It was cold. It was raining. It was foggy. It was everything a classic movie would describe one of the depressing scenes. Which is exactly how I felt. It was the second week since I found out he cheated on me, and the first week since he disappeared.
*Flashback*
It was our 2 year anniversary, Lea and I.
He was everything to me, he was just, perfect. Bright red hair, bright green eyes. I was in love, I was sure of it. It wasn't a middle school crush, it was love. The Kind in the movies. If only I had known that that would change as soon as I turned the corner.
He was with her. Kissing her. My sworn enemy since kindergarten.
Arlene, she was evil. Pure. Evil. Beach blond hair, blue eyes. Some men would describe her as the perfect girl. Not in my book. If it wasn't trying to sabotage my science project accidentally' dropping her lunch on me, she was trying to steal Lea. This time, she had gotten to him.
I stared. My face was completely emotionless.
That's when he saw me. His eyes full of plead to be forgiven, Arlene's full of victory.
"Nea! It's not what you think!"
I let my emotions show themselves. I wasn't on the verge of tears, yet.
I turned around and started walking back to my house, still calm. I started running as soon as I hear Lea running after me.
Once I entered my house I kicked off my shoes, the tears threatening to fall.
"Nea, honey? Are you okay?"
My mom was always there for me, helped me fight my battles. But not this time, I had to fight alone. I wouldn't let her calming voice get to me this time. So, instead of answering her I just ran up the stairs to my sanctuary.
It was the place I would go whenever I was depressed. I would play the piano and draw. The Bright white walls kept me sane.
I hadn't been there in two years. Lea had made me promise never to go back in there. He said he hated seeing me sad.
As soon as I sat on the piano bench and opened it, I heard the front door burst open and Lea's voice demanding to know where I was. I heard my mom's calm voice telling him I went upstairs, then Lea mumbling to himself.
I turned my attention to the piano and started playing.
All this time I was waiting hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time and all you do is let me down
I heard doors opening and closing as he searched for me.
it's taking me this long, but baby figured you out
And you think it will be fine again but not this time around
Again, doors opening and closing. They were getting closer.
You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I won't believe you baby like I did before
You're not sorry no more, no more, no
The doors opening and closing were very close now. I could hear Lea grumbling and getting frustrated.
Lookin' so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could'a loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
He had grown sick of trying to search the rooms for me. I heard him talking to himself, when I heard him call himself stupid.
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cuz its worked each time before
I heard footsteps approaching the vent that I used as an entrance to my sanctuary.
But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby like I did before
You're not sorry no no no noo
You're not sorry no no no noo
I sang, slightly increasing my volume. I wanted him to find me. I wanted to bring his hopes up, then crush him. He crashed into the room just as I started the next verse.
You had me calling for you honey
And it never would've gone away no
You use to shine so bright
But I watched our love it fade
I heard him sigh, and slump against the wall. I knew what he was doing. He loved it when I sang, he said it made him happy.
So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I won't believe you baby like I did before
I sighed as I ended the song and got up. I turned towards him and walked up to him. He had his head down, not even glancing when he heard my footsteps.
"So.. I'm guessing you and Arlene are a thing now?"
He looked up at me, green orbs filled with sadness.
"No, she came onto me. She pushed me against the wall. She wouldn't let me escape. Please Nea-"
I sighed. I couldn't stay mad at him, he was just, too perfect. I shook my head and looked at him.
"Do you have anything to say for yourself?"
"Please babe, please just lis-"
"Don't. Don't call me that. Can't you see I'm trying to be mad at you here?"
He smiled. Good god, his smile was just amazing.
He got up and stared into my brown eyes. I tried hard to keep myself from smiling and blushing like he always made me do. I took a deep breath.
"Nea, I know you can't stay mad at me, and you know I can't stay mad at you." He said pushing a strand of hair behind my ear leaving a tingling feeling on my cheek.
He smirked. I had lost it at that point. I felt the heat rushing to my cheeks, still fighting the smile, but starting to fail.
He could see that. He wanted me to smile. So he did what he had to. He leaned in slowly and kissed me. After we pulled apart I fought harder not to smile but failed. I smiled. He
laughed.
"I knew I could make you smile. We good?"
"Y-Yeah." I said, still blushing like mad and smiling like an idiot.
"You're a dork." He said and smiled, picking me up and throwing me over his shoulder.
"GAH! Put me down!" I said struggling to get out of his grasp as he did nothing put push me through the door and out of the vent.
When we got back into my bedroom he put his hands on my shoulder and looked me sternly in the eyes
.
"Now, are we going to have an amazing 2 year anniversary, or should we have a repeat of last year?"
I smiled and I packed my stuff. Tonight, his parents were out of town and I was staying over at his house.
As soon as we were going to leave my house my mom stopped me.
"Nea, if you get pregnant, I will ground you for the rest of your life and forbid you to see anyone."
I laughed and rolled my eyes at my moms sternness.
"Nea, I'm serious, don't get pregnant, you're way too young. And plus, I'm way too young to have grandchildren."
"Whatever Mom, bye!"
*End flashback*
I smiled. That was a good night. We watched movies, prank called people and we just did anything normal teenagers would do at a sleep-over.. minus loosing our virginity of course..
But at this point, I wished I would have been become pregnant with his child. At least, that way, I would have had something to remember him by.