"I know you don't have any reason to listen to me." said Lucas
"you're right I don't." said Brooke while closing the door.
"Brooke. I'm not asking for forgiveness. I just want you know how sorry I am for what I did." Said Lucas stopping her
"How sorry you are? Do you know that the entire time that we were dating I actually felt inferior to you? What a joke. You are like other guy on the planet. You're a liar and a cheater." Brooke said.
"you're right. I lied to you. And there's no excuse for that." Lucas said
"Whatever. Why don't you tell it to the girl you hooked up with last night. As far as excuses, you don't owe me any. I'm not your girlfriend. And from here on out, I'm not even you friend." Brooke said before slamming the door in his face.
With that Lucas just walked away. Seeing the hurt in Brooke eyes killed him. He couldn't believe he made someone beautiful and full of life as Brooke so sad. He walked the whole way home thinking about Brooke and the all the time they spent together.
When Lucas got home he had a visitor in his room waiting for him.
"hey, what are you doing here." Said Lucas when he walked in.
"I just came to see how you are. You don't look so good." Peyton said
"Had a long day. Just glad it's over." he said sitting on his bed
"whats wrong, did something happened?" she said sitting next to him.
" Brooke won't talk to me." He said pretty much pouting
"yeah she won't talk to me either. Look I know Brooke she'll get over this, and find some new guy to win over. that's just the way she is." She said
"peyton, I broke her heart. You didn't see her tonight. She was just so hurt and disgusted with me. I couldn't even look her in the eye." He said
"Look, we made a choice and now we have to live with it. Just think now we can just concentrate on us." She said scooting closer to Lucas trying to kiss him.
"Look Peyton, I
don't think that this is a good idea right now. I need to figure
some stuff out first. I just need some time." He said when he moved
away from her and stood up.
"Yeah, I completely understand. Just
let me know when your ready. We waited this long right. A little
while longer won't hurt." She said.
"thanks, I'll see you at school." He said
" Yeah, bye" She said then left.
Lucas then turned off the light and went to bed. He really didn't know why he turned down Peyton. It was just he still felt that he was still cheating on Brooke. and it just felt wrong. For some reason he just couldn't stop thinking about Brooke. He couldn't believe that he couldn't hold her, kiss her, make love to her or just be with her anymore. He could finally be with Peyton but something was stopping him. He just couldn't figure out what. He turned over and looked at the clock and realized he has been thinking about Brooke for 2 hours. He finally fell asleep dreaming about the one thing that mattered…… Brooke.
The next day at school, Lucas stared at Brooke every time she was around him. Whenever Peyton would try and talk to him he would completely zone her out and just watch Brooke. Wondering what she was thinking, wondering if she missed him at all. He thought to himself how beautiful she is. He couldn't believe he had her and that she wanted to be him. He was nobody. Why did she want him? She went out of her to show him she wanted to be with him and was so forward about it, when Peyton just sent him mix signals, was so hot and cold with him, and pretty much just played him. He never took the time to really appreciate Brooke and all she had to offer. This really made him feel like a jackass.
"you should go talk to her." Haley said sitting down next to Lucas breaking out of his Brooke trance.
"oh hey Hales. She doesn't want to talk." He said
"Luke you've be moping around school and staring at Brooke pretty much every chance you get. It's obvious that you miss her." she said
"I don't just miss her, I miss everything about her. Her laugh, the way she bites her lip when she's nervous, the crazy things she makes me do when she's bored, how pouts to get her way, how she can't keep still for like two minutes, how she calls me Boyfriend, the little noise she makes when I'm kissing her, how she strokes my cheek when she has something serious to say, and when she holds my hand she rubs the back of it with her thumb. I miss all that Hales." He said with a smile while looking at Brooke.
"then why don't you tell her that?" She said
"Cause she hates me. I broke her heart. I made the choice to cheat on her and now I have to live with it." He said
"Well to me, it looks like you made the wrong choice." She said then got up and left.
For the rest of the day, all Lucas could think about was Haley's words-"Well it to me, it looks like you made the wrong choice." Maybe she was right. Maybe he did make the wrong choice. Maybe Brooke was the one he wanted all along. It would explain why he thought about her all the time and why he wasn't with Peyton. He needed to talk to Brooke and maybe if he talked to her, he'd figure out what he wanted.
"Brooke!" he yelled as he saw her walking down the hall after school.
"Seriously this day was actually good and you just had to ruin it by speaking." She said not even turning around.
" Brooke I just need to talk to you." He said
"And I just need you to go to hell, but we always don't get what we want." She said very sarcastically
"I'm sorry, I just need to talk to you about something." He said pleading with her
"What, trouble with Peyton already, need some advice? Well here's some, when you cheat on her, try not to do it in front of any web cams she can see." She said then walked away
When she walked away , all he could think about was how badly he wanted to kiss her because she was just so sexy when she's mad. There was so much heat and passion. There was no denying it. He didn't feel that with Peyton at all. It was clear to him then,……… he wanted Brooke. there was no denying it. Now he just needed to find away to make her see that.
After practice, he decided to go to her house and talk to her there. At least she couldn't walk away from him there. He didn't bother ringing the door bell, he just walked right in. He went to her room and she was in a robe and bent over drying her hair with a towel.
"You know there's so many things I could do to you in that position." He said leaning against the doorframe admiring the view.
"Jeez Lucas you scared the crap out of me." She said holding her chest
"sorry, just admiring the view." He said with a smirk
"Funny…. What the hell are you doing here away." She said
"well I needed to talk and since you won't give me the time of day at school and figure I would try you here." He said while going to sit on her bed.
" Well I didn't want to talk to you then, and I really don't want to talk to now. So why don't you go away." She said
"Brooke let me just say what I have to say and then I'll go ok." He said
"Fine but make it quick. I have better things to do." She said standing in front of him with her arms crossed.
"Brooke you have no idea how sorry I am. This whole thing with Peyton was a huge mistake. I was so stupid. And it was all my fault you got hurt just because I couldn't figure out what I wanted. I should've sorted out my feelings for Peyton before I started anything with you. I'm so sorry for that." He said
"So basically nothing should have happened with us. Got it. Thank you Lucas for clearing that up." She said
"No Brooke that's not what I meant. I meant that I should have realized what I know now, is that I want to be with you and only you. That I can't go another day without you in my arms." He said
"Are you kidding me with this. What Peyton won't give it up so you thought you came back to the slut." She said starting to raise her voice
"God, no Brooke. Have you even seen me with Peyton. No …. You want to know why ……….cause I can't stop thinking about you. I can't stop thinking about how much I miss you, and your laugh, and your beautiful eyes that I just get lost in whenever I look in them, and how much my lips burn after you kiss me, and how nothing in the world matters whenever I'm holding you." He yelled at her
"Why am I supposed to believe this? You left me remember." She said
"come on Brooke, you can't fight this thing between us. You know it's still there. You feel it right now don't you?" he said standing up in front he taking her hands in his.
"it doesn't matter what I feel. You still cheated on me." She said
"I know and I sorry. Just let me prove to you that I mean every word I've said. That you are the one I want. The only girl I need." he said starting to whisper and lightly stroking her face. Then leaned in and kissed her. she started to pull away but he just pulled her closer and deepened the kiss. Then she pulled away again.
"No Lucas stop. We can't." she said
"Why not? You know you want to." He said and kissed her again. then she pulled away again
" Luke it's wrong." She said
"Brooke, tell me you don't want this. Tell me you don't miss this." He said
"I ..I .. Look I just can't ok." She said and pulled away and sat on her bed. And then Lucas sat next to her.
"Brooke you can't ignore how good this feels. It's always going to be there." he said while leaning in and started to kiss her neck.
Brooke couldn't resist any longer. She climbed on top of him and started to kiss him hard. Lucas kissed back even harder. Then he untied her robe and pulled it off her and was left her lacey panties. and she yanked off his shirt. Carefully cause of his shoulder. He rolled them on the bed so he was on top of her. While kissing her, he caressed her breast. He could feel her hand down his pants and stroking his penis which was growing harder by the second. Then she pulled down his pants which left him in his boxers. He kissed her again then reached over to her bed stand where he kept his condoms and got one. Took off his boxers and put it on. Then slid Brooke's panties off. Then he kissed every inch of her body till he made it up to her lips. Then he entered her slowly and began a rhythm with her. he savored every moment with her. their lips never parted. After what seemed hours of pleasure he felt his orgasmic release and so did she, quite a few times before as well. Afterwards they were just lying there in silence. Wondering what the other was thinking. Then she had to break the silence.
"I hope to don't think that this changes anything." she said
"still mad? He asked
"Yep" she said
"Well are we any closer to forgiving me?" he asked
"Nope" she said
"Come one not even a little, mean after that….. you got to admit that was good." He said with a smirk
"Fine maybe a little bit. But still have along way." She said and snuggle closer to him
"whatever it takes" he said then kiss the side of her head and closed his eyes