Colorblind
(This takes place towards the beginning of season seven. After Buffy got Spike out of the basement.)
I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready, I am ready, I am
She felt guilty. Not just for leaving him in the basement alone, but for not returning his love. She hated herself for all of that, but she hated herself even more for treating him like a toy. For using him whenever she needed pleasure. Now she looked upon him, crouched in the corner by her dresser. Whispering to the imaginary voices, telling them that they're all lies. She just wanted to hold him in her arms and tell him that she loved him. 'Love' she asked herself, 'I'm not ready for love'. She felt ashamed, embarrassed for how she had treated him.
Taffy stuck and tongue tied
Stutter shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready, I am ready, I am ready, I am fine
"Spike"
"Just asking for what she needs, the real one wants him. Just a toy..."
"Spike…. I – I…."
I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in
Pull me out from inside
"Spike. Please let me talk to you. Can you please listen to me?"
"The real one wants to talk, it isn't her, it can't be the real one."
Buffy stepped toward Spike, and then kneeled down to him.
I am folding, and unfolding, and unfolding,
She reached out and held his cheek with her hand. He leaned into her hand. And she spoke:
"I am colorblind"
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready, I am ready, I am ready, I am fine
"Spike, I… I love you" She whispered. He pulled himself into her arms, and hugged her. She hugged him back, "I'm the real one"
I am fine
I am fine