It was a slow day at the lab and everyone was going through files that were brought over. I was in my office doing paper work when Greg runs into my office. "Grissom... Sara is in the break room won't let anyone neat her, she..." Before he could say anymore I was heading to the break room.
I got there to see Sara in tears crowding away from Nick. He kneels in front of her, his hands up as he tells her, "Sar, it's just me, Nick."
I see her curl her knees up tighter to her chest.. "Don't touch me, please." My heart breaks at the sound of her voice. I quickly walk over to where Nick is and put a hand on his shoulder. He turns and looks at me before rising.
"I don't know what happened, we got a box of cases we were to go through and she just put herself in the corner and curled up. She won't let anyone near her." He explains looking concerned for the brunette still crying.
"How long has she been like this?" I ask him as I kneel where he just was.
"A few..." He stops as we hear Sara's broken voice.
"Gil?" She asks so quit and broken.
"Yes, I'm here honey." I tell her. Before anything else could be said she launches herself into my arms and starts to sob. "Shhh... You're okay Sara. Everything is alright. It's over, he can't hurt you anymore okay. He's gone." She tightened her fists on my shirt and moved so I was now sitting and holding her in my lap on the break room floor. "I'm here." I hold her tight and let her cry.
"L...love...you." She gets out through sobs.
"I love you too." I tell her and kiss her head. "Breathe Sara, just breathe with me. We have to get your breathing under control its not good for you or bug. Can you do that for me?" I ask her not worried about all the eyes now looking at us through the glass walls. She nods. "Okay in... And out." I repeat till her breathing slows. I rock her for awhile till I notice she's asleep. I take a deep breath to calm myself and turn to where Nick was last. "Nick?" I ask finding him behind me.
"Yeah Griss?" He says. "Need help moving her?"
"No, I got her." I tell him getting up and carfuly taking Sara and placing her on the couch. "Could you go get doc for me?" I ask him placing a blanket over Sara. I sit next to her and place her head in my lap as I brush my fingers through her hair. "And bring me the file."
He walks to the table as her dials docs number on his phone. "Hey doc... No, could you come to the lab... Sara, Grissom is asking for you to check her out... Okay see you in a few." He hangs up and brings the file over.
"Thank you." I take the file and open it. I close it just as fast. I lean my head back against the couch and run a hand through my hair.
"What is it?" Nick asks.
I take a deep breath and let it out. "About a year ago Sara calls me crying in a panic. I couldn't understand anything she was saying. I got in my car and drove over to her place. He beat her up pretty good, tried to rape her, was really close, but her neighbors banged on the door and she was able to get away. My Sara, never wanted to see her like that ever again. He was arrested and died in prison not to long ago. She hasn't been sleeping very well and she's been stressing because we've been talking about telling all you guys about us and what's been going on for the last year and a half. She must have had a panic attack seeing this and just..." I let my hand run through her hair again before placing it on her stomach. A small bump can now be seen as my hand ran over here shirt. "I just want to make sure they are both okay and that I don't need to take her to the hospital." I tell him. I look up at him for the first time. "I'm sorry Nick, I shouldn't have just blurted that all out to you."
"Don't worry, Griss. We're all here for you all three of you." He says placing a hand on my shoulder.
"What happened?" Came Al's voice as he enters the break room.
"Sara had a panic attack, she's almost 5 month pregnant can you check her and the baby over and see if I need to take her to the hospital? I ask him.
He looks a bit shocked but nods, "Yes of course, Gil."
"Sar..." I says "Come on honey, let Al check you and the baby and than we can go home." I say as I get her to open her eyes.
"I'm sorry, I don't know..." I cut her off.
"Don't need to be sorry. Never have to be sorry, okay. Just want to make sure you and bug are okay."
"I just read it and it was like I was there again." She says sitting up in my lap still holding onto my shirt. "I'll talk to my therapist. I haven't reacted like that in a long time. Maybe bug is affecting me more than I thought." She says. I feel better, thank you for letting me cry it out."
"Always, love." She kisses me and we pull away after I hear Al clear his throat. "Yes, please make sure she's okay please."
Al looks her over and as he's putting materials away he gives his report. "You are healthy as can be Sara, a little elevated heart rate and blood pressure but that could be from the panic attack. I want to check it again when you come in tomorrow, if you don't please call I'll stop by. I want to make sure it goes back to normal." He says and turns to leave. "Congratulations." He says smiling and walks out.
"Nick go ahead and get the team, we have a lot to tell you guys." I tell him as he walks out the door.
The team sits around the room and I still can't bring myself to let go of Gil's shirt. He is my rock and if I am going to have to get this all off of my chest tonight I am going to need him. "Why don't we go one question at a time. Catherine, I know you must be dying so go ahead one question." I tell her.
"When?" She simply asks.
I take a breath and go to answer but Gil starts before I get my bearings. "Just over 2 years." He tells her.
"You're pregnant?" Greg asks.
"I am, and we are both fine." I smile at him.
"You''re happy?" He asks.
"I'll let you have 2 since you're my favorite." Hey's from Warwick and Nick can be heard. I just laugh. "I've never been this happy." I tell him turning to smile at Gil. "Love you." I kiss him and realize what I just did and pulled away. "Sorry." I tell him.
"Don't be love. I love you too." He kisses my forehead and puts a little more pressure on the hand that is still laying over my stomach were bug is.
"What was in the file." Warwick asks.
I can feel my body tighten and feel Gil wrap his arms around me bringing me closer to him. I burry my face in his chest and I can feel by breathing pick up a little.
"Sara, breathe. Honey, everything is okay." He brings my face level with his and strokes my check as he exaggerates his breaths for me to follow. I take a few deep breaths and I calm down.
"I didn't mean to start it again." Warwick says as he backs away a little.
"Gil and I went out that night. He dropped me off and I was getting ready to go to sleep. I heard a knock at the door and thought Gil came back. I opened it and he started yelling at me about something and ripped my shirt. He hit me and just kept yelling but I couldn't make out what he was saying. I don't know how long he was in my apartment but I must have screamed or he was yelling to loud and my neighbors heard and knocked on the door. I was able to get away and out the door. I called Gil and he must have called Brass and than the rest was just a blur." I never looked up at their faces not wanting the pity or concern.
"He was arrested and died in prison not that long ago." Gil explained.
"It hasn't affected me in along time. I don't know if just seeing and reading it brought it all back or if my hormones from bug are just enhancing all my emotions." I tell them.
"We never intended to keep everything from you guys but we just didn't want anything to happen to the team. We've been talking with the sherif and have worked out some resolutions. We planned on inviting everyone over for breakfast today to tell you about everything. I even got my new name tag for my vest and ID." I said.
"Name tag, why would you need a new name tag?" Catherine asked, "No, you 2 went and got married and none of us were invited or knew about it?" Her voice raised a bit.
"We were married right before we found out about bug." I tell them rubbing my hand over my bump.
"Then we found out Sara was pregnant and found a solution to our work problem. We decided to keep everything quiet until after I resigned." I told them
"Resigned?" Greg about yelled.
I smiled and nodded. "I don't want to have to leave my baby to come and see all this death. I have been feeling worn down and in need of a break and I talked to Gil about all of this before bug, but it just solidified it. I can stay home with bug and just enjoy being a mom and a wife." I smile at them sadly. "I will miss all of you so much, I cannot tell you how much each of you mean to me. You guys have become the family I never had and I am not leaving Vegas just the lab and I promise to visit all the time. Besides, bug has to know how awesome his aunt and uncles are."
"Sara." Catherine says softly. "We are so honored. Why do I feel there is more?" She asks.
"There is," Gil starts. "We have been talking and like Sara I am just not as happy as I use to be here. You all are our family and none of this changes that. I have taken a position at NLVU as a professor full time. I will consult with the crime lab when needed but the hours and the times are just better for this next part of our lives. I'll be home more and I'll be there for Sara and Bug. I'll be able to be a father and not have to try and find time for the 2 most important people in my life." He finishes with a kiss to my forehead.
"We will miss you both so much, but we understand. Just know we'll be having a lot of BBQ's and diner meet ups if I'm going to be a good uncle." Nick says smiling at them.