Through the Ice...
Chapter 1: Feelings on a Beach
Small visions running through my head as I can only remember so much. It's been 2 months now, and this memory haunts me more and more with each passing day. I don't know why I'm here...it brings too many memories back...I sit here in watch of the moon and the stars that light up the beach, as the cool wind barely blows the chunked hair out of my face. I love this place...and yet I hate it. I close my eyes and listen to the world around me and try not to think. Thinking makes you feel awkward and uncomfortable...I was never found of it myself... Why do I think so much?
"Squall?" I can hear a voice ringing. "Hey Squall...you ok?" The voice and the sound of footsteps knock me out of my deep train of thoughts. I look solemnly toward the walking figure as it puts its warm hands on my bare shoulder.
"Why are you out here again? Every time I see you, you're here." I tune them out. I barely could hear anything. Why am I here again? Why do I come almost everyday at this very time? I could never answer that, nonetheless tell someone else why. I look at the worried face of my dear friend and give a light smile. She smiles back. She was wearing her usual outfit, the soft orange color touching her pale skin, and her medium cut dress with her knee-high boots on. I smile once again happy to see her; she's really the only person that has stuck with me through all this. Everyone else just kind of stopped caring. Interesting when things happen that are serious, and then and only then you find these people they call 'True Friends.' Rinoa left me, and though it was kind of sad, I still think back and see that it actually doesn't hurt me. Cruel? Maybe, but she was trying to make me into something that was too fast and well, that's that. Zell, he went off training, he spent most of his time either in the training center or with his new girlfriend. The young girl from the library that he had flirted with at some point. Irvine went back to Tribia were we had first met him before the sorceress war began. Matron started running the orphanage again, taking care of children and now has a father figure as well. Cid filled that spot without question. Last I heard they got married and had a child of their own. Selphie.she goes wherever Irvine goes, she went with him to Tribia, and I assume that they are together and well. Oh.. And there was Seifer of course..
"Squall...would you stop thinking for once and just relax?" Quistis said in a soft tone as she laid each of her hands on my bare cold shoulders. I snapped out of my trance yet again. She may know me too well..but she isn't like the others. She actually keeps her word and helped me throughout the worst times...especially for these last couple of months. I looked at her, placing those ever so 'imitating eyes'..she is unaffected. She stares back into my cloudy orbs with such passion. It was obvious that she had felt something for me ever since we were kids. I would admit to myself that I had felt such sensations within myself as well. Ever since my sis had left me, she was my sister figure..though maybe always a bit more.
"Cut that out.." She giggled and slightly hit me upside the head. I look at her and in the first time, for a while, I laughed. She smiled contently knowing that I was finally lightning up. "So you never answered me..why are you here again?" She asked still looking in my blue-grey eyes. I lightly shrugged. There wasn't an answer. I sit here and think why I'm here, but to none of my success I fail and come here..to think..maybe I do that too much. I look at my former instructor; her blonde hair was down for a change. Her semi-wavy blonde hair caressing her light face, making her ice blue eyes stand out more. The rest of her hair was pulled gently back by her sunglasses.
"That's a new look." I said almost inaudible. She smiled. "Oh? I figured it was different..like it." I nod my head and close my eyes. She was truly a friend. She, these days, was the only person whom could lift my spirit, and maybe I owe the world to her..and so much more.
I once again concentrate on the ocean, as the waves slowly roll to shore. I could see her warm and enduring smile in the corner of my eyes. She was truly beautiful. I liked her..no. I loved her. But I was afraid that it'd be awkward. I mean a student with his instructor. But maybe that's what she wanted to. Maybe that's what I wanted. I wanted to be held within warm and heavy arms, knowing that they wouldn't let go, holding you forever and ever. Having that 'there's nothing that can stop us' feeling as both of you intertwine your lips and feel a dark passion deep within your body. I sigh and I see her start to walk closer to the shore. I get up slowly finally lifting my light weight body to a standing position then slowly approach her. She sighs and closes her eyes. Our silence was finally broken.
"Squall...do you remember.that day..2 months ago?" She said quietly not moving. I stayed silent. Of course I remember..that's the day I shall never forget. I can't..that's when my life was shattered in pieces.I don't think that I have ever felt so horrible in my life. I look down and away from her, ashamed that it had never came up.
"Why won't you tell me? What's to hide..Seifer's gone...you're safe now.." She turned around and to my surprise her hands rise to touch my pale face. She laid her hands softly on either cheek, I couldn't help but to smile. "Squall...I have to say something...please listen.." She was quiet as she had slumped her head down. I lifted her chin lightly with my finger making her eyes face mine. "I am...I always have.." She smiled and with that moment she kissed me. At first the shock came over my body, me wanting to shove her away with her sudden fast movement. But then something happened. A warm feeling deepening as her lips locked on mine with a kiss that must have lasted forever. The sudden feeling of passion as I found myself giving up and kissing her back, each of my hands on her waist pulling her closer..deepening our passion.
Then it stopped. The cold had returned and I opened my eyes. She had pulled away. I look down at her and her head is rested quietly on my shoulder. Yet, I couldn't help but smile. She had a way with doing that to me. But that passion..that loving feeling..did it make things worse? I felt a sudden rush to my head as a vivid flashback makes me winch in pain and I held my head dropping to the floor..
"I love you" A brunette said from across the room to a blonde tall man. He flinched as I said those words that I have meant ever so much. He came home..more drunk than I have ever seen him. He was stressed half of the time, me being commander and him running from Garden to Garden and not being able to hold me like he used to. Last I knew I was on the floor looking up at him. I have never been so scared in my life. His eyes weren't filled with passion..then a loud smack had filled the room..then the lights went black.
I frantically sit up and realize I wasn't were I was before..I slightly touch my forehead. Cold sweat. 'damn him' I thought as I looked around the room. It was my dorm, I was sitting on my bed..but what happened? Where was Quistis?
Sorry for those who read my last version. I understand now that there were some mistakes and the site didn't download my whole story so there were some parts left out. I hope I have fixed them and I soon hope to continue by putting up a new 2nd chapter so it you have read please re-read because there are some changes and thank you! Please review!
Small visions running through my head as I can only remember so much. It's been 2 months now, and this memory haunts me more and more with each passing day. I don't know why I'm here...it brings too many memories back...I sit here in watch of the moon and the stars that light up the beach, as the cool wind barely blows the chunked hair out of my face. I love this place...and yet I hate it. I close my eyes and listen to the world around me and try not to think. Thinking makes you feel awkward and uncomfortable...I was never found of it myself... Why do I think so much?
"Squall?" I can hear a voice ringing. "Hey Squall...you ok?" The voice and the sound of footsteps knock me out of my deep train of thoughts. I look solemnly toward the walking figure as it puts its warm hands on my bare shoulder.
"Why are you out here again? Every time I see you, you're here." I tune them out. I barely could hear anything. Why am I here again? Why do I come almost everyday at this very time? I could never answer that, nonetheless tell someone else why. I look at the worried face of my dear friend and give a light smile. She smiles back. She was wearing her usual outfit, the soft orange color touching her pale skin, and her medium cut dress with her knee-high boots on. I smile once again happy to see her; she's really the only person that has stuck with me through all this. Everyone else just kind of stopped caring. Interesting when things happen that are serious, and then and only then you find these people they call 'True Friends.' Rinoa left me, and though it was kind of sad, I still think back and see that it actually doesn't hurt me. Cruel? Maybe, but she was trying to make me into something that was too fast and well, that's that. Zell, he went off training, he spent most of his time either in the training center or with his new girlfriend. The young girl from the library that he had flirted with at some point. Irvine went back to Tribia were we had first met him before the sorceress war began. Matron started running the orphanage again, taking care of children and now has a father figure as well. Cid filled that spot without question. Last I heard they got married and had a child of their own. Selphie.she goes wherever Irvine goes, she went with him to Tribia, and I assume that they are together and well. Oh.. And there was Seifer of course..
"Squall...would you stop thinking for once and just relax?" Quistis said in a soft tone as she laid each of her hands on my bare cold shoulders. I snapped out of my trance yet again. She may know me too well..but she isn't like the others. She actually keeps her word and helped me throughout the worst times...especially for these last couple of months. I looked at her, placing those ever so 'imitating eyes'..she is unaffected. She stares back into my cloudy orbs with such passion. It was obvious that she had felt something for me ever since we were kids. I would admit to myself that I had felt such sensations within myself as well. Ever since my sis had left me, she was my sister figure..though maybe always a bit more.
"Cut that out.." She giggled and slightly hit me upside the head. I look at her and in the first time, for a while, I laughed. She smiled contently knowing that I was finally lightning up. "So you never answered me..why are you here again?" She asked still looking in my blue-grey eyes. I lightly shrugged. There wasn't an answer. I sit here and think why I'm here, but to none of my success I fail and come here..to think..maybe I do that too much. I look at my former instructor; her blonde hair was down for a change. Her semi-wavy blonde hair caressing her light face, making her ice blue eyes stand out more. The rest of her hair was pulled gently back by her sunglasses.
"That's a new look." I said almost inaudible. She smiled. "Oh? I figured it was different..like it." I nod my head and close my eyes. She was truly a friend. She, these days, was the only person whom could lift my spirit, and maybe I owe the world to her..and so much more.
I once again concentrate on the ocean, as the waves slowly roll to shore. I could see her warm and enduring smile in the corner of my eyes. She was truly beautiful. I liked her..no. I loved her. But I was afraid that it'd be awkward. I mean a student with his instructor. But maybe that's what she wanted to. Maybe that's what I wanted. I wanted to be held within warm and heavy arms, knowing that they wouldn't let go, holding you forever and ever. Having that 'there's nothing that can stop us' feeling as both of you intertwine your lips and feel a dark passion deep within your body. I sigh and I see her start to walk closer to the shore. I get up slowly finally lifting my light weight body to a standing position then slowly approach her. She sighs and closes her eyes. Our silence was finally broken.
"Squall...do you remember.that day..2 months ago?" She said quietly not moving. I stayed silent. Of course I remember..that's the day I shall never forget. I can't..that's when my life was shattered in pieces.I don't think that I have ever felt so horrible in my life. I look down and away from her, ashamed that it had never came up.
"Why won't you tell me? What's to hide..Seifer's gone...you're safe now.." She turned around and to my surprise her hands rise to touch my pale face. She laid her hands softly on either cheek, I couldn't help but to smile. "Squall...I have to say something...please listen.." She was quiet as she had slumped her head down. I lifted her chin lightly with my finger making her eyes face mine. "I am...I always have.." She smiled and with that moment she kissed me. At first the shock came over my body, me wanting to shove her away with her sudden fast movement. But then something happened. A warm feeling deepening as her lips locked on mine with a kiss that must have lasted forever. The sudden feeling of passion as I found myself giving up and kissing her back, each of my hands on her waist pulling her closer..deepening our passion.
Then it stopped. The cold had returned and I opened my eyes. She had pulled away. I look down at her and her head is rested quietly on my shoulder. Yet, I couldn't help but smile. She had a way with doing that to me. But that passion..that loving feeling..did it make things worse? I felt a sudden rush to my head as a vivid flashback makes me winch in pain and I held my head dropping to the floor..
"I love you" A brunette said from across the room to a blonde tall man. He flinched as I said those words that I have meant ever so much. He came home..more drunk than I have ever seen him. He was stressed half of the time, me being commander and him running from Garden to Garden and not being able to hold me like he used to. Last I knew I was on the floor looking up at him. I have never been so scared in my life. His eyes weren't filled with passion..then a loud smack had filled the room..then the lights went black.
I frantically sit up and realize I wasn't were I was before..I slightly touch my forehead. Cold sweat. 'damn him' I thought as I looked around the room. It was my dorm, I was sitting on my bed..but what happened? Where was Quistis?
Sorry for those who read my last version. I understand now that there were some mistakes and the site didn't download my whole story so there were some parts left out. I hope I have fixed them and I soon hope to continue by putting up a new 2nd chapter so it you have read please re-read because there are some changes and thank you! Please review!