I Belong In Your Arms
** Two Shot I came up with after watching 'So You Think Can Dance?'
Rated T: For suggested sex and because I keep crying when I read this! (I'm lame I know)
***Challenge: Read this and listen to 'My Heart Will Go On', no prize but tell me your reaction.
Six Years Ago
Saix set the last of his things in the large duffle bag, he heard someone knock on the side of his door frame. Saix shut his eyes, he gripped onto the scarf he held in his hands "Yes." He whispered in a shaky voice. He heard a sad sigh then a pair of arms wrapped around his waist. He sniffed "Xemnas, please don't make this any harder." He whispered. He felt a head set against his shoulder
"I'm trying not to." He whispered. Xemnas felt Saix gently slip out of his grip, Saix looked at him with huge tears threatening to fall from his eyes
"You aren't doing a very good job." He whispered sniffing away a few tears. Xemnas stroked Saix's head softly
"I'm sorry." He watched his lover toss the scarf into the bag "Why are you packing that?" he asked. Saix sniffed
"Because I want something to remind me of you." He admitted sniffing again. Xemnas watched Saix slip on his army boots.
Six years, six years of Saix going on tour with the military and he wouldn't see him until his tour was up. Xemnas set his back against the wall putting a hand to his face
"Saix…why did you sign up for this?" he asked sniffing away tears. Saix sat on his bed not having the will to stand up
"For any reason a man would sign up for the army. To help their country." He told Xemnas putting his face in his hands. Xemnas sat next to Saix putting a hand around the man
"It will be okay." He whispered "Everything is going to be okay.". Xemnas sniffed watching Saix be on the verge of tears
"Why is this so hard? We knew this day was coming ever since we moved into the same place. We knew this day was coming when we said I do or when we adopted Sai." Saix sniffed. Like she had heard her name Sai in the other room whined, Xemnas sighed
"I'll get her." He muttered rising to stand. Saix got up faster
"Let me. This might be the last time I get to hold her for a while." He sniffed. Xemnas nodded, walking with the male into the baby room Sai whined again. Saix reached down and scooped up the little less than four months old baby girl, Xemnas watched as Saix sat down in the rocking chair next to the crib with the little girl in his arms.
Saix rocked that little girl for a long time, the door bell rung. Xemnas sighed and walked down stairs with Saix's bag in hand. Throwing the bag next to the other bags on the couch he opened the door, Marluxia stood there. There were no hellos or greetings, just a simple nod "He's with Sai?" Marluxia asked. Xemnas nodded leaning against the door frame
"It hurts." Xemnas whispered. Marluxia set a hand on Xemnas's shoulder
"I know." He muttered. Xemnas nodded putting a hand to his face, with a heavy sniff he walked up stairs with Marluxia. Saix looked up from the little girl who was sound asleep; he simply rose handing the little girl over to Marluxia. Marluxia didn't wish them a happy trip or even a safe one, he simply watch the two load their stuff into the car and drive off. Marluxia looked at the little girl in his arms "You're going to be cuddled a lot by Xemnas soon I guess. You're going to be the last thing he has to remember his Saix by." Marluxia whispered.
Xemnas drove up to the hotel, parking the car he looked at Saix. The male had been quiet for a long time, reaching over he gently squeezed Saix's hand. Saix breathed out heavily
"It hurts." He muttered, Xemnas sighed
"I know. I will mail you lots of photos I promise you. Let's just enjoy tonight okay?" Saix nodded slightly.
Walking into the hotel room used for honey moons Saix set his bags on the bed. Saix gently wrapped his arms around Xemnas
"I love you." Saix whispered. Xemnas smiled
"I love you too." He told the male. Saix rested his head against Xemnas's shoulder, Xemnas snuggled Saix close to him "You're beautiful just like the first time we stood in this room." He whispered into Saix's ear. Saix smiled
"Which time? Very first or almost two years ago?" he asked. The moment had been so special to Saix, Xemnas laughed a little
"Either time." He rubbed the back of Saix's head softly. Saix purred against the feeling of Xemnas's hand rubbing his head, he still laughed about how they met. A school field trip in middle school the two met for the first time. Both became inseparable and once in high school the two began to go out. On their wedding two year ago the two had come to this very hotel and spent a lovely honeymoon here.
Saix smiled before letting go of the man, this night was not for tears. It was a night that he wanted to hold close to him, Xemnas brushed some of Saix's hair out of his face with a warm smile on his face. Within a few moments the two were kissing entangling fingers into each other's hair, clothes dropping to the ground as Saix was laid against the bed. Yes tonight was for them to remember what it was like when they both knew that they would be spilt apart but to them that was a distant thing in their future…
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Xemnas laid on the bed with Saix curled up next to him, the alarm was set. Holding back tears he moved so he could look at the male. Sniffing a little Xemnas wrapped his arms around the male listening to his breathing. Saix's eyes fluttered open slightly
"Hm…Xemnas?" he called sleepily. Xemnas rubbed Saix's back lightly
"Go back to sleep sweetie. I just wanted to hold you tonight." He muttered. Saix smiled and snuggled into the arms of Xemnas, Xemnas sniffed Saix's hair to hide the sniffles he had. Both didn't want the other to see the silent tears they were crying.
It was four am when the alarm went off, Xemnas groaned wanting the alarm to never ring. Saix sniffed, he was regretting this decision. Xemnas was the first to move, after climbing out of bed he glanced at Saix. Saix sniffed heavily "Saix…please…" he whispered. Saix finally burst out into tears, Xemnas reached over slipping his hand into Saix's "It's okay. Everything is going to be okay." He whispered. Saix wailed into the pillow
"Xemnas…I don't want to do this any more." He whimpered. Xemnas ran his fingers through Saix's long blue hair
"What happened to the man that when we first met said that he always wanted to be in the army and fight for what was right?" Xemnas asked
"He didn't realize that the man who told him that he was going to be a famous novelist was going to the man he would say I do with." He sniffed out. Xemnas sighed
"Saix you can't let them down." Xemnas whispered. Saix sniffed holding onto Xemnas's hand tightly
"I'm scared."
"I know. I am too." Xemnas muttered letting a few tears fall.
As Xemnas and Saix arrived at the docks Xemnas helped the young man bring his bags to the check in point. Saix nodded walking up to the man checking in the men and women headed out on this boat "Name?" the man asked. Saix swallowed nervously
"Saix Makkah Sir name Lewis current Darkness." He told the man. The man nodded
"Proceed." He told the man. Xemnas and Saix walked to the edge of the loading area, Saix wrapped his arms around Xemnas tightly.
"I'm going to miss you." He whispered, Xemnas gave the man a squeeze
"Me too." Pulling away Xemnas leaned in a kissed Saix's lips making sure to get one last good taste of Saix's mouth. Once they departed Saix looked at Xemnas
"A hundred and six." He told the man trying to hide the tears. Xemnas blinked
"What?"
"I'm in the hundred and sixth battalion. Remember that." He whispered. With a nod an intercom system turned on Last call for check in. Please board the ship. It cackled. Saix sniffed letting tears drip from his eyes "I need to go." He muttered slowly letting go of the man. Xemnas sniffed as tears dripped from both of his eyes, watching the man walked onto the ship Xemnas managed to sniff away a couple of tears. At the last moment when the ship began to pull away Saix ran up to the deck waving to Xemnas "Good bye." He whispered. Xemnas waved back
"Good bye…Saix." The boat blew it's horn and pulled away. Once the boat had disappeared into the horizon Xemnas fell to his knees sobbing.
Barely managing to get home he paid Marluxia for his job and sniffed away a few tears away. Marluxia watched the man sniff away tears
"He'll be back." Marluxia muttered walking off. Xemnas walked up to the room where Sai laid sound asleep in her crib, carefully picking her up Xemnas sat down in the rocking chair just rocking back and forth. Sniffing away tears Xemnas looked at the little girl, her smile looked a little like Saix's. Sniffing again Xemnas carefully gave that child a hug
"I miss you Saix." He whispered before bawling into the child's shoulder softly.
End of Part 1