Hmss Well I'm Bored And Yeah . . . So Thought I Would Do A One Shot (; Hope It's Ok (:
I'm Sorry
What am I actually doing in this life? Why was I even born? I'm their 2nd child, the mistake. That's what they tell me anyway. They always ask whatever happened to me. What went wrong? They're always put me down, whatever I done, I done wrong. In their eyes I'm a failure. But what have I done? I ask them this, but no one reply's, no one ever reply's. Compared to my brother, I'm nothing. It's funny how people always say I'm talented. But not them, they think I'm worthless, a waste of time, useless. It's all because of my brother that I'm a 'failure', he's 'gifted'. He advanced much quicker than anyone in his year. It's not surprising they turn a blind eye to me; they have a 'golden boy' to look at.
How I envy my brother. I want to be my brother. They look up to him, love him, praise him, and care for him. He's just to perfect, how can he be that perfect, then there's me, whose imperfect, compared to him. Why can't they all see that I am great, I am brilliant, but in my own little way.
I don't think I can give a damn about my family anymore. Itachi Uchiha is not 'perfect' he's just a fast learner. No one can be 'perfect'. I've now wasted my life so far, on trying to be him. I don't want that. I need to escape. They will still hate me, like they always have, and I wish, they didn't. I wish they would look up to me, and respect me, just like they do to my older brother.
Mum, Dad. You never understood how much I got hurt when you said I'm a mistake, I should of never of been born, a useless child. You never understood who I am, I am not my brother, and I will never be my brother. I am my own person, why could you not see that? Do you know how much I cried at night, you never tucked me in, you never said 'sweet dreams', you never said you loved me. I am your son. You can't deny that. You've created a black hole in my heart, which will never heal. I've always wished that one day you would tell me you loved me, that you cared for me, and that I'm perfect.
That day will never come.
I'm sorry that I was born. I'm sorry I'm useless, worthless and imperfect. I'm sorry I even tried to be like my brother. I'm sorry I was the son you didn't want, a failure. I'm sorry I never ended up like my brother. I'm sorry I tried to get your attention, but only wasted it with my imperfection. I'm sorry you could never love me. I'm sorry I'm not a 'golden boy'. I'm sorry you never cared for me.
I'm sorry Itachi is not 'perfect'. I'm sorry that you're heartless bastards. I'm sorry you're ungrateful of me. I'm sorry your shit parents.
I'm sorry that you're missing me. I'm sorry that you lost a son. I'm sorry that you're sad. I'm sorry that you've only just realised I was perfect in my own way.
I'm sorry that you're sorry.
Sorry It's A Bit Bad, But Ah Wells, I Sort Of Rushed The End Bit As Had Homework To Do Anyways Please Review (:
Anyone Who Didn't Know, This Was Sasuke's Mind Thing (;