TIMELINE: The Zeppo
Gotta resist the urge to crack a joke. She looks like she's gonna cry. That's such a girl thing. All girls, always cry. 'Cept Faith, of course. And look what a mess she's got me into.
I pop my fingers to relieve the tension and Willow looks up. I immediately stop. I know it annoys her. Well, dammit, I'm a man. It's my duty to stand up for myself. I start popping them again.... then I stop. I feel too bad about upsetting her. Even though it's not my fault she's so sensitive.
Is it my fault that she's a virgin and I'm not? Is it my fault Faith wanted me? Admittedly only as her boy toy. Is it my fault Will had some crazy idea that our first time would be a milestone we would pass... together? 'Cause I never thought of it that way. I never thought it would be something we would do together. Okay, there was that whole time a while back when we were crazy for each other. Sure, bring that up now. But when the lust's gone, y'know, she's Willow. The sister I never had. She and Buffy are probably the only two women in the world I would never... well, maybe not Buffy, but definitely Willow. I would never, ever, *ever* do that with her. Ew. Don't even wanna think about it.
"Buffy should be here soon," I offer in the vainest hope of a response. She nods, still staring at her hands. What's she thinking? That I'm soiled goods? That I've let her down? "Will. Talk to me."
She shakes her head, suddenly getting up. "I can't."
"I haven't done anything wrong."
Don't look at me like that. I haven't done anything wrong. I haven't. I'm being punished because I didn't want to be 'pure' until Will was ready to relieve me? I won't say that to her but it's what it feels like. "Willow - please -"
"Do you think she loves you?" she says simply, standing by the door. Well, no, but there are other reasons for sex. I'm not looking for love. But lust is pretty cool.
I shrug. "Who doesn't love the Xand-man?"
She shakes her head and leaves.
I guess Willow doesn't love me very much right now.
Gotta resist the urge to crack a joke. She looks like she's gonna cry. That's such a girl thing. All girls, always cry. 'Cept Faith, of course. And look what a mess she's got me into.
I pop my fingers to relieve the tension and Willow looks up. I immediately stop. I know it annoys her. Well, dammit, I'm a man. It's my duty to stand up for myself. I start popping them again.... then I stop. I feel too bad about upsetting her. Even though it's not my fault she's so sensitive.
Is it my fault that she's a virgin and I'm not? Is it my fault Faith wanted me? Admittedly only as her boy toy. Is it my fault Will had some crazy idea that our first time would be a milestone we would pass... together? 'Cause I never thought of it that way. I never thought it would be something we would do together. Okay, there was that whole time a while back when we were crazy for each other. Sure, bring that up now. But when the lust's gone, y'know, she's Willow. The sister I never had. She and Buffy are probably the only two women in the world I would never... well, maybe not Buffy, but definitely Willow. I would never, ever, *ever* do that with her. Ew. Don't even wanna think about it.
"Buffy should be here soon," I offer in the vainest hope of a response. She nods, still staring at her hands. What's she thinking? That I'm soiled goods? That I've let her down? "Will. Talk to me."
She shakes her head, suddenly getting up. "I can't."
"I haven't done anything wrong."
Don't look at me like that. I haven't done anything wrong. I haven't. I'm being punished because I didn't want to be 'pure' until Will was ready to relieve me? I won't say that to her but it's what it feels like. "Willow - please -"
"Do you think she loves you?" she says simply, standing by the door. Well, no, but there are other reasons for sex. I'm not looking for love. But lust is pretty cool.
I shrug. "Who doesn't love the Xand-man?"
She shakes her head and leaves.
I guess Willow doesn't love me very much right now.