There are so few KaiXMax stories that I figured I would write one. It's not going to be some long epic crazy thing I don't think but it's an addition to a rather uncommon pairing.

WARNING: Low key Yaoi later on, violence

Disclaimer: I don't own Beyblades or any characters, only the story idea

Thanks to LightlessFallenAngel, you totally inspired this!

I can't, I won't

I just wanted to watch him. Just one last time, then I'd stop forever. I knew it was wrong for me to have a crush on someone like him. On a him at all. Guys weren't suppose to like other guys, especially when one of those guys was the captain of the others team. Not when they were someone like him.

It was hard to get out of the Dojo without Tyson and the others asking a million questions. Lucky for me Kenny had an urge to have Tyson test out some new equipment so my whereabouts were quickly forgotten. So I raced down the street as fast as I could.

Since the next tornament was announced we'd all be training extra hard. Kai had been killing us with double practice in the morning. After wards he would always disappear, not that we could complain after such hard sesssions. I followed him once, he always went to the same stream out in the woods. No one else seemed to know the place even existed so it was perfect for him. And even more perfect for someone who wanted to watch without being seen. Far more than I should have I would end up watching him.

I hated him for all the emotions he caused me. He made me love him in way that shouldn't have touched someone like me. A one sided love. One that broke me down to tears. I told myself I cried for the last time, everyone was starting to notice a change in me. I wouldn't let them know my secret. I was going to deny it, erase it from my mind. Never again would I let myself follow him anywhere like this, never again would I watch him letting the rest of the world fade away. I just needed this one last time to say good bye to my fantasy.

By the time I got to my usual spot on a hill just by where he practiced it was almost dinner time. I knew something wasn't right the moment I got there. He wasn't training, he was just lying in the grass with his eyes closed. Something was terribly wrong. I was almost tempted to run down and ask him if he was okay. But I never did. I couldn't ask him, there was no way to explain why I was there. I didn't want him to have even the slightest hint that I was watching him. That I was wanting him.

I just sat down soaking in the view. It's all I could do. How badly I wanted to lie down beside him, he'd wrap his arms around me and I snuggle into his chest. How I longed for that cold stare of his to break, and one of those rare smiles come out just for me. Just once I wanted those lips on mine.

I sighed out loud, things I would never have. Things I wouldn't allow myself to think anymore. They were tearing me apart and they were hopeless. Not even Tyson, my best friend, could help me or understand this. No one would ever know. No. This would be locked up tight in a box never to come out and cause me agony again.

For the last time I laid down in the grass, my eyes still on him down by the stream below me. I'd let my thoughts wander, I'd let myself imagine what it would be like to lie down beside him one. What those strong arms would feel like wrapped around me, holding me close to him. Those lips that only spoke cruel words, how sweet they would taste on my lips. And before I realized it my vision blurred and warm tears lulled me to sleep.

When I woke up it wasn't peacefully. I heard screaming, and the unmistakeable sound of blades tearing into each other. I jumped to my feet scanning the area for Kai. My heart was pounding out of my chest. I couldn't even comprehend any of the scene, all I saw was Kai. There was one brief moment when he turned around, our eyes locked, and panic filled those crimson eyes as he mouthed my name. The world went black as quickly as I had woken up.

Odd chapter I know but all great stories have to start some where. And this sets the grounds for the rest of the thing, and seriously its taking a complete 180 turn from this whole chapter. Let me know what you think. I'll update in the next few days! Thanks for reading!