Title: Every Breath
Author: KittyBlue
Chapters: oneshot
Status: complete
Type: angst (drama?), shounen-ai
Rating: G
Parings: Riku x Sora
Summary: It scares me that when I try to imagine a world without them I can see only darkness.
Disclaimer: Don't own any of the characters here. I wish I owned a Riku.. just a plushie and I would be happy enough though.. ç.ç
Warnings: Hmm.. This was inspired by "Feelin' You" by Jesse McCartney.. Which is an awesome song.. Don't listen to it! Unless you want to be with it in your head for the rest of the week! Seriously! Lots of mistakes, but this was a stress inspired story..! First attempt at something today after my English exam.. probably that's the reason it's so.. dark? O.o
Every Breath
By KittyBlue
After saving the worlds twice, where in the meanwhile I got to meet new friends and experience almost-death situations, coming home to old normal Destiny Island it's not something I was really looking forward. For the first time, I actually understood why Riku wanted to leave this place so much.
I really like the lazy, relaxed life here, but for some reason, now, everything seems far from my ideal world. Sometime I even wonder why I am here. Why did I born into this world and not another one? I enjoyed every world I got to know. And when I remember that everything I did was to come home to the islands..
I look out of the window, the view is breathtaking, always was. But now I feel like something is missing. What? I really don't know.
After wallowing in my own depressed thoughts for a bit, I decide that this is so not for me. So let's leave the dark thoughts for Riku and get cheerful again, Sora!...
But Riku is actually the only thing that I don't mind right now. Even with his nonchalant ways and emotionless attitude, I know he's really happy to be home. Because, right now, home to Riku is far from Kingdom Hearts and all the memories of what he's done.
Sometimes I wonder why did Riku become my best friend. Can I consider it a coincidence? Or maybe go a bit far and say it was fated since the beginning? Riku is everything I'm not. He's beautiful, smooth, charming, fascinating and even his sulky moments seem to be appealing to everyone. We're so different and at the same time, we can't stay too long away from each-other. I know that I sound like a love-sick girl. But I don't think I'll ever forget when the darkness first took Riku, if only I could have clutched his hand. I'm sure so many things would have change that moment. If only.. but no, I didn't. I was weak. Everyone says that I'm strongest because I'm the keyblader. But.. I feel confused since we're back. I feel like nothing changed in me in all these years. That I'm still like that little kid. And again I will have to let Riku go.
I wonder if I would be able to handle life without Riku again. Kairi, and probably even Riku, think I would. But I would actually do everything I can to get them back here, with me, together forever, as cliché that is. But, the first time was hard enough. I gave my heart to save Kairi, and I would probably do it again. But how far would I really be able to go without them? It scares me that when I try to imagine a world without them I can see only darkness.
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Where did this come from? Really.. It's not a rhetoric question, because I have absolutely no idea! O.o
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