N/A: Disclaimer (or whatever)- Harry Potter and all the characters belong to J.K. Rowling. I do not own any of this (except the ones I own, wich are not in J.K. Rowling's books… anyway) and I am not trying to steal this from anyone. Just having fun finding alternate-story-thingies…

Prologue

So, lately I've been feeling too much like an old man. Lupin used to say I never actually grew out of my teens, and though I think he was playing this was actually not far from the truth. When I look back, most of my life feels like a big blur, like the hole once burnt in my parents tapestry had gone through me as well. It's hard to tell how long it's been, and where I am right now, and I didn't seem to have the time to figure it out; but now, when I look at Ad filling her endless reports, rewriting them until perfection to get her place in the squad once all the training is over, and Harry studying hard for his NEWTs so he can finally follow his dreams, I feel old. I miss that. That was me. And I miss all I didn't get to have, and all I can't have back. I miss Crater, whom I never even got to meet, I miss Dan, and hell I miss Kate, and James, and Lupin now…

It hasn't been all loosing, and I know it. But it's a tough burden being he last marauder on this life… when maybe I should have been the first to go. But this is just nostalgic crap from a tired man. The kind of things that don't actually take us anywhere. It's all good now, and will always be. But now I'm just a watcher. One that tends to remember.