a/n: i found this plot bunny on a forum and decided to take it up. Enjoy!
Remus screamed as he threw a pillow towards Sirius' head. The feather pillow bounced off of Sirius' head and fell to the floor with a "thwap". Sirius didn't retaliate, he didn't do anything in his defense. He just stood there, not understanding what he did wrong and letting the werewolf get his anger out.
"Go. Away. Sirius. Just leave me alone." Remus growled out as he undone his tie and unbuttoning his shirt.
Sirius sighed as he watched Remus slip into a t-shirt and slip out of his pants, leaving the young man in boxers. The dark haired boy sat down on his own bed, which was next to Remus', and waited in silence.
"Sirius, please?" Remus said, tears started to well up in his champagne eyes.
"Remus, what did I do?" Sirius demanded, his voice almost cracking in the middle of his sentence. "I didn't tell anyone anything at all. I kept my big gob shut this time! I was just out with Joseph and I didn't tell him about your 'furry little problem'! I've not told anyone since Snivellus! And you've forgiven me for that! So tell me what the bloody hell I did to piss you off so badly!"
Remus snapped his head in Sirius' direction, his chestnut hair swishing and smacking him in the face. His champagne eyes narrowed, the coal lashes coming together.
"Do you want to know why I hate you? Why sometimes I can't even stand to be in the same room with you?" Remus asked, the tears now falling down his cheeks.
Sirius lowered his head, the light of the moon seeping in through the window and creating a light halo on his dark hair. He felt his stomach clench up and he felt as if he couldn't breathe. Slowly he nodded his head, tears in his eyes and his heart panging from the harsh words Remus just uttered.
"Why?" Black asked, his voice no higher than a whisper.
Remus sighed heavily as he sat down facing Sirius. He picked up another pillow and fiddled with the corner of it before taking a deep breath.
"I hate you because I love you and you don't even know my name."
More tears had spilled over and onto Remus' cheeks. The werewolf had his head down, looking at the floor and his eyes were closed.
"Remi, I know your name," Sirius started quiet and serious. "As a matter of fact I just used it."
Remus clenched his eyes tightly as if Sirius had just smacked him across the face.
"That's not what I mean Sirius."
"Well then, what do you mean?"
"I hate you because I love you Padfoot and you don't even realize it! I can't stand being in the same room as you and ohh what is his name? Joseph is it? Because each and every time you kiss him it's like a slap in the face. Bloody hell! I don't even like being in the same room as you without Joseph because then I can't bloody well concentrate. I'm always watching the way you stick your tongue out just a bit when you're writing something down. I'm paying attention to the way your long fingers move across the Potion's table when your trying to grab something that is just out of reach."
Sirius just gaped at Remus. Remus risked a glance at Sirius and mistook the look.
"And that is precisely why I hate you. So if it's alright with you, I'm going to bed. Just leave me alone Sirius."
And with that Remus snapped his bed curtains shut, blocking Sirius' view.
The dog Animagus sat there in silence for a moment, listening to Remus breathing rhythmically. Remus obviously thought he was gone, for he had started crying louder than he had been before. Sirius stood up and started for the door. His feet were so heavy, he felt as if he were a turtle stampeding through peanut butter. As he opened the door, Sirius heard Remus sob out.
"I could never really hate you Siri. Never. I love you too much."
Sirius sighed as the invisible hand throttling his stomach finally let go.
'And I really do know your name, Remus. I know it all too well. And I hate pretending that I don't,' Sirius thought to himself as he shut the dormitory door and made his way down to the Common Room.
FIN