Pretty Bodies
You knew from the start that she didn't feel the same way. You knew she was trying to make House jealous, trying to get him interested. And you constantly asked yourself, why. Why are you letting her do this to you? Why are you not stopping this? Why have you let yourself fall for her? Why are you the one that's going to be hurt by this?
You weren't always in love with her. She used to be another pretty face. A good doctor, maybe someone you might go out with a couple times; nothing serious. But as you grew to knew her (and your jealousy of House grew, as well) you realized that maybe you weren't looking at her the right way.
To her, it's all about having a warm body there at night. But for you…for you, it's about having a warm body during the daylight, too.
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You should feel guilty for doing this to him, but you don't. Not at all. People always assume you're the nice one, the moral doctor, but you're just as bad as the rest of them when it comes down to it. You know he's head-over-heels in love with you. You also know that he knows why you're doing this. Sometimes you wonder why you even started it. Why would you put him, you, everyone through this? Why would you throw yourself in a situation where there's no way for someone not to get hurt? Why do you continue?
Sometimes, you wish you did fall for him; the handsome, friendly, smart doctor. No one would be surprised. After all, aren't pretty people supposed to live the perfect life with other pretty people? Why would someone who looks like you, fall in love with someone who looks like him? Who acts like him? Him?
For the other man; the one you're sleeping with, using, it's all about not being lonely at night. But with him…him, it's about having someone you can grow un-pretty with.
Just a drabble inspired by tonight's episode. Never written any House fic, so feedback would be greaty appreciated. Trying to get back into the fanfic swing of things. Thanks. :)