A/N: I've been having so friggin' many Thor and Loki feels. I needed to get them out, so this is the result.
Reminder, this is not intended slash. Will jump around from when they were kids, to events from the movies, and possible future happenings, including Avenger Loki. Features other characters as well.
Disclaimer: I do not own The Avengers.
Brother Mine, Part 1
1] Exhaustion:
Thor and Loki just barely made it back to Stark Tower after their latest battle, dragging themselves to the lounge with the largest most comfortable couches, before both collapsing on one that was folded out to the size of a bed.
"You fought well today brother." Thor said, pride in his voice.
"Thank you Thor, but if you wouldn't mind shutting up, I think I'm going to sleep for the next two days." Loki mumbled in reply.
2] Privacy:
Loki made it a point to never leave Thor alone with Sif, which irritated Thor to no end.
3] Comfort:
Loki's imprisonment was rather comfortable, in a fair size cell that was kept clean and actually had a real bed. His shock upon finding out that this was because Thor had actually begged the All-Father for Loki's accommodations to be so knew no bounds.
4] Fear:
Whenever Thor saw fear in Loki's eyes, he did everything he could to remove it.
5] Light:
Loki understood why Thor loved Midgard so much. It was bright and warm, just like Thor was.
6] Darkness:
Loki on the other hand seemed doomed to lurk in the dark, both in his heart and his mind.
7] Happiness:
Loki looked around the living room of Stark Tower, the room where he had once been defeated by The Avengers, and watched Stark and Banner going over some calculations on Stark's transparent data screens, the Widow and the Hawk going over secret SHEILD mission papers, the Captain on the phone, speaking to someone high in the military about strategy, and Thor polishing Mjolnir.
He looked at his friends. He allowed himself a small smile as he looked back down at his spell book. How long had it been since he'd felt like this? Since he had felt happy?
8] Sadness:
Thor had never known sadness like what he had felt when he thought Loki dead. In fact, he thought what he felt surpassed sadness, since the pain was so great and nearly paralyzing at times.
9] Disobedience:
Thor, without a second thought, took Loki from Asgard after Odin sentenced him to death, and brought him to Midgard to start a new life, knowing full well he was abandoning the throne and risking permanent banishment.
And as he watched Loki slowly reach redemption, watched him slowly become accepted, watched him become an Avenger, Thor had no regrets.
10] Anger:
Neither Loki nor Thor were very good at controlling their anger. Granted, Loki was better at it, but not by much.
11] Murder:
"You murdered nearly countless people! And you felt nothing?"
Loki blinked up at Thor, a completely innocent expression on his face. "What was there to feel?"
12] Medicine:
"Oh come on, it doesn't taste that bad." Thor said, trying to get his sick little brother to swallow the syrupy liquid.
"You take it then."
13] Friendship:
"If you cannot be my brother Loki, can you not at least be my friend?"
14] Torture:
How did this new enemy torture Thor during the brief time he was captive before the other Avengers arrived? They made him watch as they beat and burned his brother.
15] Humiliation:
Loki pulled Thor along and shoved him into his room, closing the door to keep his very intoxicated brother from doing anything that might embarrass both of them.
16] Tears:
Loki hardly ever cried, but upon finally being released from the power controlling him, when the horrors of what he had done hit him, he collapsed into Thor's arms, sobbing hysterically.
17] Smile:
Thor's smile was almost blinding sometimes.
18] Lies:
"I always lie Thor. That's who I am, remember? The one incapable of sincerity." Loki hissed.
"If you always lie, that means you're lying now." Thor pointed out.
19] Honesty:
"Thor… Brother, I want you to know that the day of your coronation, when I told you to never doubt that I love you, I was telling the truth."
Thor's response was to embrace Loki. "I always believed you were telling the truth that day."
20] Abuse:
Thor knew that Odin's abuse of Loki as punishment was given reluctantly, but that did not mean he had to like or support it.
21] Death:
"I will not let anything take you away. Not father, not an enemy, and not death." Thor vowed.
A smile touched Loki's bloody lips. "Even Asgardians can't stop death Thor."
22] Destruction:
"Why do you crave destruction?"
"Because I like watching you all scramble pathetically to rebuild everything."
23] War:
"There is only the war!"
"So be it." Thor prepares to fight his brother, as he searches Loki's eyes, hoping, praying, to find something of the brother he loved in them.
24] Peace:
"You said you would never find peace here on Midgard brother. Tell me, is that still the case?" Thor asked as they watched the sunrise from the very top of Stark Tower.
Loki paused a moment, not looking at Thor. "No. I have found peace."
25] Tribal:
"So, humans really did live like animals-" Loki began to say, but was silenced when Thor grabbed the book from his hands.
"We all live like animals, Loki."
26] Kiss:
"It is not "gay". It is an expression of affection between loved ones. Do your people not do it at some times?" Thor said as Tony walked in on him and Loki having a brotherly moment, in which Thor kissed his brother's forehead, and Tony just had to make a comment.
27] Shy:
As a child, Loki had been almost paralyzing shy. Thor couldn't understand it, since he was so outgoing and loud.
28] Alone:
Loki thought he would be doomed to rot in this room, alone, with only his hatred and dark thoughts to keep him company. He would never admit how glad he was when both his mother and Thor would come to him, to talk or to merely be with him.
29] Wild:
"Your hair has grown wild brother. You used to always take such care of it."
"Like yours is much better."
30] Sleep:
Loki had not really slept well since his discovery of his true parentage. But after his slow redemption, his reconciliation with his family, he finally could sleep without fear of nightmares or troubling thoughts.
31] Chicken Pox:
Loki stifled a laugh at the look the Widow gave Thor when commented on the red spots on her face during their communiqué while she was unable to come in for a mission.
32] Determination:
"You're a hell bent fool."
"I'm just determined."
"There's a fine line between the two Thor."
33] Hunt:
Loki did not like hunting, but he went to get Thor to stop begging.
34] Struggle:
"It's pointless you know. Trying to resist the forces that are after me."
Thor shook his head with a frown. "I do not think so. Because they are not fighting for something, for someone."
35] Protective:
Sometimes Thor had to remind himself that his little brother did not have to be protected anymore. At least not all the time.
36] Weapons:
"You chose not to fight with weapons Loki?" Thor asked.
Loki shrugged. "Magic is a weapon Thor. A very dangerous one."
37] Instincts:
It was a good thing Loki had better instincts that Thor; otherwise they both probably would've been dead a long time ago.
38] Hyper:
If there was one thing neither of the brothers could deal with, it was a drunk, hyper, Tony.
39] Fights:
"We haven't sparred in a long time Loki. Why don't we go a round?"
Loki gave Thor a pointed look.
"Since we sparred on friendly terms, I mean." Thor quickly amended.
40] Lost:
"Lost? How can we be lost? Asgardians don't get lost!"
"Well, this is rather proving the opposite, isn't it?" Loki replied.
41] Found:
Whenever Loki hid to cry or fume, Thor always found him.
42] Captured:
Thor looked at Loki, bound and muzzled, like a caged dog, like an animal.
It broke his heart. Even now, Loki was no animal.
43] Patience:
"Thor, does the word patience mean nothing to you?"
44] Guilty:
"How do you plead?" Odin asked his son at the trial.
Loki swallowed, and closed his eyes. "Guilty."
There was a long pause, and then Loki's eyes snapped open when he felt Odin's strong, gentle hand on his head. "I also plead guilty, my son. For the things I have done wrong, where you were concerned."
It felt as though Loki's heart had clenched painfully in his chest.
45] Forgiveness:
It was just him and his family now. They would be giving him his punishment privately.
Odin stepped forward first, frowning, as he looked the man he still considered his son over. "Loki, I have decided your punishment."
Loki didn't say anything; he simply stood, holding the All-Father's gaze.
"Your punishment is forgiveness. I know that having others forgive you sometimes makes it harder to forgive yourself."
46] Lust:
Loki was inwardly disgusted every time he saw Thor and Jane together, but it was only a matter of time before a woman on Midgard caught his attentions and he ended up just like Thor.
47] Spring:
Loki hated to admit it, but the other Avengers eventually found out he had terrible allergies.
48] Summer:
Loki watched passively as his teammates played in the pool outside Stark's mansion. He preferred just to stay in the cool house, perfectly dry.
49] Autumn:
Somehow autumn reminded him of Thor. Odd really, it seemed like summer would.
50] Winter:
As they walked through the snowy streets of New York, Thor was dressed in layered clothes and a thick jacket, while Loki had merely dawned a sweater and a scarf.
"You know, I am rather envious of the fact that cold doesn't bother you." Thor admitted.
Loki simply gave a lopsided smile.