A/N; This story's a bit depressing for me (and incredibly short), but it was something I just had to get out of my system. It was originally written with Seth and Summer in mind, but Ryan and Marissa work too. Enjoy! Happy Belated Valentines Day!
Love. Hate. HeartBreak
"All I wanted to say
All I wanted to do
Is fall apart now
All I wanted to feel
I wanted to love
Its all my fault now
A Tragedy I fear"
- Mercy, OneRepublic
Karma's a bitch. Yet, I still knew I had this coming; and I deserved it. I was naïve, stubborn and selfish. And now there he is with her.
I was so sure he still loved me.
I was so sure I didn't love him.
I was wrong.
He was charming, he was sweet, and he was sensitive, he was caring. And for a while I enjoyed it, I felt loved, and I like I belonged. And then I got restless and pushed him away. I never did like to be tied down for too long.
So I broke up with him, it wasn't right to let him love someone who didn't love him back. Or maybe I just wasn't ready for a serious relationship, or maybe it was all the butterflies in my stomach when he was around. I didn't like to feel intimidated, nervous.
He asked me if I wanted to get back together, he said if we really tried we could work out our problems, he told me he wouldn't have bothered if he didn't love me. It broke my heart to tell him no.
And now, two months later, after the unbearable struggle of trying to be friends again, I was so sure he still loved me.
It was my curfew and I told him I had to go, he grabbed my hand and said, if I left, he'd miss me. So I stayed for five more minutes. Ten more minutes. Half an hour. An hour.
I was so sure, and so wrong.
The next day, he told me he'd asked out someone. And he was happy. I was his for the taking, his to catch. Instead, I fell to the floor and shattered into a million pieces.
Now I loved him.
And now he didn't love me. Not one bit.
Now, it was forced conversations, forced smiles and holding back tears. And the saddest part was, I deserved this. Deserved it all; the pain, the tears, the broken heart.
And to be alone, on Valentine's Day.