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My Last Breath
I'm dying. We both know it, as I lie in Logan's arms.
Hold onto me, love
He's telling me it's OK, that everything's going to be fine. But it's not. Nothing is. I'm leaving him and he knows it.
You know I can't stay long
But this is the way I'd rather go. In his arms. Hiding from the hurt and pretending I've lead the life I wanted. Lord but I haven't. I've been running and I've been crawling – through cities, away from my families. I won't have to any more. It's a release. It's a release. I keep repeating the words over and over like a mantra that's going to save me. I'm not afraid.
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
I can't die before he knows. How I wish I'd done this long ago. "There's something I've got to tell you. I should've said something a long time ago..."
I love you and I'm not afraid
"It can wait." No, no it can't. Don't do this please don't pretend.
"Logan-" I try to tell him. But I can't even hear my own voice.
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
Please, Logan, hear me. Know what I've wanted to say for what seems like forever. Forever. Nothing is forever, because I'm who I am and because life never works that way.
I love you and I'm not afraid
I can remember when I kissed him, when we sat on his wooden flooring together, hopeless; pitiful. That was barely a few days ago... Maybe only one. I don't know. I can't think. Maybe I don't want to. I'm so close to dying.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
The full realisation is dawning on him – he's finally understood what's happening. My last attempts to voice my confession fail as he hushes me. I want to tell him, now I can't. Why is this happening to me? To us? It isn't fair. I want to spill tears but I can't.
Already I'm pining to be back home in rainy Seattle. I already miss the world I know; I'm faltering with my lies and I don't want to ever be without Logan.
I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree
I won't feel a thing, I won't know that he isn't with me. God I'm scared. I hope he knows that I love him and I'll never let him go, even when I'm cold in the ground and there are four earthen walls around me. Even when I'm dead, I'll still be holding on. No I won't, because I can't, I don't...
He's got to believe that I'm all around him – living, breathing – that I'm alive as long as he remembers me. In his heart he knows it... Maybe one day, when it's safe; when it doesn't hurt too much, he'll think of me. Perhaps he'll remember the way I kiss, or maybe that I don't like water. I feel a tear on my lips.
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
I know he's put there; crying for me, pining for me, the way I would for him. But I'll never let him forget that I'm his angel, all the while he's thinking about me. I love him, deep inside of my soul, he's there, burnt into my essence.
I love you and I'm not afraid
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
I hear him repeating my name, over and over.
Calling me; calling me, as you fade to black
God
I love you and I'm not afraid
Hold on to me
I love you and I'm not afraid
I love you and I'm not afraid
My Last Breath
I'm dying. We both know it, as I lie in Logan's arms.
Hold onto me, love
He's telling me it's OK, that everything's going to be fine. But it's not. Nothing is. I'm leaving him and he knows it.
You know I can't stay long
But this is the way I'd rather go. In his arms. Hiding from the hurt and pretending I've lead the life I wanted. Lord but I haven't. I've been running and I've been crawling – through cities, away from my families. I won't have to any more. It's a release. It's a release. I keep repeating the words over and over like a mantra that's going to save me. I'm not afraid.
All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid
I can't die before he knows. How I wish I'd done this long ago. "There's something I've got to tell you. I should've said something a long time ago..."
I love you and I'm not afraid
"It can wait." No, no it can't. Don't do this please don't pretend.
"Logan-" I try to tell him. But I can't even hear my own voice.
Can you hear me?
Can you feel me in your arms?
Please, Logan, hear me. Know what I've wanted to say for what seems like forever. Forever. Nothing is forever, because I'm who I am and because life never works that way.
I love you and I'm not afraid
I can remember when I kissed him, when we sat on his wooden flooring together, hopeless; pitiful. That was barely a few days ago... Maybe only one. I don't know. I can't think. Maybe I don't want to. I'm so close to dying.
Holding my last breath
Safe inside myself
Are all my thoughts of you
Sweet raptured light
It ends here tonight
The full realisation is dawning on him – he's finally understood what's happening. My last attempts to voice my confession fail as he hushes me. I want to tell him, now I can't. Why is this happening to me? To us? It isn't fair. I want to spill tears but I can't.
Already I'm pining to be back home in rainy Seattle. I already miss the world I know; I'm faltering with my lies and I don't want to ever be without Logan.
I'll miss the winter
A world of fragile things
Look for me in the white forest
Hiding in a hollow tree
I won't feel a thing, I won't know that he isn't with me. God I'm scared. I hope he knows that I love him and I'll never let him go, even when I'm cold in the ground and there are four earthen walls around me. Even when I'm dead, I'll still be holding on. No I won't, because I can't, I don't...
He's got to believe that I'm all around him – living, breathing – that I'm alive as long as he remembers me. In his heart he knows it... Maybe one day, when it's safe; when it doesn't hurt too much, he'll think of me. Perhaps he'll remember the way I kiss, or maybe that I don't like water. I feel a tear on my lips.
I know you hear me
I can taste it in your tears
I know he's put there; crying for me, pining for me, the way I would for him. But I'll never let him forget that I'm his angel, all the while he's thinking about me. I love him, deep inside of my soul, he's there, burnt into my essence.
I love you and I'm not afraid
Say goodnight
Don't be afraid
I hear him repeating my name, over and over.
Calling me; calling me, as you fade to black
God
I love you and I'm not afraid
Hold on to me
I love you and I'm not afraid
I love you and I'm not afraid