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James,
Need: one of the most essential words I know. You asked me what I needed to survive, and I wrote your name with my finger in the stars. You asked me why I needed you, and I told you that you were the only reason I was still alive.
Remember when Lysander died? Of course you would; Lily was in the car. I didn't know what to do with myself when they started dating. My best friend was dating my cousin. My best friend that I was in love with, like all of the Muggle fairytales go. As cliché as this is going to sound, I cried myself to sleep the night they announced it. And then they went on that road trip two months later. I still hadn't forgiven him. It was the first time they really tried to fit in with the Muggles. That road trip was all the two of them had been looking forward to that summer.
Lysander left me a note before they left:
God, I'm so excited, Molls! But I need you to keep a secret for me. I'm proposing to Lily tonight.
Love you,
Lysander
That was it. He even managed to throw a "Love You" in there, even though he would never mean it in the way I wished. As far I as I know, he never asked Lily to marry him. His time had run out. He had waited too long.
But then you came along, James. Yes, you were my cousin, but I never thought it would be you. I thought it should have been the opposite, that I would comfort you when your sister died, but, no, you were there to comfort me when my best friend died. I did nothing for you.I just held on as tightly as I could while you helped me get through my loss. It never occurred to me that your loss was bigger than mine. A sister versus a best friend. Think about it.
I'm sorry I wasn't there for you through that. I only bothered to think about myself. But I hope you can forgive me even though it's been over two years, and I'm just bothering to tell you this now. I love you more than you can possibly imagine.
Love Always,
Molly