Anything I'm not
It's been one year since the war ended and things have almost gone back to normal. We even started training initiates again. That is the reason why I'm standing here in front of the mirror almost in tears. The end of initiation party is tonight and Christina just came to the door of Tobias' and my shared apartment to give me a dress for tonight. After the war, I had been too busy with other things to go shopping, but not Christina. Now here I am in this dress and because of my stupid Erudite tendencies, I am analyzing every detail, or should I say flaw.
Between my watery eyes, and the fact that I'm too busy scrutinizing myself, I don't even notice when Tobias comes up behind me and wraps his arms around my waist.
"What's wrong?" he asks me.
"Look at me, I will never be tall enough to pull this off." I say, pulling at the fabric of the dress.
"Tris, you look amazing." he give me a look as if to say, are you crazy.
"I'm not so sure about that." I roll my eyes at his comment.
"Well you should be."
"Tobias, give me a break, I'm so tired of being me. All I want to be is everything I'm not."
"What are you talking about?"
"I know that I'll always be me, and I'm happy with that. It's just that I wish this weren't the reality of what I looked like." I tell him, looking down to the floor.
"If you were anyone but you, I wouldn't love her. You are perfect exactly the way you are." he leans down and gives me a quick kiss. "Now come on, let's take a little escape from this and go the party." he suggests.
I carefully wipe my eyes before taking his hand and heading to the party. I have Tobias right here and he loves me, maybe being everything I am isn't so bad after all…
A/N This is based off Everything I'm not by Lenka. It's my first song fic so please review and tell me what you thought. I'll try to update Zeke pov in a day or two and update Travelin' soldier fairly soon. PLEASE review!