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The Pain of Being Alone
Chapter One- Caring and Caves
It was early December and all at Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry was silent, which was quite unusual for a Friday afternoon. But seeing as there were no students in the vast castle. It was understood. The only sound that could be heard was yelling coming from the Headmasters office as Professor Snape of Potions, the most hated and feared Professor in the school yelled. "How many times do I have to tell you Remus, Voldemort won't tell anyone where that blasted door leads! For all we know it could go a thousand places. You have one Albus that does that." Severus pointed to Headmaster Dumbledore.
"Calm down Severus no one is blaming you." Dumbledore said.
"I'll blame him." Sirius said under his breath. Severus glared at Sirius.
"Enough. How long have they been missing now? Eight months?" Dumbledore asked the rest of the Order. They all nodded.
"Listen all I'm saying is that Voldemort won't tell me where they at. I mean he already questions my loyalty as it is." Snape said in a calmer voice as he once again took his seat.
"And with damn good reason too." Moody growled. "I mean don't get me wrong boy, I'm glad your on our side but face it your still a traitor." He sneered.
"Oh god, we've gone through that like a million times Alastor. Just shut up would you?" Arabella snapped. Moody and Arabella started yelling at each other while everyone else rolled their eyes.
"ENOUGH!" Dumbledore yelled. Silence fell to the point where you'd be able to hear a pin drop. "We are here to discuss the rescue mission for two of my students, would you stop acting so childish." Dumbledore said as he retook his seat, seeing as he jumped up in rage at his fellow Order members. The silence remained as everyone sat waiting for someone to ask what they were all thinking. 'Where are they?' Finally it was Mrs. Weasley that spoke.
"Severus, when exactly was the last time you saw them?" She asked, as a tear rolled down her cheek.
"Well let's see…" He looked rather pensive as he thought about the last time he was forced to torture Harry. "Last time I was called was Halloween correct?" Severus looked to Dumbledore who nodded. "That is the last time I saw Harry. Of course this doesn't mean that Voldemort hasn't held other meetings without me. I wouldn't be surprised if there was one right now. And it was the meeting before that, that I last saw Miss Weasley. I know Draco's initiation was mid-November. He had to torture Harry to get in. I'm not sure if he saw Miss Weasley though." Severus added as he looked at the ceiling as if it held the answer. Severus whipped his head down and looked intently at Dumbledore. "Oh, you're going to kill me." Severus' eyes were bugging. "See I just remembered, on Halloween, Harry was, well he was wearing a blue time turner. It's quite possible that Voldemort is using it on Harry. Making him think he's been there for years, not months." Severus hung his head. "How could I of forgotten about that?"
Dumbledore scowled "Severus that was the first time you saw him in moths, you were forced to torture him, if I was in that situation I would have forgotten too. Not to mention the fact that you had no idea where Miss Weasley was, what is important is that we know now…… Voldemort could be using it not only to make Harry believe he's been there for years but also for sleep deprivation and it can also be used to break someone." Albus pondered aloud. "Tell me Severus, who exactly knows where they are?"
"Well Voldemort naturally, possible Lucius, the Lestrange's and Rookwood, the only thing I can think of to do, is to capture one of them. I mean I know that none of them will come to the Light Side willingly. Hell Rookwood was a spy for Voldemort from the Light Side." Severus sighed. "I don't like this. I don't like it at all. He's kept me away too long. Why wasn't I asked to go to the initiation? Everyone goes, not me. He knows. That's got to be it. He must know that I'm a spy, Harry must have said something while being… no I can't think of that, anything but that." He sighed again. Everyone around him turned and stared at him with their mouths hanging open.
"Don't tell me Severus, that you're starting to care?" McGonagall smiled as she raised an eyebrow.
"Of course I care. It's my entire fault after all. If I had only gone to Sirius and warned him earlier than I had. This wouldn't have happened….I can't believe I didn't know about the plans to take Miss Weasley either. Dimmit…. " Severus trailed off. Molly Weasley stood up and walked over to Severus and did the one thing no one dared do in twenty years. She hugged him.
"This is not your fault. Blame yourself again and I'll hex you from here to Timbuktu." Everyone laughed including Severus.
"I'd like to see you try." He said sarcastically. Everyone laughed again. "But really we need to find them." He got serious again as he started to pace. Little did they know that not far from where they were; Ginny Weasley stumbled out of the cave that was just past the village of Hogsmeade and collapsed.