Warnings/notes: boy/boy love(like most of my stories are), Quatre's POV, past 3x4, 1x2 suggested 2x4.
Disclaimer: no matter how much I pray, I do not own gundam wing.
December Eyes
I always wished I'd never let you go. I knew I was alone now, and nothing I could do would probably change that. You have a new life; you don't need the past any more. You don't love me any more.
I still remember watching you leave my house for the last time. The snow as lightly falling, and it would gently speckle your auburn brown hair. You turned to look at me. Our eyes no longer shared the sparkle that usually glittered when we saw each other. Instead your eyes were as cold as the December snow that fell around you. Your cold green eyes tore me apart even more, I wanted them to become what they used to be, but you turned back round and continued to walk away from my house. But your eyes are as cold as December ice.
I still remember the sound of your feet on the frost-covered floor; I hear that sound more and more. Each time I pray that it's you come to see me again. Then you could take me in your arms like you always did, and place a kiss at the nape of my neck. I'd look into your eyes and see true happiness once again.
It's been five years since that harsh December day, at the Christmas party that was always held at my mansion. Heero, Duo, Wufei, and you would come seven days before Christmas and you'd all stay in the mansion. No matter where any of us were we'd always made sure we could make that week free. Once Christmas Eve came we would throw a huge party. You always helped me get things sorted, whilst I got ready to prepare the turkey or goose for the day after. However that year I would be eating Christmas dinner without you. You turned round to me and told me you were going home.
I haven't heard from Duo since it happened. I don't particularly want to hear from him. I regret loosing him as a friend, but I regret loosing you even more. Duo never meant to do the things he did. We never ment to do the things we did. He was going so well with Heero, he didn't want to do the things he did. I could start ranting about how I never had feelings for him but I wont, I promised never to lie to you or any of my friends. It's true I had some feelings for Duo, he had always been such a close friend, but never would we willingly sleep with each other if we were in the right frame of mind. Even you said your self that we had both had too much to drink.
Please Trowa, you have to understand. Nothing could overtake how much I love you. Even after all this time you still mean the world to me, nothing will change that. If it makes you happy to know, I have never stopped thinking about you, and the way we used to be. If it weren't for you, many things would have turned out differently, especially during the war. If you hadn't of taken that shot for Heero, I would have killed him, and destroyed half the colonies in the system, before anyone could calm me down.
Anyway, enough of my petty pleading, I doubt you will come but please, please, please consider coming to my mansion again for the Christmas week. No one comes except for Wufei and then anyone he can drag along from the preventers, for Christmas Eve. I do like Noin and Sally, it's great to see them, but nothings compares to you guys. Even if it's just as friends, come along for christmas. I'm going to ask Heero and Duo too, since it wouldn't feel right. We have all been though so much together during the war and after it, that it doesn't seem right that one mistake can ruin the perfect friendship the five of us had.
Please consider.
Quatre R. Winner.