Author's Note: This is what happens when I buy lilies....well, and html
until my brains fall out. I've been working on a site for Kanae Ohtori
lately as well. And I need fan fiction about her for it. If anyone else is
interested in submitting some, please let me know.
Disclaimers: I do not own Kanae or Akio Ohtori. If I owned Kanae, I'd take better care of her. ^.^ And if I owned Akio... o_O gaaah....my mind hurts now...
*Also, this might somewhat spoil the end of the TV show. It's only a slight reference to the aftermath of it (pertains to Anthy).*
It's official…I hate Word..and..grrr
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Akio had been absent so usual from dinner. He'd have a good excuse. There was always one. Perhaps tonight it was sadness at the sudden disappearance of Anthy. Perhaps it was paperwork.
Whatever it was, it must have been important.
It never occurred to Kanae, except when she was all alone in the candlelight watering her lilies, that perhaps she should have been important too.
Even then, it still seemed irrelevant. Akio was a busy man.
Her mother had always said that a wife owes her husband duty, loyalty, and patience. She had never mentioned what exactly it was a husband ought to do.
Kanae wondered, as she gently wiped the leaves of her flowers dry, if wives were always so alone. She winced feeling guilty for thinking slightly ill of him. He after all was the best thing that had ever happened to her.
She blew out the candles and put on the lights in the her room, hoping that in the light she would be able to forget these nagging thoughts that were so horrible.
She began clearing the dishes with a natural, unconscious grace and brought them to the kitchen to wash. She forced her green eyes to concentrate solely on the soap suds and what little food there was to be removed from the porcelain.
It wasn't enough.
She wasn't sure why. She had been feeling this way more and more lately. More than anything, she wished she could be of any small comfort to Akio.
Obviously she wasn't. He was avoiding her for that reason.
Being an only child, Kanae conceded that the bonds of a brother for a sister or vice versa must be strong. But...why couldn't he even talk to her about it?
She wiped at her eyes once she had dried the dishes and put them away.
She went to her desk, glanced at the astronomy homework she had left to do, but found no will whatsoever to apply herself to the task.
Astronomy didn't interest her at all really. She had taken it in the foolish hopes that....
She sighed.
She was the problem. The one part of the equation that didn't seem to fit.
After all, how could she complain? Her parents had more important things to do than worry about her. Her father was ill, possibly dying. Her mother was dealing so much. And Akio...
She sank down next to the two small lilies that she had been growing after turning off the lights again, and stared mournfully up at the stars.
She didn't want to be a burden.
She was a burden.
She wanted to be loved.
She wasn't worth loving.
She felt such an ache inside. She had no idea what to do with it. Her mother had never told her. Her father wouldn't have understood. Her husband- to-be shouldn't have to be bothered with her worthless problems.
She had never been able to articulate to Akio why she hated his looking at the stars. She couldn't get the words past the tip of her tongue.
Looking at them alone, she understood. They were so big, so connected to one another. You could tell what constellation they made up just be looking at them. They were silent, but they knew their place. They had the arrogance and majesty that Akio had in his eyes....but....
She was small. She didn't feel connected to anyone for any other reason than everyone else said she should. She wasn't like the stars. She was so unsure of everything.
She sniffled and curled up on the floor underneath the larger of the two lilies and focused on the heavenly fragrance of its petals.
"Kanae-chan?"
She looked up not too surprised to hear his voice. Her mother had given him a key to the room he had told her months ago.
"Hai, Akio-san?" She sat up on the floor and shielded her eyes from the lights as he turned them on.
Akio smirked at her. "Why are you sitting here in the dark?"
"....I was thinking..." Kanae said feeling guilty for having done nothing.
He regarded her briefly and glanced at the lilies. He frowned slightly at them. "Sou....what are those doing here?"
"Hn?"
The severity of his features lightened as he gazed at her confused, doe eyes. He smirked and chuckled which caused her to look down and blush. "I'm allergic to them, Kanae-chan."
She gasped. "Gomen!"
He shook his head. "Iie...but I hope you won't be too upset if I ask you to get rid of them."
"Of course not," she said fighting off a feeling of regret at having to toss them out. The feelings of guilt won out as always. "I'll get rid of them right now."
She missed his smirk as she glanced back over her shoulder at her lilies.
Akio chuckled again walking over to her.
"Leave them until tomorrow, Kanae-chan," he purred kissing her cheek.
"H-hai, Akio-san," she said giving the flowers a sad smile as he took her hand and lead her out of her room.
The lights were turned off again as the couple departed, and as if aware of their fate and that of their late mistress, the lilies began to wither.
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Comments and criticism is greatly appreciated. ^.^
I hope the Japanese is not too unfamiliar. I used it because some things just sound right in Japanese....and I'm crazy...so never mind. (*Note: Sou=right or really in Japanese, Gomen=I'm sorry)
Disclaimers: I do not own Kanae or Akio Ohtori. If I owned Kanae, I'd take better care of her. ^.^ And if I owned Akio... o_O gaaah....my mind hurts now...
*Also, this might somewhat spoil the end of the TV show. It's only a slight reference to the aftermath of it (pertains to Anthy).*
It's official…I hate Word..and..grrr
~~~~~~
Akio had been absent so usual from dinner. He'd have a good excuse. There was always one. Perhaps tonight it was sadness at the sudden disappearance of Anthy. Perhaps it was paperwork.
Whatever it was, it must have been important.
It never occurred to Kanae, except when she was all alone in the candlelight watering her lilies, that perhaps she should have been important too.
Even then, it still seemed irrelevant. Akio was a busy man.
Her mother had always said that a wife owes her husband duty, loyalty, and patience. She had never mentioned what exactly it was a husband ought to do.
Kanae wondered, as she gently wiped the leaves of her flowers dry, if wives were always so alone. She winced feeling guilty for thinking slightly ill of him. He after all was the best thing that had ever happened to her.
She blew out the candles and put on the lights in the her room, hoping that in the light she would be able to forget these nagging thoughts that were so horrible.
She began clearing the dishes with a natural, unconscious grace and brought them to the kitchen to wash. She forced her green eyes to concentrate solely on the soap suds and what little food there was to be removed from the porcelain.
It wasn't enough.
She wasn't sure why. She had been feeling this way more and more lately. More than anything, she wished she could be of any small comfort to Akio.
Obviously she wasn't. He was avoiding her for that reason.
Being an only child, Kanae conceded that the bonds of a brother for a sister or vice versa must be strong. But...why couldn't he even talk to her about it?
She wiped at her eyes once she had dried the dishes and put them away.
She went to her desk, glanced at the astronomy homework she had left to do, but found no will whatsoever to apply herself to the task.
Astronomy didn't interest her at all really. She had taken it in the foolish hopes that....
She sighed.
She was the problem. The one part of the equation that didn't seem to fit.
After all, how could she complain? Her parents had more important things to do than worry about her. Her father was ill, possibly dying. Her mother was dealing so much. And Akio...
She sank down next to the two small lilies that she had been growing after turning off the lights again, and stared mournfully up at the stars.
She didn't want to be a burden.
She was a burden.
She wanted to be loved.
She wasn't worth loving.
She felt such an ache inside. She had no idea what to do with it. Her mother had never told her. Her father wouldn't have understood. Her husband- to-be shouldn't have to be bothered with her worthless problems.
She had never been able to articulate to Akio why she hated his looking at the stars. She couldn't get the words past the tip of her tongue.
Looking at them alone, she understood. They were so big, so connected to one another. You could tell what constellation they made up just be looking at them. They were silent, but they knew their place. They had the arrogance and majesty that Akio had in his eyes....but....
She was small. She didn't feel connected to anyone for any other reason than everyone else said she should. She wasn't like the stars. She was so unsure of everything.
She sniffled and curled up on the floor underneath the larger of the two lilies and focused on the heavenly fragrance of its petals.
"Kanae-chan?"
She looked up not too surprised to hear his voice. Her mother had given him a key to the room he had told her months ago.
"Hai, Akio-san?" She sat up on the floor and shielded her eyes from the lights as he turned them on.
Akio smirked at her. "Why are you sitting here in the dark?"
"....I was thinking..." Kanae said feeling guilty for having done nothing.
He regarded her briefly and glanced at the lilies. He frowned slightly at them. "Sou....what are those doing here?"
"Hn?"
The severity of his features lightened as he gazed at her confused, doe eyes. He smirked and chuckled which caused her to look down and blush. "I'm allergic to them, Kanae-chan."
She gasped. "Gomen!"
He shook his head. "Iie...but I hope you won't be too upset if I ask you to get rid of them."
"Of course not," she said fighting off a feeling of regret at having to toss them out. The feelings of guilt won out as always. "I'll get rid of them right now."
She missed his smirk as she glanced back over her shoulder at her lilies.
Akio chuckled again walking over to her.
"Leave them until tomorrow, Kanae-chan," he purred kissing her cheek.
"H-hai, Akio-san," she said giving the flowers a sad smile as he took her hand and lead her out of her room.
The lights were turned off again as the couple departed, and as if aware of their fate and that of their late mistress, the lilies began to wither.
~~~~~~
Comments and criticism is greatly appreciated. ^.^
I hope the Japanese is not too unfamiliar. I used it because some things just sound right in Japanese....and I'm crazy...so never mind. (*Note: Sou=right or really in Japanese, Gomen=I'm sorry)