I wrote this a while ago, like when I was watching the re-run episodes over and over again of Angel. I criedlike the third time I saw A Hole in the World, something I didn't quite understand... but anyway, I heard Won't Go Home Without You and this just popped up, I guess. Like I said, it was a while ago. So for my birthday I decided to do myself a favor and stop looking at this story in a folder and think 'Oh crap, I never posted that!' It's a songfic and I'm going to assume that my research and stuff is correct cause at the time I wrote this I recorded Smile Time and A Hole in the World. Here you go!
Wesley sat in his chair staring into space. She was gone. He told her he wouldn't let her die, but she did.
I asked her to stay
But she wouldn't listen
He knew it wasn't right, but he couldn't help it. He was mad at her. She left him alone and she hated him for it.
She left before I had the chance to say
Things had only just begun between them, and they ended even quicker.
The words that would mend
The things that were broken
"Would you have loved me?"
"I've loved you since I've known you. I think maybe even before."
But now it's far too late she's gone away
He could've done something. He could've saved her. He could've been there for her the one time she really needed him to be. She'd always been there for him.
Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking why does this happen to me
Why does every moment have to be so hard?
"I am not the damsel in distress. I am not some case. I have to work this. I've lived in a cave for five years in a world where they killed my kind like cattle. I am not going to be cut down by some monster flu. I am better than that. I am better than that. What a wonder… how very scared I am."
Hard to believe that
"This is a house of death."
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
He could still hear her voice sometimes. Feel her kisses all the time.
The taste of her breath
I'll never get over
God, he missed her.
The noises that she made kept me awake
Fred…
The weight of things
That remained unspoken
"It didn't occur to you that something might have changed. That I'm looking at you.. In a different- oh screw it…"
Built up so much it crushed us every day
Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking why does this happen to me
Why does every moment have to be so hard
Fred knew that she was fading, but he wouldn't allow himself to think that. But cavemen win. Of course cavemen win.
Hard to believe that
It's not over tonight
Just memories now.
Just give me one more chance to make it right
Bookman…
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
So many memories. It felt like more now than ever.
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
But the only ones that would replay were the most recent ones… Why?
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
"He's with me!"
Of all the things I've felt but never really shown
"That was a signal. Ok? Is that clear enough?"
"Not even close."
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go…
"Don't leave me now. We've become so close."
"I would never leave you."
"You won't leave me."
"I won't."
"My boys… I walk with heroes. Think about that."
"You are one."
"A superhero, and this is my power. To not let them take me. Not me."
"That's right."
"That's right."
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
"I need you to talk to my parents. They have to know I wasn't scared. That it was quick. Th-that I wasn't scared. Oh, God."
"You have to fight. You don't have to talk, just concentrate on fighting. Just hold on."
It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
"I'm not scared."
I won't go home without you
"I'm not scared."
I won't go home without you
"I'm not scared."
I won't go home without you
"Please… Wesley… why can't I stay?"
When I re-read this, I felt so bad at the end. In the show I was sad for Wes and Fred to, but I have to admit, I did like Ilyria, she was pretty cool...