Cold but warm that what I would say. Somehow it's like floating in the air but yet, it also felt like being merged with water. My eyes were quite heavy as I open them. The first thing I saw was blue. The shades of blue danced front of me, mixing in with red. It was strange. Bright red steeped into color of blue. Watching color of red twisted and swirled like a heavy smoke in air. Red spreaded as my body became heavy with burden. Sharp pain throbbed inside my head. My vision became blurry while I'm developed into dark red world. Suddenly, I heard somebody screaming. It's sounded like that person was crying too. I don't understand, why is that person crying and screaming?

"Nooo..no.. Please!"

'What? Please what?'

Damn, I need to ask but it seem like I can't speak. Shit, I can't breathe. I can't breathe. I'm being suffocated by something. Why the hell can't I fucking move?! Great, my vision turning into black. I tried to move but my limbs won't move. What is going on? My world turned into black and slowly, the light shined. The lids of my eyes sliding close as the memories flowed into me.

"You don't know me at all but yet, I've been discounted." I whispered.

Looking at the mirror as I bitterly laughed at my pathetic self. Left bruised cheek reddened then turning into light shade of purple. Right eye was swollen shut. Lips were busted. My white t-shirt was ripped and covered with my dried blood. My arms were bruised. White lines on my arms was visible to eye, along with new cuts. Red circle under my eyes showed that I have been crying for while. I looked like shit.

"Look at me, I have become nobody. Just nothing."

I whimpered in pain. Seventeen years of my life. Those years mean nothing to me because they all are the same. Painful memories and people who broke my trust. They used me. They picked me apart to their own sick sense of amusement. They bulid me up then tear me apart. My own parents didn't even love me. And 'he' walked out on me. I don't think people would cared if I die or not. At least, I don't deal it anymore if I take this life of mine.

"You pretend that I don't exist and I'll go away."

But yet, I find..

"But I don't. I persist. I am still here."

My beloved. My best friend. That person was meant a world to me. She was beautiful. Her golden hair shined like golden treasure while her brown eyes were mesmerizing. Because of her, I am still alive.

"I hoping your warmth."

Her smile, laugh, and everything about her make me want to kiss her, hold her, and make her mine. That's right. I love you more anything.

"Will all ebb away, soon?"

I was simply walking on lonely street then suddenly, someone bumped to me. You knocked me down. I cried out in pain. You looked at me in surprise and quickly apologized. The moment that I saw your chocolate brown eyes and your cheesy smile, I fell for you. From that day, you were always there. You were everywhere. My love for you grew everyday.

"Just talk to me."

That is what you said. Fear grew inside me. I don't want you to know. Please just leave it to be. I don't want you to see this side of me. So I pushed you away. I hurted you. You cried and told me that you never want to see me again. I'm just a coward. I'm not a hero. I'm just a stupid teenager.

"I exist."

My existence is nothing without you.

"I am."

I watched you as you slowly disappear from my life. You smiled with others. You weren't by my side anymore. So I cut. I picked myself apart. I'm my own destruction. I'm dying again.

"Love me."

You smiled at me and told that you loved me. Then I woke.

"Hate me."

You screamed at me and told me that you definitely think that I deserve the guilt for everything I have done.

"It's doesn't matter."

That's what I would said. Because no matter what, I will always love you. So that's why I'm here. To say my last goodbye to you, I gave you my last words. So here I am. Drowning in endless blue. As the water makes it way to my lungs, I bled. Mixing my blood in blue. Fitting for me, right?

"Just don't ignore me. I'm just another human."

I thought you would be glad but yet, here you are...

~Hi, Everyone!~

I hope you like it. Somehow I feel like I need to write something angst because Chapter 414. I was so sad that INGEEL DIED. *Sobs* Anyway, if you like it and want me to write more then that's fine. Please review and feedback about this and my other stories :)

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