1 Title: The Woman I Love
Author: Firehawk
Rated: PG
Pairing: Sam/Jack
Season: 4
Spoilers: obviously Entity
Disclaimer: Stargate is not unfortunately not mine. (
Notes: This is my first fanfiction, so constructive criticism is welcome.
1.1 The Woman I Love
I sat there. Just watching her. Major Samantha Carter. My 2IC. I felt numb. She wasn't really alive anymore. It was the machines that were keeping her with us. With me. The doc had already told us that there was no chance she'd come to. And it was my fault. I'd shot her twice with the zat. The first shot had been hard enough. I almost hadn't fired the second time. I had known it would kill her. But in the end I had. It was my job. I couldn't let the entity win.
"Damn it, Carter, I'm sorry," I said as I got up and moved to her side. She still didn't move.
Without thinking I reached for her hand. I stood there staring down at her beautiful face, willing her to open her eyes. She's never going to get up, I realized. She's going to die. I could feel tears come to my eyes.
"Come on, Sam," I whispered, my voice breaking. "Don't die on me. We've been through too damn much for you to die because of me. What would I do if you died? Remember those stupid Tok'ra devices? They made me realize something. I need you, Carter. I love you." At that a tear escaped my eye.
I stood there for a few more seconds. I'd just told her. I'd just told my Sam that I loved her. Behind me I heard the door open. Automatically I dropped Carter's hand and moved back to sit down. The doc came in and checked on her. She started talking, but only one thought was running through my mind. The woman I loved was going to die.
"…no extensive means," I heard the doc say as I pulled myself out of my little world.
"I know," I heard my voice saying.
"I think it's time to let her go, sir," the doc said.
Let her go, I thought. I couldn't do it. I wanted to yell and protest, but instead I heard myself say, "Just – just give it a minute." Give her a minute. A minute to come back to us. To me. So I could tell her again. Carter, you're the woman I love.
Author: Firehawk
Rated: PG
Pairing: Sam/Jack
Season: 4
Spoilers: obviously Entity
Disclaimer: Stargate is not unfortunately not mine. (
Notes: This is my first fanfiction, so constructive criticism is welcome.
1.1 The Woman I Love
I sat there. Just watching her. Major Samantha Carter. My 2IC. I felt numb. She wasn't really alive anymore. It was the machines that were keeping her with us. With me. The doc had already told us that there was no chance she'd come to. And it was my fault. I'd shot her twice with the zat. The first shot had been hard enough. I almost hadn't fired the second time. I had known it would kill her. But in the end I had. It was my job. I couldn't let the entity win.
"Damn it, Carter, I'm sorry," I said as I got up and moved to her side. She still didn't move.
Without thinking I reached for her hand. I stood there staring down at her beautiful face, willing her to open her eyes. She's never going to get up, I realized. She's going to die. I could feel tears come to my eyes.
"Come on, Sam," I whispered, my voice breaking. "Don't die on me. We've been through too damn much for you to die because of me. What would I do if you died? Remember those stupid Tok'ra devices? They made me realize something. I need you, Carter. I love you." At that a tear escaped my eye.
I stood there for a few more seconds. I'd just told her. I'd just told my Sam that I loved her. Behind me I heard the door open. Automatically I dropped Carter's hand and moved back to sit down. The doc came in and checked on her. She started talking, but only one thought was running through my mind. The woman I loved was going to die.
"…no extensive means," I heard the doc say as I pulled myself out of my little world.
"I know," I heard my voice saying.
"I think it's time to let her go, sir," the doc said.
Let her go, I thought. I couldn't do it. I wanted to yell and protest, but instead I heard myself say, "Just – just give it a minute." Give her a minute. A minute to come back to us. To me. So I could tell her again. Carter, you're the woman I love.