It had been one year today since you lost control and came so close to killing your only love

It had been one year today since you lost control and came so close to killing your only love. That was it, the end of your never ending life, she was overcome with fear, the kind of fear that not even love could get rid of. If she had died it really couldn't have been any worse, but she didn't die, she ran off with the werewolf boy. There wasn't a day you didn't think of her, but today was the hardest, you wanted so much to cry, but you can't fight the tears that aren't coming. You just wished so much that you had her to hold again, you wanted someone to hol-

Just then your thoughts were interrupted by someone else's:

It wasn't you fault Edward, no one blames you.

You knew that voice, turning around you saw the tall empathetic blond standing in your doorway.

"Jasper?" You said.

"I can feel you from a mile away."

"Sorry, I just-"

"I know, but Edward, cant you see how happy she is now without the weight of the world on her shoulders?"

"I feel like that weight is on me now."

"So do I." He laughed a little.

You felt yourself get calmer, and you knew Jasper was doing it. Sometimes

You hated when he made things feel different then they should be, Bella was gone and fault was entirely yours! You weren't supposed to be happy!

Jasper had obviously stopped manipulating your emotions because now you were angry, you got up to leave. He tried stopping you, he may be fast but you were faster.

Edward!

You ignored his thoughts and kept walking.

"Edward!" He yelled out after you.

Now you were running, you knew he was at you heels but you just wanted to run, far, far away.

You were running the familiar path to your meadow.

The twigs snapped under your feet, coming to the clearing you could see the light breaking through the dense forest.

Almost there…you smirked.

Just as the sun hit your face, you felt a rock solid force pull you down.

You hit the soft grass with the full force of gravity.

"Stop running!" Jasper screamed.

You were absolutely seething; you rolled over and met the blonde's face.

His eyes were angry and hurt.

Please, just come home…

"Why should I?! There nothing left here for me!"

Where else is there?!

Jasper just stared in shock as he felt your guilt.

"You wouldn't…" He whispered miserably.

"The Volturi are the only ones who can help me and take away this pain!" You cried wretchedly.

"Let me help you."

"Wha-"

You were cut off by his ice cold lips pressing onto yours.

He was freezing cold, but at the same time he made you feel so warm.

The rain poured down, soaking you both.

Still kissing, you didn't pull away.

You melted into him as he wrapped his arms around you, and you ran your pale fingers through his golden hair.

What you were feeling wasn't what he was making you feel, this was really love.