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Rating - NC-17
Against All Odds
Chapter One - Love at First Sight
There was so much they needed to say. So many words unspoken. So many words that needed to be said but somehow, were left unsaid. Carter knew it. Abby knew it. If only they knew how to face the truth. It had taken so long for any sign of love to be shown. Carter's declaration, or was it really a declaration? That day, by the river, would sit with Abby forever. If only time wasn't against them. If she hadn't have been with Luka, and she hadn't of been so confused then maybe things would be different now. But what faced them was a long life of loneliness. Or so they thought.
It had taken a long, hot, and stressful day at the ER to make them face up to the truth. And what was the truth? That they loved each other. That was the truth. It was always Carter's first move that made them realise what they felt for each other. But Abby was glad he did it this time. If he hadn't she would have. Their first kiss was tense. More tense than either had ever dreamed it would be. And trust me, they had both thought about it, enough times that it wasn't even a dream anymore, it was more like a routine. The second kiss was more passionate. Their hearts still beat as fast as they had been during the first kiss, but somehow this time it felt more relaxed, but at the same time it was filled with emotion. Carter knew how he felt, but how did she feel? He needed to know. He wanted to know. She knew. She did love him. She wanted to tell him. She wanted to show him. But how? This was how.
The kiss lasted a few seconds. But to Carter, it didn't seem like long enough. To Abby, it seemed just right. What they were feeling at that moment could never be put into words. Carter and Abby both pulled away from the kiss as if it was automatic. They both knew it was time to stop, and take a look at what had just happened. He opened his eyes immediately, and her taste still lingered on his lips. She pulled back slowly, still eyes shut, slowly opening to see Carter standing before her staring directly into her eyes. This was it. The moment she had waited for and dreaded for what seemed like an eternity. She waited for him to speak, but nothing. What was he thinking?
"That was...nice." She said, hesitantly.
"Nice?" He replied, a little taken aback.
"Okay it was more than nice."
"That's more like it."
"So..Dr Carter..what do you suggest we do now?"
She smiled at him, he could see in her eyes she was glad it happened. A smile played upon his lips as he began to think about what had just happened.
"Well Nurse Lockhart, I think it would be an idea to take a shower when we get out of here..you don't smell that fresh!"
She stepped away quickly and slapped him playfully on the arm.
"Well neither do you as it goes!"
They both laughed a little then it was silent again. They stared into each others eyes once more. The love they felt for one another was seen in each other as they continued their staring contest. Carter took a small step towards her, and she did the same. They leaned into another kiss, just as Dr Lewis tapped on the window. They stopped millimetres apart and jumped back, looking embarrassed.
"Hey Susan!" Carter said, surprised.
"You two okay in there?!" Susan giggled to herself. "Busted!" She thought.
"Just great thanks!" Abby replied, trying to hide her embarrassment.
"That's good. We've just had confirmation so you two can get the hell outta here..that's if you want to!" She laughed, and turned to walk away.
"Do you think she saw anything?!" Carter said, worriedly.
"Of course she did! What do you think she was smiling at?!"
"Do you care?"
"Not really. Do you?"
"Not at all."
"Well then it doesn't matter."
"Nope. Well, shall we?" He said, putting his arm out. She linked arms with him as they walked out the trauma room.
9pm - That night at Abby's apartment
'Knock Knock'
"Be right there!" Abby called as she struggled to pull up her black trousers.
'Knock Knock'
"I said be right there!" She shouted again.
'God he's so impatient.' Abby thought as she hurried to the door.
She opened it and there stood Carter in the doorway, wearing sweats and a polo shirt. Looking gorgeous as usual.
"Hey!"
"Hey impatient one." She answered sarcastically as he entered the apartment closing the door slowly behind him.
"Well I wouldn't be if I hadn't waited for ten minutes!"
"It wasn't ten minutes. It was five."
"Well there you are then!"
They both smirked, and then an awkward silence fell upon them once more.
"I brought you something."
He pulled out a bunch of dead flowers from behind his back and handed them carefully to Abby who stood smiling at him for being so thoughtful. "Thanks John they're great."
"No problem."
She went and put them in a vase as he took off his coat and hung it on the back of the sofa.
"So what's for dinner?"
"What?! I never said I'd cook. I said we could eat."
"Okay then, what are we going to eat?!"
"It's on its way." She smirked as she placed the vase on the end table next to the sofa.
"So what are we going to do while we wait?"
Carter slowly walked towards Abby as she stood frozen to the spot. Her heart began to beat faster and she could feel her palms sweating. As he got closer she could feel his warmth surround her, his scent surrounded her, like air. His smell was like oxygen to her, she felt like she could breathe easier when he was near her. He took one more step closer to her and leaned in for another kiss. As their lips reached their closest before touching, the buzzer went.
Abby pulled away and walked towards the door.
"That's the pizza guy."
'This was going to be a long night.' Thought Carter as he sighed.
11.30pm
The pizza had been eaten, the drinks had been had and the jokes had been shared. But the kiss still hadn't. Carter was getting nervous. What if it was just a one off? Or a two off if you want to get technical. What if she hadn't wanted it to happen? What if she thought it was a mistake? These thoughts swam around his mind as he suddenly realised how tired he was. He looked over at Abby who was taking another sip of juice and flicking through the channels.
"Why is there never anything on at this time?" She asked irritated.
He loved to watch her. Whatever she was doing, he loved it. He smiled. Her frown. Her frustration. Her sarcastic comments. Her everything. He wondered if she felt the same. Even though they had kissed, he still wasn't sure what she felt. If she felt anything at all. He awoke from his daydream as he heard a faint calling coming from a voice in the room.
"Carter?! Carter!"
"Huh? What?" He looked up to see Abby staring at him looking a little annoyed.
"Have you been listening to me at all?!"
"I'm sorry Abby I was daydreaming."
"Oh yeah? About what?!" She asked curiously.
"Oh nothing that would interest you." He answered hesitantly.
"Try me." "Alright then. I was thinking about how you felt about me. How I felt about you. What you were thinking. Whether you regretted that kiss. If you wanted to do it again. And if you knew how beautiful you look tonight."
She sat staring at him, stunned by his declaration. So he did love her then. She smiled quietly to herself. Beautiful huh?! He must not be thinking straight.
"Abby?"
"Sorry what?"
"Aren't you going to answer me?"
"I didn't hear the question."
"Well there wasn't one really. I just want to know what I was thinking."
She looked down. She was embarrassed by his comments. He waited for an answer. But nothing came. He sighed. She didn't feel the same. He had known all along really, but chose to ignore it hoping that somehow she would suddenly start to love him.
"I better be going. I need to catch up on some sleep! I guess we both do."
He stood up to leave and leaned over to get his coat. He put it on and headed for the door, with Abby still motionless on the sofa.
"Carter wait!"
She said quickly whilst rushing over to stop him leave. He turned around to face her.
"John don't go. Please."
"Tell me what you want Abby. I need to know. Just, tell me, whatever it is you're feeling, I need to know what it is."
She looked down again.
"That's what I thought."
He turned again, but she grabbed his arm and pulled him back towards her as she moved him swiftly for a kiss. He didn't comprehend what was happening for a few moments, but then when he realised she was kissing him; he suddenly put his tongue into action and reciprocated immediately. They stood leaning against the door, kissing fervently until each was out of breath.
"This is what I want." She whispered softly into his ear before leaning in for another kiss.
After a few more moments, Carter plucked up the courage to pull away from the kiss.
"Abby. You know I want you. I want us to happen, but something tells me that tonight is not right for us to do that."
"To do what?"
He gave a look to explain what 'what' was.
"Oh. That." "Don't get me wrong, I would jump at the chance to do..that, with you, but I don't to rush us. To rush you."
She stared at him for a moment, her arms still around his neck. She admired his thoughtfulness, he always thought about her feelings before his own. So sweet.
"I know what you mean. I think I'm too tired for that anyway! But I don't want you to leave."
"Neither do I. So what shall we do?"
She looked into his eyes once more, and they recognised the need for one another that night.
"Abby, I could have lost you today, and that scared me more than anything, and I'm not about to walk away if I don't get to spend the night with you."
"Me neither. I'm not usually good at these situations, but right now I don't feel afraid to be with you."
"Well I'm happy you feel like that. Why don't we sleep on it, and then tomorrow we can talk about what we are gonna do, about 'us'."
"There's an 'us' now?!"
"There's always been an 'us' Abby, you just never knew it."
"I knew it John. Just ignored it."
There was another pause, and Abby kissed him again lightly.
"I think we need to get some rest."
"I think you're right."
He kissed her quickly, and they made their way to the bedroom to catch up on some much needed sleep. Clambering into bed, Abby fell asleep almost as soon as her head hit the pillow. But something stopped her. She turned over to see Carter lying peacefully next to her, eyes tightly shut, and breathing slowly. She moved over closer to him and snuggled down into his body. He awoke a little to see Abby nestling into him trying to get comfortable. He lifted his arm and moved so she could fit into him and then he put his arm round her petite body protectively, and drifted off again into slumber.
"I love you John." Abby whispered quietly before drifting off to sleep herself.
Well that's the first chapter done. I've already posted this fic on the site but as 'katfan' but I've changed my name now! It got deleted anyway so I thought I'd posted it again cos I've done more chapters! I'd love you forever for reviews! They really help you cos it makes you think it's good (even if it's not!) Thanks guys! ;)
Chapter One - Love at First Sight
There was so much they needed to say. So many words unspoken. So many words that needed to be said but somehow, were left unsaid. Carter knew it. Abby knew it. If only they knew how to face the truth. It had taken so long for any sign of love to be shown. Carter's declaration, or was it really a declaration? That day, by the river, would sit with Abby forever. If only time wasn't against them. If she hadn't have been with Luka, and she hadn't of been so confused then maybe things would be different now. But what faced them was a long life of loneliness. Or so they thought.
It had taken a long, hot, and stressful day at the ER to make them face up to the truth. And what was the truth? That they loved each other. That was the truth. It was always Carter's first move that made them realise what they felt for each other. But Abby was glad he did it this time. If he hadn't she would have. Their first kiss was tense. More tense than either had ever dreamed it would be. And trust me, they had both thought about it, enough times that it wasn't even a dream anymore, it was more like a routine. The second kiss was more passionate. Their hearts still beat as fast as they had been during the first kiss, but somehow this time it felt more relaxed, but at the same time it was filled with emotion. Carter knew how he felt, but how did she feel? He needed to know. He wanted to know. She knew. She did love him. She wanted to tell him. She wanted to show him. But how? This was how.
The kiss lasted a few seconds. But to Carter, it didn't seem like long enough. To Abby, it seemed just right. What they were feeling at that moment could never be put into words. Carter and Abby both pulled away from the kiss as if it was automatic. They both knew it was time to stop, and take a look at what had just happened. He opened his eyes immediately, and her taste still lingered on his lips. She pulled back slowly, still eyes shut, slowly opening to see Carter standing before her staring directly into her eyes. This was it. The moment she had waited for and dreaded for what seemed like an eternity. She waited for him to speak, but nothing. What was he thinking?
"That was...nice." She said, hesitantly.
"Nice?" He replied, a little taken aback.
"Okay it was more than nice."
"That's more like it."
"So..Dr Carter..what do you suggest we do now?"
She smiled at him, he could see in her eyes she was glad it happened. A smile played upon his lips as he began to think about what had just happened.
"Well Nurse Lockhart, I think it would be an idea to take a shower when we get out of here..you don't smell that fresh!"
She stepped away quickly and slapped him playfully on the arm.
"Well neither do you as it goes!"
They both laughed a little then it was silent again. They stared into each others eyes once more. The love they felt for one another was seen in each other as they continued their staring contest. Carter took a small step towards her, and she did the same. They leaned into another kiss, just as Dr Lewis tapped on the window. They stopped millimetres apart and jumped back, looking embarrassed.
"Hey Susan!" Carter said, surprised.
"You two okay in there?!" Susan giggled to herself. "Busted!" She thought.
"Just great thanks!" Abby replied, trying to hide her embarrassment.
"That's good. We've just had confirmation so you two can get the hell outta here..that's if you want to!" She laughed, and turned to walk away.
"Do you think she saw anything?!" Carter said, worriedly.
"Of course she did! What do you think she was smiling at?!"
"Do you care?"
"Not really. Do you?"
"Not at all."
"Well then it doesn't matter."
"Nope. Well, shall we?" He said, putting his arm out. She linked arms with him as they walked out the trauma room.
9pm - That night at Abby's apartment
'Knock Knock'
"Be right there!" Abby called as she struggled to pull up her black trousers.
'Knock Knock'
"I said be right there!" She shouted again.
'God he's so impatient.' Abby thought as she hurried to the door.
She opened it and there stood Carter in the doorway, wearing sweats and a polo shirt. Looking gorgeous as usual.
"Hey!"
"Hey impatient one." She answered sarcastically as he entered the apartment closing the door slowly behind him.
"Well I wouldn't be if I hadn't waited for ten minutes!"
"It wasn't ten minutes. It was five."
"Well there you are then!"
They both smirked, and then an awkward silence fell upon them once more.
"I brought you something."
He pulled out a bunch of dead flowers from behind his back and handed them carefully to Abby who stood smiling at him for being so thoughtful. "Thanks John they're great."
"No problem."
She went and put them in a vase as he took off his coat and hung it on the back of the sofa.
"So what's for dinner?"
"What?! I never said I'd cook. I said we could eat."
"Okay then, what are we going to eat?!"
"It's on its way." She smirked as she placed the vase on the end table next to the sofa.
"So what are we going to do while we wait?"
Carter slowly walked towards Abby as she stood frozen to the spot. Her heart began to beat faster and she could feel her palms sweating. As he got closer she could feel his warmth surround her, his scent surrounded her, like air. His smell was like oxygen to her, she felt like she could breathe easier when he was near her. He took one more step closer to her and leaned in for another kiss. As their lips reached their closest before touching, the buzzer went.
Abby pulled away and walked towards the door.
"That's the pizza guy."
'This was going to be a long night.' Thought Carter as he sighed.
11.30pm
The pizza had been eaten, the drinks had been had and the jokes had been shared. But the kiss still hadn't. Carter was getting nervous. What if it was just a one off? Or a two off if you want to get technical. What if she hadn't wanted it to happen? What if she thought it was a mistake? These thoughts swam around his mind as he suddenly realised how tired he was. He looked over at Abby who was taking another sip of juice and flicking through the channels.
"Why is there never anything on at this time?" She asked irritated.
He loved to watch her. Whatever she was doing, he loved it. He smiled. Her frown. Her frustration. Her sarcastic comments. Her everything. He wondered if she felt the same. Even though they had kissed, he still wasn't sure what she felt. If she felt anything at all. He awoke from his daydream as he heard a faint calling coming from a voice in the room.
"Carter?! Carter!"
"Huh? What?" He looked up to see Abby staring at him looking a little annoyed.
"Have you been listening to me at all?!"
"I'm sorry Abby I was daydreaming."
"Oh yeah? About what?!" She asked curiously.
"Oh nothing that would interest you." He answered hesitantly.
"Try me." "Alright then. I was thinking about how you felt about me. How I felt about you. What you were thinking. Whether you regretted that kiss. If you wanted to do it again. And if you knew how beautiful you look tonight."
She sat staring at him, stunned by his declaration. So he did love her then. She smiled quietly to herself. Beautiful huh?! He must not be thinking straight.
"Abby?"
"Sorry what?"
"Aren't you going to answer me?"
"I didn't hear the question."
"Well there wasn't one really. I just want to know what I was thinking."
She looked down. She was embarrassed by his comments. He waited for an answer. But nothing came. He sighed. She didn't feel the same. He had known all along really, but chose to ignore it hoping that somehow she would suddenly start to love him.
"I better be going. I need to catch up on some sleep! I guess we both do."
He stood up to leave and leaned over to get his coat. He put it on and headed for the door, with Abby still motionless on the sofa.
"Carter wait!"
She said quickly whilst rushing over to stop him leave. He turned around to face her.
"John don't go. Please."
"Tell me what you want Abby. I need to know. Just, tell me, whatever it is you're feeling, I need to know what it is."
She looked down again.
"That's what I thought."
He turned again, but she grabbed his arm and pulled him back towards her as she moved him swiftly for a kiss. He didn't comprehend what was happening for a few moments, but then when he realised she was kissing him; he suddenly put his tongue into action and reciprocated immediately. They stood leaning against the door, kissing fervently until each was out of breath.
"This is what I want." She whispered softly into his ear before leaning in for another kiss.
After a few more moments, Carter plucked up the courage to pull away from the kiss.
"Abby. You know I want you. I want us to happen, but something tells me that tonight is not right for us to do that."
"To do what?"
He gave a look to explain what 'what' was.
"Oh. That." "Don't get me wrong, I would jump at the chance to do..that, with you, but I don't to rush us. To rush you."
She stared at him for a moment, her arms still around his neck. She admired his thoughtfulness, he always thought about her feelings before his own. So sweet.
"I know what you mean. I think I'm too tired for that anyway! But I don't want you to leave."
"Neither do I. So what shall we do?"
She looked into his eyes once more, and they recognised the need for one another that night.
"Abby, I could have lost you today, and that scared me more than anything, and I'm not about to walk away if I don't get to spend the night with you."
"Me neither. I'm not usually good at these situations, but right now I don't feel afraid to be with you."
"Well I'm happy you feel like that. Why don't we sleep on it, and then tomorrow we can talk about what we are gonna do, about 'us'."
"There's an 'us' now?!"
"There's always been an 'us' Abby, you just never knew it."
"I knew it John. Just ignored it."
There was another pause, and Abby kissed him again lightly.
"I think we need to get some rest."
"I think you're right."
He kissed her quickly, and they made their way to the bedroom to catch up on some much needed sleep. Clambering into bed, Abby fell asleep almost as soon as her head hit the pillow. But something stopped her. She turned over to see Carter lying peacefully next to her, eyes tightly shut, and breathing slowly. She moved over closer to him and snuggled down into his body. He awoke a little to see Abby nestling into him trying to get comfortable. He lifted his arm and moved so she could fit into him and then he put his arm round her petite body protectively, and drifted off again into slumber.
"I love you John." Abby whispered quietly before drifting off to sleep herself.
Well that's the first chapter done. I've already posted this fic on the site but as 'katfan' but I've changed my name now! It got deleted anyway so I thought I'd posted it again cos I've done more chapters! I'd love you forever for reviews! They really help you cos it makes you think it's good (even if it's not!) Thanks guys! ;)