Dark Angel
Chapter 1
chaos

Z: I have adopted this story from Tylida Doradelo. I'm just going to finish it okay

Melancholy. That was the only word anyone could use to describe him. He was melancholy in the way that he seemed lost. When he moved, it was if he were missing a part of himself. When he spoke, it seemed empty. When he smiled there was a twinge of sadness behind it, as if something deep inside him was reminding him of an unpleasant past. He was pensive in a way that was beautiful. The dreamy look in his translucent eyes never left. It shone like a light, a small piece of hope to his melancholy smile. He was pensive in a way that was mysterious. He left you with a deep longing to know what was happening behind his smile, behind his eyes. He was gentle in the way he was kind. He would entrap you with his melancholy smile, his pensive gaze and then he would speak to you in his kind, gentle voice and then he would leave you dazed and in wonder at the mystery of chaos.

And if you weren't careful, if you weren't able to resist his voice, his beauty you would never guess that there was a piece of him was lost.

"chaos." Jr. said carefully.

"I'm ok Jr." chaos said, smiling at the 30-year-old boy.

Jr. shook his head. "No really, chaos..."

chaos stood, brushing his silver locks out of his face.

"Why are you always so worried about me Jr.?"

Jr. shook his head.

"Honestly, I'm not sure."

They smiled at each other.

"Well, maybe if you weren't so slow, then I wouldn't be worried about you so much."

"Is that the only thing you could come up with?"

"Pretty much, yeah."

They laughed.

"When do you plan on telling MOMO that you've found Lost Jerusalem?"

Jr. blushed and shook his head.

"Whenever I feel like it."

"What are you afraid of? It's only been four years. The whole planet's been recreated, you know the way back, Shion's already found a new way to send them notification and none of that has scared you but one little transmission to a certain realian is too much for the great Jr."

They walked the streets in silence for a little while before Jr asked

"What if she's forgotten about me?"

"She hasn't."

"How do you know?"

"I just do."

"You can't just know something like that."

"Yes I can."

"No you can't."

"Have you forgotten who I am?"

"No, but Yeshua or not you'll always be chaos to me."

"That doesn't make any sense."

Jr. thought about that for a moment.

"Look, just because you're some high and mighty angel doesn't mean you know everything, you're still the same chaos I've always known and you still can't read people's minds."

"How do you know?"

"I just do!"

"Look, neither of us are really making much sense right now."

"What makes you think we will later?"

"I never said we would. I just meant that we're talking in circles."

"I think we're talking in squares."

"Really, Jr.?"

"Yes, really."

"Explain."

"Ok, well look we get to this point."

He raised a finger and looked up at his friend to make sure he was watching.

"Then we move to this point."

Jr. moved his invisible line to a parallel mark a few inches away from the original.

"Then we move to another one and then to this one and then back up to this one."

"Jr., you just made a circle."

"No chaos, I made a square."

"No, you tried to make a square."

"No, I made a square! Look!"

He repeated his movements.

"That's a square."

"That's a circle."

"You know what? How about we just call it a circular square and get it over with?"

chaos smiled at the boy.

"Ok."

They walked in silence along the tall buildings and the busy streets. Hover cars flew past them, streaks of light and noise. chaos couldn't believe the rate at which the human population had grown again. It was almost as if they had been so excited to escape eternal recurrence that some of them had just willed themselves back into existence. When he had awakened he had been surprised to find himself in the same coffin he had placed Mary. The top was already pushed aside as if someone had been looking at him. He recalled how stiff he felt, how bright the light had been even in the dark, ruined tomb and how the last thing he'd really actually remembered was talking to a broken KOS-MOS.

"chaos?"

And then the relief he had felt when he'd realized that he was in the same form he had been the last time he'd been alive. He was sure Mary would love him no matter what his form was but he was glad he didn't come back as a shriveled up old man.

"chaos?"

Because you never know with these things. He was absolutley sure that he'd still love her regardless.

"Helloo? chaos?"

Then his heartbreak when he couldn't find her. She was supposed to have been on Lost Jerusalem with him, but he couldn't find her. She wasn't there. She wasn't there when he awakened. She wasn't there when the Elsa arrived. She wasn't there.

"chaos?"

And she never showed up. He couldn't even feel her presence.

"chaos, are you ok?"

That's the thing that disturbed him the most. When he awoke he could feel Gaignun's presence, Canaan's too and was able to pull them out of the alternate dimension they'd been in. The only time he couldn't feel them was when they were actually dead. He couldn't bring back Jin, he couldn't bring back Margulis or Virgil or Mary...

He shook his head violently. She wasn't dead. He wouldn't think like that. She couldn't die. She just couldn't.

"chaos!"

"Hm?" chaos' head snapped up.

Jr. gave him a worried look.

"Seriously man, are you ok?"

"I'm ok." he gave Jr. a sad smile.

I'm ok.

They walked the streets of the dark building until they got to the large government building that held the dock where the Elsa sat peacefully while the new Durandal was being built. All of these building had been built in the time span of three years. It was almost unbelieveable, but it didn't surprise chaos. Modern technology was amazing.

It seemed weird to him not to know anything. Everything seemed spontaneous and random because he was so used to knowing everything. He had had all of his conversations memorized, and he knew right down to the date and time everything was going to happen. He could count down three...two...one and be exactly right on the dot. It was sort of scary sometimes. Especially since he didn't know where Mary was.

They walked through the gates of the building and made their way to the elevator.

"Rubedo."

Jr. sighed and chaos stopped.

"Canaan, how many times do I have to tell you? It's Gaignun Jr. now."

Canaan waved his hand as if to dismiss whatever Jr. had just said.

"Look at this guy, chaos. He thinks he's better than us." Jr. huffed, folding his arms arcoss his chest and glaring angrily at the orange-haired realian.

"Hello, Canaan." chaos said, waving at him.

Canaan nodded to chaos and pressed a button on the elevator.

"Gaignun's been waiting for you to get back."

Jr. smirked and pushed past Canaan.

"The man can't work without me."

I work just fine without you, thank you very much.

Hey what happened to the whole "We're not going to talk like this anymore?"

I decided against it.

chaos watched the expression on Jr.'s face twitch and a small smile come over his lips.

"Talking to Gaignun?" he asked.

"No." Jr. said then looked at his friends.

"Yeah, ok I am so what?"

"I don't see why you have to lie to us all the time, Rubedo. We already know." Canaan said, his pruple eyes on the elevator buttons.

"How do you know?" he shot back.

chaos smiled, "We just know."

Circular squares over and done with, Jr. and Canaan left down one hallway to find Gaignun. chaos shook his head as he took the opposite hallway to the dock that held the Elsa. He could still hear Jr.'s loud, annoyed voice all the way down this hallway. If anyone kept his spirits up, it was Jr. He walked slowly, lost in his thoughts. He hated it when he was alone like this. When someone was around, it was a lot easier to avoid the worried thoughts that flooded his mind, his heart.

"I love you Yeshua."

He shook his head.

Stop, he begged.

His brow furrowed and tears threatened to spill out of his eyes.

Stop.

Her voice, her smell, her face would just appear as if out of nowhere and tear open old wounds. He felt as if he were bleeding internally, his heart spilling it's precious liquid and threatening to drown the rest of his body.

Please, stop.

"chaos! Buddy!"

chaos looked up to see Tony. Tony waved at him excitedly, Hammer running behind him to keep up.

"Geez Tony, it's not like we're going anywhere or anything."

Tony ignored him and placed a hand on chaos' right shoulder. He tilted his head to one side and his expression changed from excited to worried.

"Hey chaos, you don't look so good."

chaos gave a fake smile. He was seriously going to have to learn to control his brooding.

"I'm fine, Tony. What are you so excited about."

Hammer straightened up from his bent over position as he caught his breath. He cleared his throat, straightened his glasses and said

"Tony's excited because the Captian gave us the day off."

chaos looked at them with disbelief.

"Really?"

Tony nodded crazily and chaos was sure that he was going to lose his head.

"Come on man, you've got to come with us. It's gonna be great!"

"I don't know..." chaos said.

He was always reluctant to go partying with Tony. It was bad enough that drunk women flocked over to him constantly, but Tony kept bringing them trying to "deflower" chaos. He hadn't heard the story about Mary yet. Hammer was fun to watch though. He didn't know how to dance. chaos usually only went if Canaan agreed to go. He kept Tony off of him.

"Please chaos, I don't want to be stuck with this horny bastard all by myself tonight and hey, who knows? You just might find the girl of your dreams tonight."

chaos' smile was especially depressing.

"Yeah, ok. I'll go."