How did I get into this?
I mean, I was supposed to be at college, dating rich and handsome guys who were totally in love with me. I was supposed to go to the mall each weekend and leave with dozens of bags with the best cloths of the best stores. I simply wasn't supposed to work for money, daddy should have bought me everything I wanted until I married one of those millionaires and moved in to a mansion with lots of servants and never worried about anything but my figure and my hair.
I should have been treated like a queen.
Instead, I'm here, tucked in a dark office waiting for a possible client. With a stake and holy water in my drawer. The worst part is that it is 90% sure I would have to use them. If not against an enemy, then against my 'boss'.
Life has been so unfair.
My prospects are now in the trash, next to my acting career… Daddy paying for my things? Ha! He'd be lucky if he leaves prison in few *years*. Me living in a mansion? I'm actually glad I have that apartment. Even with Casper in it. . If even my love life were better. Remember me saying I should date a rich *and* handsome guy? Do you want to know whom I'm dating currently? A co-worker and half-demon.
So I'm asking this again: How did I get into this?
And then I remember Buffy saving my life again and again. I guess that if not for her I would be dead a long time ago. But hey, she saves lots of persons each day. Is even one of them always fighting icky demons, or even being friends with them? I guess not. Then why am I the one who gets to go to another city and become involved with her ex? Ok, that sounded pretty bad. I meant, why do *I* 'bitchy, naughty, selfish Cordy' get to do this?
I really don't know the answer. I'm not that immature anymore, I know it isn't Buffy's or Angel's blame even if I wish it were that simple. Life has been unfair to me but I guess I like it. I may not live in a great mansion but Dennis is always so nice. Angel may have been a mean killer but he is my best friend. I may not be treated like a queen but I know I'll always be his Princess.
I don't know how I get into this and I really don't care. Whatever made me choose this path I'm glad it did.