When the Stars Go Blue
Summary: Takes place the day of graduation, Veronica ponders things. LoVe. Spoilers through 2x22
This story is rated T for just in case.
A/N: Veronica's POV. This came to me during… Algebra, I think on Thursday.
Dis-claim-ah: I don't own Veronica Mars or the song When the Stars Go Blue by Tyler Hilton and Bethany Joy Lenz.
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Chapter 1: In a World…
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In a world of perfection, Logan and I would be together. Lilly would be alive and attending Vassar. Duncan would be with Meg and they would both still be here. And I would be going to Stanford, because Dad would have the money because he would still be sheriff. My mom would still be here in Neptune and life would be… well… perfect.
In a world of normality, Logan's dad wouldn't have killed Lilly after having an affair with her, Meg wouldn't have died giving birth to Duncan's child, and Duncan wouldn't have run away to Australia. The bus wouldn't have crashed; Jackie wouldn't have lied causing Jackie to follow him to Paris (New York). Woody Goodman wouldn't have molested those kids and blown up the bus. And I wouldn't have kissed Logan outside the Camelot that day. If only life could be… normal.
In a world of simplicity, you wouldn't have to be rich to hang out with certain people. You wouldn't have to have a famous father to be popular, or have a family business that makes it possible for the murder video of that family's daughter able to be released online through streaming video. When your best friend is murdered you wouldn't have to choose between all your friends and your father when you need both the most, between your life and your mother, or between your ex-boyfriend and your dead best friend's (ex?)boyfriend in the depths of your subconscious. And finally you wouldn't be contemplating this on the day of your high school graduation if the world were really that simple.
But life in Neptune isn't that perfect, normal, or simple, in fact it isn't even close to perfect, normal, or simple. So here I stand thinking about my life in the past 2 ½ years and how much it's changed since Lilly died.
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Logan and I. We went from being friends to enemies to acquaintances to boyfriend/girlfriend to acquaintances to a level of awkwardness I didn't think was possible that we reached after his drunken EPIC love speech and the morning after.
Duncan and I. We went from dating to not speaking to acquaintances to dating again to the point where he ran off with Meg's baby, so I guess we broke up?
Meg and I. We went from friends to acquaintances to friends to enemies to friends, and then she wan in the bus crash and died giving birth to Duncan's baby.
Wallace and I. We became best friends quickly. We had our fights, but nothing really big. I guess if Lilly hadn't died I wouldn't have met him.
Mac and I. We're best buds. I mean, we don't like chat on the phone or IM or gossip or paint each other's nails, but that doesn't mean we aren't gal pals. I probably wouldn't have gotten to know her if Lilly wasn't murdered in her own backyard.
All in all things in my life are pretty great, but somewhat empty without Logan (?), Lilly, and Duncan in them. I guess I could get Logan back; it just might take some work to do so.
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A/N: Sorry it's short, next chapter is done, it just needs to be typed up.