A/N : Not mine. Code Geass, I mean.
She didn't know that
....................her smile makes my day.
....................I gamble not only to ease the pain in my heart but also to her hear scolding me.
....................every tear that drops from her lovely eyes is a dagger that pierces my very soul.
....................the embrace and the kiss that we shared one rainy day is one of my happiest and saddest memories.
....................as I stood amongst the people in her father's funeral I wished that I could undo everything.
....................when she raised the gun that she was holding to me I felt a momentary feeling of absolution to the tears and the pain that I have caused her.
....................after that momentary feeling of absolution I felt pain and fear for her, for how can she live with the memory of me dying because of her?
.....................as I held her, telling her (no I was asking her!) to forget me I was pushing her away not because I don't love her (for I love her make no mistake about that) but because that is the only right thing that I can do.
.....................I have missed the warm smiles that she gave me and the sweet voice that calls me Lulu.
.....................she was the only reason why I went back to the Academy.
.....................as I kneel there watching her die all I could ever think is that she didn't know how much I love her.
.....................her death was the reason why everything happened.
Yes, she didn't know all of these things. And that is my punishment.