail me now..." We must not let her...death..go to waste..we must win this war.." They are thinking I'm a stone-flinted person, with no compassion of her death..if only they knew....
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"They are here!!!!" Once again.....now the men fight. I will grab the flag....Run up to the top..my arm is held back..
"No, it's suicide!" Marius..he cares now? Now when the hour is passed?! I'll die fighting in my love's last fight. I jerk my arm away.
"I don't care!" Wave the flag...shoot me! Shoot me! I won't let her die alone! I wave this flag, for it is the color of this war..red with her blood, red with everyone's blood....my men, they fall..only the master is left...
Wave the flag! I won't let her die alone..I won't let her die.......*BANG*