Reflection
Disclaimer :- I own everything ... (little lawyers appear and start yelling and waving round legal documents) ... WHAT! Sorry folks turns out that legally I own my Teddy Bear, lip-gloss and laughing Buddha figure ... and a million reading books ... (sigh) ... (tear) ... But still no everything :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(
Oh god ... there she is ... everything I want to have, she has ... everything I want to be, she is ... Look at her ... so confident ... so collected ... she doesn't care what people say about her ... she has the perfect life ... she's smart, beautiful, rich, popular ... Daddy's little princess ...Mummy's little angel ... every guy wants to date her, every girl wants to be her ... she's Queen of the school ... sure she's not the nicest person in the world but she says what she thinks ... she's graceful ... pretty much untouchable ...
Look at me
I will never pass for a perfect bride
Or a perfect daughter
Can it be
I'm not meant to play this part?
Now I see
That if I were truly to be myself
I would break my family's heart
If I was more like her maybe, just maybe home would be a happy place ...If I was beautiful like her maybe, just maybe someone would love me ... Mummy always says "People love beautiful people"... and she's more than beautiful ... she's gorgeous ... and then there's me ... who's anything but beautiful or gorgeous or even pretty ... and I'm too fat ... to deserve to be loved...
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight
Back at me?
Why is my reflection
someone I don't know?
She never has to ask does my derrière look big in this ... or how does this look ... no she's always supremely confident about how good she looks ... and she has to be ... those wannabe's attack at the least little sign of weakness or real emotion ...
Somehow I cannot hide
Who I am
Though I've tried
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
Sometimes I can't help but wish that she really was me ... or that I really was her .. that she was actually real, not a shield, not a mask to try to protect myself ... after all no one gets the better of Queen C ... not even Queen C ... just of Cordy Chase ... the girl hidden deep inside ...
Who is that girl I see
Staring straight
Back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
Author Note:- Hey ... don't laugh at me ... why couldn't Cordelia Chase 'Witch' Queen of Sunnydale High feel this way sometimes when she's down ... Goddess knows that for all it looks to outsiders that I have the perfect life I don't ... I know what it's like to wish that my life was just like I pretend it is ... That I was as carefree and air headed and flighty and optimistic and continuously happy as i pretend to be ... but I'm not ... I'm just soo good at playing pretend that now I even fool myself into believing it ... Yes the song is Reflection from the Disney movie Mulan ... I LOVE DISNEY! Oh and I don't mind if you don't say much ... just review plz ... one of my friends just moved back to India and I'm feeling rather unloved ... I don't mind if all you put is your name ... anything is muchly appreciated and earns you friendship points ... the more reviews you give me the more reviews I'll give you ... unless I don't know any of the categories you write in ... then please forgive me :)
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DramaQueen4eva
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