Wonders

Summary- Ayaka ponders her decision to let Eiri go, while flipping through a magazine..

Jade- How I came up with this.. I don't think I'll ever know.

Eiri- Oh this should be a great way to waste time.. (note the heavy sarcasm there) And I don't even have my brat to entertain me..

Jade- Hey! Why are you the muse? I should sit around and watch.. you are the novelist after all, not me!

Eiri- So? I'm a romance novelist, this story is not a romance, nor is it going to become a novel. So deal with it.

Jade- Anyway.. No, I don't not own Gravitation or any of it's characters. Wouldn't it be cool, though, if they owned me?

XOXOX

I picked up a magazine off the shelf. Yuki and Shindou, front page. They were on the front page of every magazine here. It's times like these that really make me wonder.

Did I make the right decision, letting Yuki go? Or is his reputation suffering because he loves this boy? I'm not a weak girl, I could have made Yuki mine. In fact, I still could.

But while flipping through the magazine, the pictures that caught my eye.. A private day, just the two of them, had been caught by a sneaky reporter. I was not so blind in my love for him that I could not see. His eyes held a sort of tenderness, an affection. I had never received such a look from him, only Shindou would.

It's not that I was against their relationship exactly, it was more like I was jealous of Shindou. I loved Yuki with all my heart and not a hint of affection was returned, I was lucky if I could get him to look my way once.

I sighed and dropped the magazine back into it's place on the shelf, but as soon as I did it was snatched up by a young teenage girl with wavy dark brown hair and bright green eyes. The girl cuddled the paper to her, mumbling something to the affect of 'Mine, so cute, sweet' and other unrecognizable words, some even in clean English.

I watched in stunned silence as the girl flipped through the pages hurriedly, seeming to cling to every word written and staring at the pictures for a good minute or two each. It was a though she was recording every word and memorizing each detail..

After another moment she took notice of me and grinned sheepishly, mumbling an apology as she clutched the magazine to her chest as though I would steal it away.

Maybe if there were more crazy girls like that, Yuki's reputation would soar rather than fall. Besides, would I have been able to handle the fame? Could I have handled keeping a clam, cool nature around the press? Or would I have flipped out, lost my temper and suffered my own decline of diginty?

And how would I have pulled it off anyway? I like to feel special, I demand more attention than Yuki would be willing to give me. Plus, we are more alike than I had realized at first.. Opposites attract for a reason, one takes control, the other submits. Yuki and I are both stubborn, it would be a constant power struggle..

Perhaps I'm getting too deep into things. I barely know Shindou, I can't exactly go comparing myself to him. Yuki decided he'd rather share his love with Shindou than me. I guess I should be happy for him. It wouldn't have been fair to keep him with me for my own happiness.

I have Hiro now, he's such a sweet guy. And so different from me, Hiro and I are opposites, no power struggle. I state my demand and he delivers, simple as that. And he would give me all the attention I craved.

Hiro isn't Yuki. But he could help to fill the whole in my heart. That's a start, maybe one day, Hiro could replace Yuki.

The way I see it, I proved my love for Yuki by letting him go. I chose his happiness over mine. What better gift could I have given him?

XOXOX

Jade- -is frustrated with the shortness of it- It's too short! Make it longer!

Eiri- Leave it alone, if you attempt to make it longer you'll ruin the mood.

Jade- But... Fine. You know best. Readers! Please review! And yes, the crazy girl was kinda based off of me..