"I hate you."
It's what he always says afterward. Sometimes screaming, sometimes crying, sometimes barely above a whisper, but he always says it, and he's said it from the beginning.
"I hate you."
If he says it enough, maybe he'll still believe it, because after all the sinful touches and all the times he's been used and abused, some twisted part of him is coming to enjoy it. Some twisted part of him is coming to need it, to crave it, and Sasuke doesn't know what to do about that, so he says the only thing he knows.
"I hate you, Itachi," he sobs, and he does his best to make him believe it because he no longer can and he knows it now, doesn't try to fight it.
Itachi does it because he wants Sasuke to hate him more, and he doesn't realize that it's not working anymore. He doesn't realize it because Sasuke thinks that if he keeps up the act, Itachi will keep doing the things he does, and that's what he really wants.
"Hate you," and he doesn't mean it anymore, wonders if he ever did. Really it's just talk now, but he can't let Itachi know the truth, doesn't want him to stop, ever. Still, he doesn't know how much longer he can keep in inside. He's breaking.
"I hate you, Itachi," he says, and it's expected, because Itachi's taught the boy as much, but what he doesn't expect is just how broken the boy really is.
"I hate you for making me love you," Sasuke says, and as lips crush against lips, Itachi for once in his life knows what it's like to be speechless for a reason other than simply wanting to be.
Itachi doesn't know what to do because he didn't plan this at all, and now they're falling, the taste of blood filtering between them. For a second, Itachi wonders if the kiss was forceful enough to split one or both of their lips, but then the pain catches up to him and he breaks away, staring down coal-black eyes as the Sharingan bleeds from his eyes like his life from the wound in his chest.
It's then he realizes that it isn't just his blood, but Sasuke's too, and he doesn't know what to make of it all, head spinning from blood loss and pain. He doesn't know what to do because he didn't plan this at all, and damn if the boy isn't smiling and all he can think or say is "Why?".
Sasuke just pulls him closer, craning his neck for another bloody kiss and whispers, because it's all he's got energy for anymore, "I couldn't have lived without you."
It makes sense and doesn't all at the same time and Itachi's mind is almost frantic at the edges. He didn't plan this and it's nothing like the bliss of absolution he'd thought he'd find with death, but it's Sasuke, and sometimes, happiness just isn't something that can be predicted.
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