Don't Wake Me
I'm holding your hand. We're sitting on the observation deck, looking out at the stars, a nebula becoming visible in the distance. A half-empty bottle of wine is sitting behind us. You have a glass nestled in your hand.
We're laughing. I'm going on again about my missions before you came. You aren't sincerely interested, but you listen anyway because it makes me happy.
Our laughter settles, leaving the room in a peaceful silence. I gently reach up and brush your cheek. Your fur is so soft. I lean in slowly…
Everything is suddenly dark and I'm on my back. My mind tumbles for a moment until I feel the blanket. It was only a dream. Damn.
Why am I dreaming like this? Every time I sleep, we're together again. I never pushed you away; you never left.
Ever since you left, everything just became cold. The ship grew lonely. My days became routine. Just living is now something I do thoughtlessly.
It seems the best times of my life are now spent in my dreams.
My mind drifts back into the sweet embrace of slumber. This time it's raining. Stone is under my feet. I'm looking upwards through the rain at the beautiful goddess I'm destined to save.
And then it all moves. You came aboard our ship for the first time. The first time we had a real talk. The first time we had a secret meeting. It all plays like a movie in my head.
I try to turn away. I know how this story ends. But my eyes are forced to watch this beautiful picture of our lives. I slowly become the man I chose not to be. My heart flutters with the emotions that my occupation refuses to allow. And yet, it's right.
Once again, it ends with us under the stars. This time we're on Sauria, the edge of the Krozoa Palace's highest peak. It's not raining. The sky shines with enough stars to light up the space. I'm looking deeply into your eyes that glow gently within the moonlight.
We slowly come together, relishing the moment, until…
A buzzer sounds near my ear, tearing me back into the dark, lonely quarters. I reach over, grab the alarm clock, and throw it against the wall, silencing it. I can't work. I want to sleep.
I want to dream. As long as it's with you, I want to dream forever.
But the sleep doesn't come. Only tears.
A/N: Special thanks to Skillet for writing the beautiful song that inspired this and to littleurmey who beta read it.
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