Okay so.
I've been having stress issues lately. I took two state tests and I had a bit of friend drama last week because I am a little shit. And writing helps me get my thoughts out, so I wrote this on "750words". Sponsor; go check it out :3
You know I own nothing here but the plot. Arthur and Alfred belong to Hidekaz Himaruya.
Just enjoy :)
Assuming that you will never read this- although when one
Loves another so obviously, oral stories are easily told,
For no one seems to Remember how to keep secrets nowadays- but
Even if you
Do find this, it won't matter; I am not planning to end my life, don't worry-
Just to inform a kind soul like yourself that you hold a precious, fragile item that should
Only ever be handled with care,
Nothing
Else, for if it is mistreated, then
Shatter
It sounds very strange to say, I know, and you not be used to seeing such content
Written to you
In such a way, but I found this as one of the only ways to express my
Love and affection to you. You are from Virginia, and I
London, and you sweat from exercise as I do the same from
Loitering in the library, but does that mean we have to live
Opposite lives? We are
Very different; it's quite obvious, and I'm sure
Everyone has seen it at one point or another- and
Yes, I'm aware
Of the differences that our sexual preference holds, and
Usually when we see each other, we don't love but we hate
And it drives me insane to know why we hate
So much because that's not how I truly feel and it hurts to say such cruel things, for my
Love for you is
One that is so strong and yet you don't see that. You turn blind, you look away,
Never has my adoration for you been noticed by anyone, not even those that I
Guarantee will never turn me
Away when I am in need, and yet I cannot help but find myself with doubts,
Some that wonder if you are
More than just the average high school jock who
Yearns to be great at whatever
He can accomplish, and people are shocked to see such things from the
Excited male that I see and
Adore and respect and love, for they are convinced that you are the average jock that
Roams the halls of our school,
That you are dim and
Boring and dull, that you lack intelligence and
Even though you prove them wrong, you have those
Average jocks, for
They are convinced that you are nothing but brains and
School, that you actually care about your grades but they don't see how it makes you
Feel, how the words "nerd" and "dweeb" and "geek" affect you and how they
Overcome you, a tidal wave of
Remorse that
I can't help but notice, for I have been in
That place before, many times, always, so much it came to the point of
Harming myself for being such
A freak of nature from them, from my eyebrows to my accent to my
Smarts to my love for you and it hurts like nothing else in the world, and their words
Overcome you so much that you agree with them and you know that they are right and
No one can deny that they are wrong for you have come to believe that you are
Like that person they hate, that
You ARE that person they hate and despise and
Everyone must think that, everyone must harm and
Vandalize your property, your soul,
Even when you feel so safe and secure they are there to wreck you and to
Resuscitate you when you
Breathe and think they're finally done when they never will be and it's just an
Endless cycle that continues on and on, but when I feel like this and I suffer from
Even the smallest of actions, I am revived by
Nothing but
You
You with the blue eyes and golden smile and golden hair and perfect life and perfect everything that makes my pain go away, makes their hands disappear, makes my own arms envelop around you tightly for I know you'll save me from these waters, from these dreaded waters that we tread, from my hands that can do nothing but wrong to my body and although it's difficult for me to control, I just wish that sometimes, you can see that I am not just a whiny, cranky, stubborn Brit with large eyebrows and pale skin and an intelligent level that is beyond what one imagines.
You
You destroy my bad, my ugly, my evil, my hurt, my sadness
You bring out my good, my beautiful, my eyes, my passion, my smile, my adoration, my wonder, my curiosity, my love, I love
You