Author: Edesina
Beta: none but if someone wants to be, PM me
Rating: M (see the warnings below)

Pairings: In the first parts Sei/Gospoldin, Sei/OMC, Sei/OFC, later Sei/few Marimite girls
Characters: Sei & OMC (Gospodin) in the first parts, the rest of gang will be introduced later.
Genre: AU, Angst, Darkfic, Romance, Drama, Fluff…
Summary: "My name is Willow. Nice to meet you. I'm 14 years old and I work as a prostitute."

Disclaimer: If Marimite was mine underage people wouldn't have heard of it.
Warnings: Prostitution, foul language, kinky sex, sex between a kid and adult, abuse and dub-con, alcohol, drugs, cross-dressing and other things I forgot to mention or can't mention because they would be spoilers to the latter parts.

A/N: Thanks to conventgirlvampire who suggested a prequel or sequel to my story "Lacey Domination". I love the settings of that… well, PwP it is. This fic is years before and after. Just to warn you, this is quite dark. When I started this, it was supposed to be just a one-shot but I got carried away and… And since I started this, I decided to do the whole set (trailer, prologue, chapters, epilogue). I have written first chapters in first person narrative and then I switch to third person narrative. I just don't think I can write about Sei's past if I use my usual style.

Also, there are few Russian, German, Finnish and/or Swedish words (I know a handful of curses and other… not so nice words). Translations will be at the end of the chapter.

The Girl of the Back-Alley

Trailer: Willow

You say you love me? That has to be a lie because the moment you learn the truth about my past you will run away. I'm a girl who has seen more than you could even if you lived hundred years. The reason why I don't have nightmares is because I lived in one. Freezing winters didn't break me, ruthless abuse didn't leave more than barely visible scars on me. I was willow; I bent but didn't break down.
Never.
You broke my soul, my resolve to not to fall in love with anyone.

When I am with you, the silent whisper keeps bugging me. Can I be loyal to only one person? I don't know. Yet for your sake I can try. I can keep going on, keep running away from my past, my faults and mistakes.

Do you believe in destiny or miracles? I don't, which is why I can't believe that you like me. I am a wandering ghost of human. I've done so many bad things – which I still don't regret – that I've lost my right to be called 'a human'. Humans have soul and a soul mate. If I'm not a human, I don't have a soul and therefore I cannot have a soul mate. A person who can accept all my faults and support me. Someone who stays after meeting my true self.

Have you heard the story of angel who had flown too close the sun? She lost her wings and died shortly after that. I am the sun, come too close and you'll be consumed by my burning darkness. In the end you will end up hurting yourself. It's bound to happen.

So, if you can, listen to my story to the very end. It's not something I'm proud of but it's the life I have led until I met one angel. That angel was hurt because of me. And I knew it would happen. I didn't do anything to stop her because I wanted a moment of happiness.

To be continued

A/N2: Just a teaser here. I probably can't update weekly at least not until I've finished my other story. Still, reviews would be nice ^^