Sometimes I wish we could just stay like this. Just lay here, untouched by the outside world. For awhile, it was like that. The days just seemed to blur together back then. But... Subaru is always there for me. Even when I wasn't there for him. The love that mother gave to us equally... let Subaru have it. It's supposed to be his. My twin has always been sickly, even from birth. He's always had to struggle. Even though he was always faster than me at developing, he couldn't do certain things. He couldn't play sports, he couldn't breathe well... it's more than likely my fault. I stole something from my other self... when we were in mother's womb. Let Subaru have all the love. Let him have all the graditude. Because I stole it from him.
"Kamui-sama, what are you thinking about?" Subaru asked. My eyes flicked over to him as he laid still. I could feel his breathing. That's good.
"You, of course. You should know that you're the only thing on my mind that matters." I said. Subaru giggled with delight and kissed me on the forehead. I wished he didn't have to suffer. "Are you feeling okay?" I asked, caressing his hair gently. He smiled.
"You don't have to ask me that. You know that I've out grown my illness. You worry too much, Kamui-sama." he said, placing his hand on my cheek. I smiled a bit and nodded.
"Sorry... I just don't want to lose you." I said. He sighed and told me not to worry. I've done evry thing for Subaru. I've given up all my opportunities that he couldn't have... and even more. I should be the sickly one. I should be the weaker one. Subaru should be the one to protect. If that was the case, than we could be home right now, and not running from that man. I'll always protect him. He's me... and different kind of me. He's my reflection... except we have slight differences. Like an allteredf mirror. He's the distorted one, and I'm... the healthy one. I shouldn't be. I should be the one suffering. It's my fault that Subaru's sick anyway. Maybe... it's better this way. That way, he won't have to fight, and get weak. I always get hurt when I fight. At least Subaru doesn't have to suffer that.